busy period of my hols...

29, 30 nov, 1, 2 n 3 dec... had CIP @ suntec... only 1 word 2 descibe it: exhilarating... was fun @ times, coz u're so busy u find it fun... n @ times u get real frustrated coz of messed up stuff - organisation v messy this yr @ e Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon 2005. e marathon was on e 4th itself... @ 1st i only wanted 2 go 4 e 1st 4 daes coz apparently, u need 2 go @ least 4 outta e 5 daes.. but turns out tt i enjoyed myself so much on e 2nd dec... tt i decided to go on e 3rd too! n erm skip trng @ e same time ;) dun tell my capt pls... made lots of real nice new friends dere... kinda sad tt we part ways already... dunno if we'll ever get 2 meet again, they're lyk sec 3, 4, unis... yupz, even working adults also got... coz e volunteering experience is v enriching. really hope someday in e future we'll get 2 meet again... hopefully Singapore is tt small. but well... some of 'em live in e east n north... kinda no hope but we shall see. 29 & 30 was packing of goodie bags - so NOT fun.. zip e stupid shoebags until hands pain already... 1, 2, 3 - expo days... giving out of e bags... it's when e fun n horror begins! horror = i was in 10km section, n e prob was tt e shirts wasn't here yet so we've got 2 put up wif e public's disapproval/anger/unhappiness, u name it, yupz, we had 2 put up wif tt. but got mostly nice ppl too so erm wasn't tt bad. fun = being runner... meaning counter support... getting e bags n e bibs 4 e counter ppl... fun! i was counter too... it was busy n fun too... at times... but v tiring standing... whole time standing so if u go 4 this thing, b prepared 2 stand! 1st 2 days slack... e next 3 is really busy! made lots of friends during e last 3 days... tt's when u get 2 mingle wif e rest.

10, 11 dec... 9 dec was sighters for this archery comp, my 2nd to date. 1st outdr comp... n well todae's e 10, n i'm already burnt red so who noes wat i'll b after 2mrrw... oh well, now i noe better = put sunblock! results out, i'm ranked 13th outta e dunno how many archers... as usual i'm one of e lousiest in e whole team... including guys' team.. oh well... v unhappy wif myself for lacking e stamina 2 maintain my score in e 2nd round. 1st round was 206/300, 2nd round was 160/300 HumPh! considered passed but i had higher expectations of at least 180 for each end... i'll do better 2mrrw, tt i promise 2 try.

not much of a hol...

2nd week of hol, had trng camp... 3 day 2 night, total no of hrs of slp i had= 3.5 hrs... dunno y 2nd nite couldn't slp... we voluntarily switched off e lights at 11 some more... usually 2nd nite can slp... dunno y this time couldn't... at least wasn't a deep slp... v short if there was... anyway... e galz were sleeping on e 2nd floor which was out of bounds to e guyz but erm some of 'em didn't noe so they accidentally stumbled into our rooms 4 various reasons... lyk paying up e money we owed 'em.. haha... meals was horrible.. .everytime wait so long coz they had 2 go out n buy or order macs or stuff lyk tt... longest we waited was 3 hrs... hmm... it was lyk starve until cannot starve already, so had a nap which helped pass e time n forget our hunger for a while then we tried shooting pistol(me) n rifle (no way) which helped to distract us... yupz... trng in e sun... made me darker... during those days... haiz... oh well, at least i wasn't burnt... compared 2 e shooters-pist0l n rifle,... they were so fair... haha... nvm... watched a motivation movie - MIRACLE... really inspired me... commitment... haha... hm, will commit myself from now on... it taught me lots... yupz... hope this feeling can sustain me thru out e whole of next yr too...

3rd wk of hols... harsh trng begins... mon had rest coz trng camp ended on sun... thankfully... coz otherwise it'll b pt.... tue... shooting... wed, break... thurs, pt - endurance otherwise known as morn run... fri, strength trng... otherwise known as strength trng... sat... shooting trng... sun, rest. as seen from above... our trng is undergoing a major overhaul... during camp, we learnt mental trng n putting down on paper our thoughts n feelings abt each trng... our trng is getting more organised... n more disciplined... late 1 min for pt... 5 push-ups... n so on... will increase 2 running round track dunno how many times... 30 min late... turn ard n go home coz makeup pt another day... everyday at home muz do 100 push-ups n 50 jumping jacks... haiz... dunno wat 2 say... but i've decided to commit myself so i didn't complain as much as i usually would,... am trying 2 stop these complaints of mine anyway.. lol... i'm so troublesome... no wonder e galz team capt didn't quite lyk me at 1st.. coz i made life difficult for her... unintentionally... unknowingly... but now i noe so i will not commit e same mistake twice, meaning, my complaints shall CEASE! hehe.

really wat a day~

2dae... hmm... pon sch 2nd time... 1st time was 2 days ago... oops... haha... no 1 say anything... anyway 2dae, went 2 meet mg friends! had fun talking n chatting... then went for pw op workshop... urgh... but it was ok... kinda boring but oh well... then went 2 surprise eleanor! coz her bdae's 2mrrw... so some mg friends crashed nj 2 surprise her... haha, i went too... then we went johnson's duck 2 eat.. yum... but erm... juz when this fabulous evening was going 2 end... some of my friends decided 2 take a pix wif some signboard...when then leant on it... there was a loud sound of breaking utensils... e restaurant on e other side... had stacked saucedishes leaning against e signboard so it was toppled over... all of us were stunned so as 2 speak... we didn't noe wat 2 do... those friends of mine, they immediately offered 2 help clean up, 2 help compensate... e rest of us were willing 2 help pay if necessary... we were all in nj u,... anyway e manager was really really nice, he told us there was no need... it's ok... such a nice person... it's really great noeing such ppl exist... my friends they were really really srry... e employees weren't happy though,... some woman was lyk muttering away in chinese tt it's those girls playing,... haiz... oh well... it's really lucky for us tt he didn't make a big issue outta it... wonder if nj's reputation was ruined... haiz... me n my friend was lyk we don't care anyway... hahaz... outta e group of 8 ppl there... only 4 were real nj ppl... hahaz... anyway... what a day.

life after promos~

yay, now can relax alr... couldn't find anything 2 do though... hmm... anyway, juz glad tt exams r over n now can rest... or so i thought, thinking... i realised tt there'll still b lessons, there'll still b hwk, much worse is tt there'll still b trng, yuck, hate PTs.. only ever really liked e shooting part of e whole cca session anyway... n well... only switched on my hp in e evening, n i realised there was 5 missed calls, n 6 sms... why are those ppl looking 4 me.. when i leave my hp on 4 more than 72 hours, it doesn't ring, no not a single time, when i switch it off for a day, ... no 1 seemed 2 realise tt they can call direct 2 my home... not lyk i blame 'em or care... msg was abt trng, resumes 2mrrw, rite after promos, wat can i say... thought i had a chance 2 rest, guess not... SIGH... it's lyk back 2 tt life full of complaints... will definitely look forward 2 e time when ccas r no longer a bother,... primarily referring 2 end of jc... haha, sounds so extreme. every1 says studying years r e best... they're rite... but sometimes, when u're in this situation... can't b helped... mg would b a lot better.

Tempus Fugit~ time flies...*

no kidding... tempus fugit... time flies... how apt a description... i seem 2 b wallowing in self-despair... haiz... was talking to my friend e dae b4 yest... fri... realised tt these few weeks... always been mentioning life ... in e 1st 3 mths... always recalling 2 e fun times we had... e many little jokes... lyk how sher used 2 dodge whenever we put a phone in front of her... for fear of its camera... but we always use a cam-less phone... lol... i guess i'm trying 2 use my present class as subst? i checked ard... n realised tt most ppl had cam phones... strange... i would expect nj 2 hav ppl wif less of such phones... but well... i guess e cam phones r v common alr... wonder if she's still so affected by such a gesture... or has 67 trained her alr? i wonder...

guess i've been comparing e kind of ppl i meet in both schs also... v diff types of ppl... how strange... we're all singaporeans but such a vast diff... hav been comparing... my friends n i,... we keep saying s15.. my nj class.. has no guyz... hahaz... i dunno... it's juz small little things here n dere tt gave me tt impression... they... their lang v coarse, v rough... my poor friend cringed on hearing 'em... but well, got used 2 it alr... hear bad lang everydae... poor me... wish i was back in mg... but well, we can't turn e hands of e clock back... tough luck... but i guess they're alr acceptable... should stop complaining... things might hav been worse... ok... gotta admit smthg... kept comparing 'em wif 67 guyz... man, i think i'll regret saying this... but well, really, now i noe.. how decent they r compared 2 my class guyz now.

i was telling my friend... by now i think i should hav let go alr... but somehow i keep dwelling on e past... it's not wrong 2 look back... but i guess it's wrong to keep my head turned back while walking forward... might knock into a pillar... hahaz... wat a bitter laugh... sigh... i muz face forward... i muz.

fri, had lunch wif some of e ppl from 67, mainly mh, sher, ivan, darren, ian n jenny... it was really hard 2 organise it... wat wif mh doing e organisation... tt morn i was in a gd mood... realised tt i was nv in such a gd mood ever, not since entering nj... anyway, was laughing n joking wif some friends... then 1st lesson... mh ruined it by saying how e galz all can't make it... might hav 2 cancel it after all... darn, wat wif e lousy marks i got from econ drq test... i was really down in e pits... think i sorta gave my classmate an arrogant look, a darn pissed look... well it's ok, we dun really communicate anyway. then it was really hard 2 smile in e 2nd lesson n so on... msg jenny n she said, we'll juz go over n c how... so ok, agreed. fri after sch, coz there's math remedial, tt's y so many classmates stay back... real glad 4 their company, even though i was only wif 2 galz - my pw mates.

lunch - went over... sat @ e bench... saw 1 snr... forgot his name... sigh... alice's angel n mortal... even jenny forgot his name... then they ended sch... alice 1st one down... prob coz she's 2 go 4 oac... painting banner... prob for maf... haiz... was talking wif qt abt tt... she said alice invited her so she invite me n it's not tt e class forgot abt us... well they juz don't inform us abt stuff anymore... ok, shall stop it... anyway, then e galz all came down 1st... followed after a short while by e guyz... woah... it's lyk really woah... suddenly hit me tt oh yeah, e ratio's lyk 18 guyz to 8 galz... forgot abt tt... hahaz... it was nice seeing familiar faces again... kinda... more or less... ivan asked if i still wanted 2 strangle him... hahaz... mh is e target now... she pissed me off more... there was a mango on e table... wanted 2 throw it @ mh... jk. lunch, adam's rd... was ok, mh had 2 rush off 4 yida's autograph session... but got a taste of e familiar atmosphere... lunching 2gether. anyway... yeah. guess i'll stop here.

temper temper- time 2 b tempered*

okies, shall not throw tantrums anymore... or rather i shall try not to ;) anywayz.... update... e wounds on my arms, legs, everywhere r healing now... within a few days, they're almost gone, tt Dr Loke sure is gd. being e responsible me i turned up tt dae, crap, hate it when duty calls... ok, promos, 6 wks left, chem spa, 4 wks left, phy spa, 1 wk left, chem n math tests, 1 wk left... = it's time 2 start revision... rite... n e ipod mini gold colour, apparently it's not in Singapore yet... too bad then... mh... guess u hav 2 wait... haven't lunched wif e 67 galz in a long while... but well... wonder how they're doing now? sigh... it's time 2 study every1... no matter who/where we r...

well i guess i have 2 admit... i'm starting to like my class... they're real fun, almost comparable to 67, or rather wat 67 was. s15, they definitely do not = mugger class... after having a few class outings wif 'em since joining this class... am starting to like e class ONLY, not nj, yucks. they gave us a feedback form 2dae 2 fill up n let's c, there was do u agree whether the facilities n environment r conducive for studying? PUh-leez! e mosquitos! so i put strongly disagree! then later they put are you proud to be part of njc? strongly DISAGREE! whahahaha... so many disagrees n strongly disagrees in 1 feedback, 1st time i disagreed so much... tsk tsk, nj has FAILED terribly! HA! there was 1 option saying if other people are criticising njc, you will defend njc.... STRONGLY DISAGREE!! i was telling my friend, i'll join them in their criticisms man! so funny... it's lyk they've really failed... either tt or i resist too well... my friends n i (2nd intaker galz) were discussing 2dae... when ppl asked wat sch we're from... we would mumble njc... it's so pathetic... i also dunno y... i juz dun feel proud 2 b part of njc... they say it's boring here... but e councillors n every1 r really trying their best 2 make this place fun... but i guess e uniform reduces watever effect they had? it can b pretty fun in here, esp wif my class, but well guess e general idea is still nj is a mugger sch... can't b helped i guess.

btw, i've changed my hp no.... u ppl should hav received my sms otherwise... i dunno... network failure? hahaz... anyway, nitez ppl, mugging time. ;)

u wish, i'll not turn up, there's a limit 2 my patience! n e limit's been breached! curses::..

hey
can i complain?
i've juz been thoroughly angered
stupid archery
u noe there was supposed 2 b a meeting juz now but then it was cancelled... e capt told me after i put down my bag...
so tt wasted a bit of my time...
so i was a bit pissed
then i dunno, i got pissed a lot 2dae... feeling up n down lots... dunno y
then they sms me
i end at 1230 2mrrw
they wanna meet at 5 pm
n so i said i went down 4 nthg juz now, now u want me 2 wait damn long, 5hrs juz for a meeting 2 discuss e script
so i said wait n c if i feel lyk turning up
n she said no i will not wait n c, it's ur choice whether/not 2 cooperate n give a LITTLE more then e luckier ones who dun hav 2 wait
u noe... i'm really damn angry.
i was feeling so down juz now on e bus dunno y... juz felt lyk crying... i dunno wat's going on... then receiving e msg juz now made me so angry... i really wanna quit archery now...

i dunno
i really dunno
i hate it rite now
perhaps after a nite of slp... things will get better... or rather things will b clearer
i'm really tired...
tired of compromising...
tired of doing things way beyond myself juz 4 em
i noe tt perhaps e others r doing e same thing also... but i nv had e experience b4... i dunno whether i can handle it
i mean it's lyk affecting my studies too
i really hate this
damn!
i wanted 2 use stronger words in my nick but i guess i thought better of it...
they don't exactly deserve my attention
they're not worth it
esp not njc
it's juz a short 2 yrs here... it's ending soon, i'll study hard n get outta here
then it'll b over i hope
finally
haiz
i seem 2 b trying 2 comfort myself

i really felt lyk quitting a lot of times alr

i dunno whether i can sustain for e rest of e 1+yrs here leh
if i quit i dun hav 2 face all these again
i dun hav 2 waste my time there
i can use my time better elsewhere

i was supposed 2 do my dc circuit tut
but i got too pissed off by em
i'm quite glad i got e mc now... mebbe it might = to me seeing less of 'em

haiz... i noe... but i dunno how 2 solve it... i dun wanna flare up @ em ... i sort of flared up in front of my capt b4 u noe
n i dunno... it'll b e 2nd time... i seriously wonder if i've been angered by e same party so many times b4 in my entire life
now it's all their fault tt i can't do my hwk

c how they affect my studies?

-end

~lonely solitude, nostalgic for bittersweet memories~

defn: Unhappy at being away and longing for familiar things or persons
bittersweet: Tinged with sadness
lone: Characterized by or preferring solitude in mode of life
solitude: A disposition toward being alone

~lonely solitude, nostalgic for bittersweet memories~

"looking back at the past, how i wish things didn't have to change between us; i've asked myself countless times: why must we be separated? it's a fact, we can no longer be 2gether again, no matter how much we try, we can no longer go back 2 tt time in life, when we were happy, when we were in each other's company."

"i'm waiting for you here, where are you? Are u waiting too? for my appearance in your life? if only e time when we finally meet can arrive faster... i'm adrift in the sea of time, waiting for you to lift me into your arms, before i sink below... so please hurry, hurry here to save me."

"isn't she lucky this hollywood gal? n they say she's so lucky she's a star, but she cry cry cry wif a lonely heart thinking, 'if there's nthg missing in my life, then y does these tears come at nite?' she's so lucky, but she cry cry cries..."

"i used 2 think i had e ans 2 everything, but now i noe, life doesn't always go my way, feels lyk i'm caught in e middle, tt's when i need your love... all i need is time, a moment tt is mine, while i'm in between."

these few days, have been real tired, always falling asleep in lectures n tutorials, i've changed, not for e better n i really hate this me, but i wouldn't let this bring me down, no way.

bks bks bks

oh yeah, am also reading artemis fowl @ e moment, 1st bk n e arctic incident... yupz, am waiting 2 get e other 2... pretty interesting... also reading comics recently... but well, time 4 studies now, esp wif 6-7 wks thereabt left 2 promos, i need 2 start now... esp after those results 4 ct... anyway cya ppl.

nthg much 2 sae...*

well lyk e title says, i've got nthg 2 sae, but well haven't been blogging in a long while so i guess it's time i blogged again... harry potter n e half-blood prince juz came out, on e 16th of july... i finished reading it on tt sunday, n well... went back 2 sch on mon n every1 was talking abt it... i didn't expect certain classmates 2 b reading harry potter but they were all discussing it... esp e ending... yeah i feel v unfair 4 dumbledore, he trusted him! oh well... guess it teaches us a lesson, believe all u want in a person but don't 4get who he started out as... nay, juz kidding. but well, can tell harry sure matured lots, esp in e last few pages... hope things will b ok in e end...
well, my grad ceremony is 2mrrw, or some refer 2 it as speech day, for mg, it's called founder's day, or rather they arrange e grad ceremony 2 b on e same day as founder's day...
on fri, i went 4 doctor's appointment 2 check out all these 'wounds', yeah all e galz n some guyz out there who noes me would noe wat i'm refering 2... hahaz... almost if not all e galz i noe who've seen me in e past month would noe... they all saw... their observance is amazing i muz admit... well gd thing is tt it's nthg tt bad, it's smthg lyk due to my body itself, then i got bitten by some bug so my body reacted 2 e bite n caused all these things 2 come out... bad news is tt it'll take a few yrs 2 go off... haiz... so much 4 'spotless' skin ... @ least @ e end of it, it wouldn't leave any scars behind... or so e doc says... who noes... hav 2 wait n c...
well, CT... was real bad, got ----, for math, chem, phy n econ respectively... my gp... it's too horrible 4 me 2 b willing 2 publicize it... all of 'em too horrible so i rather not sae here. so i got a tuition teacher, juz had 1st session 2dae, was ok. ok, am tired, shall leave now, bye :)

outing EnJoyeD it!!!

noticed tt my tagboard going haywire, when tag... muz refresh whole page 2 c e new tag... if not click nonstop no use... juz results in too many tags... haiz... tried fiddling wif it, didn't work... still e same old prob, srry ppl, guess we all juz hav 2 bear wif it til i find a better one
2dae, 1/7, had outing!!! went 2 meet up wif 67 after their math paper then went over 2 orchard where we had lunch at pastamania... we spent lots of time deciding where 2 go- as usual... when will this change? haiz hopefully soon. okies, then we went watch movie -WaR oF e woRldS... it raWkS!! no kidding, dun listen 2 mh... she actually said she felt lyk SleePINg!!! sheesh... it was lyk felt so highstrung thru out movie... it's juz tension from start 2 end... lyk e guyz said, their fight 4 survival is really portrayed very vividly, clearly. not a minute of rest b4 some other crisis befalls e ray n his family... it was lyk woah... tensed up thru out movie! well, then we took neoprints twice... damn hot in e booth they still take so many times... sheesh... then went heeren walked ard in hmv b4 alice, yj n i left... yupz... it was lyk 6 by tt time... amazing how time flies... esp when u're juz stoning ard n waiting 4 'em 2 make up their mind abt where 2 go... but well it was gd being back wif 67, enjoyed every minute tt i had chatting wif 'em again... well kinda regret not watching movie wif 15 but i guess... there'll always b a next time :) we should b optimistic hehe, anyway ta ta now.

wheeee... time 2 hav fun!

yupz, i'm totally ready 2 juz stay home n while my time away... luv e long wkend... sch'll b dreadful when we hav 2 go back... haiz... wat wif phy spa coming up... bUt tt's things 2 worry abt in e future, not now, not here, not in e present! shall attempt 2 begin blogging again... but no guarantees... stuff will always get in way... which is kinda sad considering how young this blog is :( nvm, there'll b time. well back 2 e usual... realise i'm always complaining, talking abt hc, archery n sometimes nj... i guess tt's wat my life is all abt... hmm shall attempt 2 talk abt other stuff, laTer.
a quick update on wat's going on in:
-archery = trng during hols were everydae
= hard work paid off, i did my 'personal best' in comp even though it was lyk ranked 31 out of dunno how many, abt 60-70. lousiest of all e nj shooters but wat e heck.
= team event, i was in e galz team, 1st shooter some more so nervous, other teams damn noisy, keep cheering nonstop even if their members' arrows didn't hit e board. nus, ntu, tp n many more. well too bad 4 nus/ntu, not gonna join their archery club when i reach tt lvl :P.
= being 1st time participants, we didn't expect much outta this comp... n well we sent 3 teams, 2 guys', 2 galz' team... out of which 1 of e guyz' team got 4th overall, same position as e galz' team... 4 vs 4... not bad at all even though we were quite disappointed at having missed getting e medal... in order 2 show mrs cheng tt she's wrong.
-school = common tests.... quick summary...
= G.P. okay.
= math NoT ok -40 marks alr, outta 100... chem NoT ok -26/80 alr...
= econ, quick satisfied, after doing e essay, quite happy wif it.
= phy... So NoT oK... paper 1 was ok... -12/40m(if tt's considered ok...) n paper 2 was E killer... every qns dunno how 2 do... formulas dun seem 2 b able 2 work... sigh looks lyk this is e 1st time i'm gonna fail my exams... max fail 3 subj, min, fail 1 subj... either way still fail... wat can i say? i tried my best considering i only had 6 days after all tt archery trng 2 study... haiz.
-my life = went out wif nj class 2dae after e phy paper... quite a lot of ppl went... well, went ps 2 eat n they went 2 watch movie(either war of e world/a lot lyk luv) some watched war, e rest watch luv... yeah. i didn't go... not interested in those movies plus dun wanna waste money... lousy excuse... 2mrrw might b going 2 watch movie wif hc class also... so juz making sure e movie i watch will b smthg i haven't watch b4... tt doesn't make sense... heck care.

trng---clashes----wif everything.. but i still luv archery

haiz haiz haiz sigh sigh sigh... archery teacher sae muz give up everything else coz no time 4 'em... only left time for studies n trng...not quite sure if there's even time 4 studies... next wk... trng whole wk... mon, mental trng, 130-330, tues 2 thurs, trng from 3-6pm... really really dun wanna voice out my objections 2 these dates... even though i arranged wif mh 2 go kbox wif her on tues , 2-7pm... coz he's always saying, would u put trng b4 leisure a not? i've placed trng in front of leisure so many times alr.. he juz doesn't noe... would it hurt if i sae i can't make it 2 trng this once coz of leisure? or would it b lyk e case where once u make a mistake u're black-listed 4 life... then he'll hav a bad impression of me... if he doesn't alr... how 2 run 4 ex-co lyk tt... haiz
he was saying out there... every archer is ur enemy... they'll pick on ur every mistake... to give nj archers a bad reputation, for e.g. last nite... we went potong pasir cc to train... actually it's only lyk 2 person who went... i went there 2 fletch my arrows n put in e arrow tips... n i left pretty early... anyway, this morn, 9am... e rj coach called n complained abt all e rubbish left behind supposedly by us... luckily our teacher clarified wif him n found out tt it wasn't nj archers who left all tt rubbish but some other ppl... so u c... ppl outside... they can't wait 2 give nj archers a bad reputation, esp since we're new.. so-called pioneers... not 2 sae tt u can't hav friends who r archers, our archery teacher's good friends r also archers, it's juz tt in competition they'll b tt, competitors.
3rd june, fridae, 12-3... went n crashed hc phy lect... irene tan took so long 2 notice jenny n i... then when she noticed she was lyk 'ae... err... ok...' then she kept looking back... during break she came up n talked 2 us... hahaz... anyway... after tt, i went 2 get my arrows n stuff... all e way in bishan... haiz... then went outdoor range 2 meet up wif e rest of e archers then went potong pasir cc to train(i didn't train i juz went there 2 c) then by e time reached home... was 8+...
4th june, sat, 1-3pm archery trng over @ Cdans, but i didn't manage 2 train much... coz was fletching my arrows... then i took lyk 2hr 2 fletch... haiz... wasn't easy... but part of e time was spent on stoning coz hav 2 wait 4 glue 2 dry... anyway... then we voted 4 archery boys' team capt n vice-capt... was a close competition coz voting was 7-6... anyway, i support both candidates so it's ok who bcome capt n who bcome v-capt ... btw, only 2 person ran... e rest were not interested/too busy yeah stuff... gals' team capt n vice-capt will only b decided after one of e galz who went back 2 china(she's from there) comes back... haiz...
okay, doubt i'll come online e next few daes coz of trng n studies, so this place will b quiet for e next wk or so... anyway, time 2 go... nitez all!

busy busy week...* prob is tt haven't start mugging

i'm so dead... haven't started studying anything... really really muz chiong now... let's give a quick recount of my wk... 29 may, sun, archery, coz i taking a course... lvl 1 course... e basics 2 archery... then coz e board was shifted so close... coz beginners wat... so my arrows all land v close 2gether... n coz dist so close, arrows went into board wif lotsa force, v hard 2 take out, plus they all clustered 2gether so v hard 2 remove... half e time asking other ppl help me take out arrows... even e coach also help... he was smiling when helping me... prob coz only me got such a prob... coz i shot e arrows so close 2gether wat... meaning i'm zai! err okay... not true lar... coz later on, after e course, we practised 4 our upcoming comp, practise shooting e pro-er way... n shift e board v far back... guess wat... this time e arrows not even on e board i'm aiming on lar... haiz... muz go practise.
okies, then 30, mon, nothg... i slacked e dae away... tues, 31st, got phy makeup tutorial, from 9-1040... then after tt, e class all go one of e galz' house 2 watch movie: star wars... then later they going for class lunch,
@ sakae sushi at west mall i think... i dun eat sushi so i didn't go, i didn't go 4 movie also coz they left n forgot abt asking me along... haiz... i guess they assume i wasn't going.. so i went lunch wif e other galz who're not gg 4 e class thingy... went golden rooster... saw alice wif her oac friends there... wat a coincidence! hahaz... then on e bus home met 2 of my classmates going 2 tt friend's house 2 watch movie... i didn't go along.. went home 2 slp instead.. so anti-social... haiz.. when did i bcome lyk tt...
1st june, wed... MUGGING session @ hc!!! went 2 meet e galz @ johnson duck 4 lunch... didn't expect 2 c e class guyz but well... it was lyk a whole group of hwa chongians juz descended on tt busstop then e guyz walk in front... jackson leading e pack.. wah look lyk some gang lar... hahaz... jackson look so fierce some more... then i was standing in front of him.. he didn't notice lor... until he came closer... then he was lyk ae! wat u doing here? oh u meeting us for lunch ah?... i said, no, i'm meeting e galz... so he went oh okay lor, then we go liao, bye bye... hahaz... anyway, johnson e fd quite yum, not a bad recommendation.then went back hc 2 class bench 2 mug... however.. weather damn hot.. plus zj brought poker cards along.. so erm instead of mugging, we played bridge instead, mh was lyk: this is not an official mugging session, still early, no need 2 mug yet... hahaz... only alice got any studying done lar, she sit beside us not distracted by e cards @ all... then went cdans 2 get my bow n quiver, spent $207 then met mg classmate @ busstop, she's in cj now. then went airport sent my sis off 2 London, sch trip, yupz, hope she enjoys e in-flight movie... n games :) so reach home at 10+, eat dinner n showered... so late rite? haiz, can't b helped then fell asleep quickly slept at 1am sigh.
2nd june, thurs, another long dae, coz previous nite didn't do any work then 2dae got chem makeup tutorial so went 2 kap at 830 2 mug... meeting my pw group there at 10 yup so went early 2 mug, quite productive, i should go kap 2 mug more often. yupz... then we went golden rooster(HAIZ) 2 eat... dao bao n sat on floor n ate lar... damn sad.. e others were lyk: no big deal wat... n i was lyk... i've nv done this b4.. sick of e fd there lar. then went back sch, chem makeup tut 1-430pm so long... it was actually 4 hrs long, then he let us off at 430.in e midst of lesson, celebrated 3 classmates' bdae, got 2 cakes 2 eat... hehe, bet sher would juz drown in happiness if she was here, one mango cake, another pink cake, prob strawberry? dunno got lotsa cream on it. anyway, glad i didn't fall aslp during tut, managed 2 learn lots from this session, glad 4 tt :) then actually at 630 need 2 go get arrows but archery teacher called during tut n told me.. no need, not 2dae... 2mrrw afternoon... haiz.. glad 2 hav e evening 2 stay home anyway, it felt as if i've been going out early n reaching home late everydae, which is not true.. but e main prob is tt i'm not really studying yet, which is really worrisome, coz i really need lotsa time 2 study... shall start asap, but 2mrrw promises 2 b another long dae so can't b helped, another 'stay-out' dae where i'll spend my afternoon n perhaps evening outside. haiz. sad case.

abt time 2 start mugging... ok, it's long overdue..

28th may: slept at 1 last nite... woke up at 630... left house at 710 2 meet pw group at kap at 8... thought i'll b late... n guess wat? i was e 1st one dere... on time summore... tsk tsk... but seems as though e other members slept even later than me so shall not complain. did pw until 10+ then 2 of my group members accompanied me til 12+ coz i had archery at 1 so i was heading over 2 e range directly... yup, they're real nice... actually only 1 person stayed all e way... coz e other member gotta b home 4 lunch... yeah... pw group real nice... then archery! wah! arm muscles were aching lyk crazy at e end of it... at 1st... arrows all v nice, grouping real close... so proud of myself... at least it was all on my lane n didn't cut into others... then coach made us learn e pro-er way of shooting... n well... my arrows missed e board 3 times... once... he was trying 2 ask me 2 pull my hand back... n well tt caused my arrow 2 fly over e board... damn embarrassing... but every1(3 others) were new juz lyk me so we were shooting n missing e board entirely sometimes... understandable... yeah... then was v tiring 2 shoot tt way... dunno y... anyway... my friend's arrow apparently missed e board n went under e storage rm door @ e other end of e rm... anywayz later, i got used 2 e new style of shooting n my groupings improved tremendously! 1 round looked lyk some pro shoot one coz e arrows were all so close 2 each other... n juz when i wanted 2 shoot e last arrow... archery capt came over... 2 watch... n my arrow went too much 2 e right... ruined my grouping... humph anyway... i kinda 4got how 2 set up my bow 2dae... so embarrassing... had 2 ask e others 2 check 4 me... arrggghhh... competition coming (18-19 june, august, dec) i better improve... tired... shall slp now... nitez.

i'm back!

i haven't been blogging since e 10th... n well... tt's coz i've been sick, been busy wif work, been too lazy/tired/no time 2 come online... yep... n a lot happened in e time i wasn't bloggin... so i'm gonna summarise as much as possible... only prob is tt i can't remember wat happened when so... nvm... let me start...
e wk of e 10th(10-15th may): fell sick... was feeling kinda ill on wed(11) but thought it was juz nthg... coz tt period of time, weather was lyk raining heavily 1 day n sun shining so brightly e next... every alternate day lyk tt... so i fell ill... perhaps also coz i caught e bug from my sis... anyway... felt real miserable on thurs(12) morn... so i didn't go 2 sch... went c doctor... waited 2 hr+... flu(fever, cough, phlegm, running nose) was getting worse during tt period of time... feeling cold n shivering coz e place was air-conditioned... my fault 4 not bringing sweater... anyway... went home 2 rest... tt dae, received a lot of msg asking where am i... y i nv go 2 sch... yup... my concerned classmates! hahaz... only 2 of 'em... e 2 i'm closest wif... 2nd intakers... anyway, e next dae still felt ill, even though much better alr... but went 2 sch still... even though got mc 4 2 days... didn't wanna end up not understanding anything in tut n lect... yeah... anyway, after sch fri(13) classmates went 2 each others' house 2 make jelly 4 college dae fd fair... i went home... was feeling ill... sat...14... college dae... had chem lab lesson in e morn... oh wait... messed up my timeline... nvm... then went home showered went back sch 2 help out in preparation 4 college dae... went home n left 1hr later... so tiring... in n out... reached sch at 1+ helped... set up stuff... b treasurer of e dae... stuff lyk tt... but then class stall(selling jelly n fruits) was situated @ linkway, both sides of linkway got ppl cooking away... smoke suffocating me... so felt ill... left @ 7 4 home... wanted 2 stay all e way... but couldn't take it... felt as if i failed in my duty as treasurer... nvm went home... had fever... haiz.

e following wk(16-22): mon 16 no sch, coz of college dae on sat... so had 1 more dae of rest... gd... can't remember much of this wk... sat i can remember... was real busy day... chem tut lesson in e morn(9-1040)... went kap n ate lunch... went friend's house 2 chat n get smthg(20 min) shall stay longer next time... felt so insincere... yeah then headed over 2 CDANS 4 archery... i finished shooting @ 3 on e dot(started @ 1) but admin matters... held me back til 530... rushed home 2 shower... reached home @ 6... left home @ 645 to meet pw group 4 meeting at jurong point @ 7... had dinner wif 'em n picked PI 4 our GPP... they picked mine... but it's got lots of probs... haiz... ended at 930, reached home at 955... yup... was a real tiring dae... but i enjoyed being so busy... workaholic... crazed...

e next wk(23-27): 23-mon-holidae... 24-tue-mon's timetable... chem spa... made horrible careless mistake i would nv make usually... hateful. somewhere this wk... e class galz were jumping into puddles... crazed... then there was this real big puddle tt no1 dared 2 jump into... 1 of e class guyz jumped in... n splashed himself n e other class galz(those who were jumping into puddles)... wat can i sae? serves 'em rite... real funny tt part... anyway... wed, 25... council investiture, 8-850... thought it ended at 10... so didn't bring pe attire... e few of us got scolded 4 tt n made 2 wear watever available shirt as replacement... hate tt teacher. anyway... thurs... 26... dickson's bdae... n this dae... haiz was feeling pissed off wif everything n every1... was impatient wif e class galz 4 moving so slowly... 4 taking so long 2 get outta classrm... yeah... was throwing a tantrum... haiz... really guilty abt tt... ended up... v impatient @ waiting 4 my friend... so erm... anyway, still waited 4 her even though i was highly irritated... was late 4 lessons alr... then she treated me 2 ice-cream 2dae as apology... i think i should b e one doing tt instead... haiz... shall find a way 2 repay her... fri... 27... short dae... last dae of sch.. ended @ 1230... went 2 class lunch after a short pw meeting... e rest had went ahead 2 golden rooster 1st... then when e 4 of us reached there... c 'em sitting as a big group... i... kinda felt as if i was intruding... i felt shy... by rights... shouldn't feel lyk tt anymore... haiz... then a 1st intaker came along... they were meeting him... khainam... cat high guy... no other 2nd intaker went 4 tt lunch only me... once again... e only 2nd intaker eating class lunch... anyway... then after eating, left 4 home... but then met my class as i was waiting 4 e bus @ e bus stop... so i joined 'em again... juz stood there n waited 4 bus... didn't interact much... then on bus... jenny called... asked me 2 meet her... coz she having bad dae... so i went home n showered b4 coming back out... went 2 hc... went 2 class bench... met charmaine @ bus stop... anyway... chatted wif jenny... juz accompanied her :) was glad 2 do tt also... v long nv c her... coz after tt i meeting my mg close friends @ kap also... so go visit bench 1st... then ivan, darren, ian, jackson came along... jackson went 4 his meeting... junwei was alr dere... zhiwei came later on... then chatted... had real fun! ivan was being lame... darren too... ian... being himself... junwei...stoned...zhiwei... same... then tried calling mh... she wasn't available... supposed 2 meet at 6... she came at 7... wif yinghong n yingjie hahaz... ivan was thinking of ways 2 err... 'punish' her if she decides 2 cancel e dinner... making every1 come down 2 hc... yup... darren left 4 dinner @ home b4 mh came... then i had 2 leave.... 2 meet my friends... jenny walked me 2 bus stop :) i was reluctant 2 leave... but a promise is a promise... 1st come 1st serve... mg 1st... went kap... chatted had fun,... but half e time i was wishing out loud tt i wanna join my hc class 4 dinner... my friends were being real understanding ... they asked me 2 go 1st... but being me... i stayed all e way... then i met my nj classmates dere... 4 of 'em n 1 senior... they saw i was wearing our class tee... :) they had juz finished their stuff in sch...yeah... 2 of 'em were wif our senior... e other 2 were from indian dance... they came in as i was leaving... 3 of 'em had e class tee wif 'em... 1 of 'em was wearing it... e other 2 had it in their bag... how coincidental... anyway... went over 2 johnson duck 2 meet 67. they were finishing dinner... we stayed n chatted n... i really had fun... very long haven't experienced this atmosphere... this feeling...

4 a while back... i didn't feel lyk going into hc... guess i was trying 2 escape from reality? dunno... i juz didn't wanna step in... nj is situated on a hill... everydae will c e chinese high side... e clock tower... can even c e top of hcjc @ e rite angle... guess it's juz painful cing it so near yet so far... c-ing ppl whom i dunno... wearing e hc uniform... having e chance 2 wear it... i was jealous, envious... haiz... selfish. it's been a while since i've been back dere... even so it's hard 2 get a chance 2 interact wif every1 again... mainly e galz only... so dinner 2nite was really wonderful... esp e time b4 dinner, @ class bench... e chatting... really enjoyed myself... dinner: ivan's lameness, jackson's mocking of mh... abt karma... esp when jackson n ivan converse rite in front of mh... abt mh... suaning her indirectly... aik chuan's expression of exasperation @ mh's behaviour... mh's eagerness 2 save money... her money... jenny's company... basically juz all these little things tt makes e atmosphere so familiar... tt's wat i've been missing out on ever since i left... they related some of e many incidents during lessons... abt yoda... abt chem teacher... abt how funny it was... or how mean yoda can b... abt junwei n his ability 2 make every1 laugh wif his antics n his comments... wish i was dere... this sort of thing, this sort of over dinner conversation can't b experienced juz by going back 2 visit... was thinking abt all these... during bus ride home... shall focus more on mg friends during next gathering... was asked many times 2dae by many diff ppl 2dae... 'yl, r u happy in nj?' or 'how r u?.. how do u do?' ok tt's not counted... tt was ivan being lame... but 1st sentence yeah i was asked tt lots of times... n my reply... thought abt it... n said... i'm ok in nj... yup, can't sae whether i'm happy in nj yet... not when it feels lyk a prison...( security too tight... even if i wear home clothes n attempt 2 go back into nj... they'll not let me... even though i'm an nj student... )not when e econ notes r lousy... haiz... i juz noe i'm ok dere n am glad tt i'm accepted well.. but sometimes juz hard 2 feel 4 nj, 2 feel as if i belong... haiz. e dae b4 i was sick... i said i was alr feeling sick rite? anyway... was telling my classmates tt... i was sick... homesick... hc is my 2nd home... haiz... last wk suddenly missed hc n 67... haiz... dunno whether 2 phrase hc is/was my 2nd home... haiz

feeling very slack...

haiz... strange starting a post wif a sigh but i realised tt these days i hav been really really slack... too slack... heard tt 67 is having 2 SPA this wk... as in e actual thing... yeah.... so i feel really really slack as compared 2 'em hu hav 2 study so much. all e best guyz 67! u all can do it! i'm supposed 2 b doing my PI now... dateline: fri, 13/5 but i'm obviously slacking again... n i should b starting 2 study 4 e Common Tests alr... coz it's 1st wk of term 3 when sch reopens... plus i got archery comp coming up(i think) so might not hav much time 2 study later on... but really dunno y i'm not studying... as in now i got a lot of free time on my hands n i should juz make use of this time 2 study rite? i really feel lyk studying juz tt i dunno where 2 start n which subj 2 start wif... haiz... i'm a typical mugger... @ least i'm in e mood 2 b 1... not lyk after prelims last yr... didn't feel lyk touching my books alr... so ended up 'o's nv do as well... haiz... ppl lyk me need 2 study hard 2 get e gd grades if slack a bit then can kiss my gd grades gdbye...
7/5, sat: chose wrong arrows... thought tt i should try using e pink-tipped arrows 4 once... but they're damn bent! i suspect tt's 1 of e reasons y my groupings so lousy 2dae(groupings as in how close e arrows r 2 each other on e board)... n most of e rest were on time... i turned up late... sheesh... muz leave house earlier... coach not v. happy alr... hehe... then most of e members were taking e lvl 2 course then e newcomers (me inclusive) juz practised shooting... we hav 2 take e lvl 1 course 1st... so we taking e course separately from 'em... their instructor very... not nice dunno how 2 describe,... yeah... he teaching then we hav 2 wait 4 him 2 notice tt we(e rest who's not on course) hav finished shooting n he took a long time 2 notice... yeah so most of e time we were stoning coz we couldn't go collect our arrows if some1 still shooting n he was still shooting... wasting my money. but my back muscles aching this time round... showing tt i'm using e right muscles... yeah! but then i thought it was supposed 2 b e right back muscles not e left... sigh... hav 2 wait n c... then 2 dae i nv anchor.. how 2 sae... nv position my hand properly(4got 2 do this) so most of e time groupings lousy coz of this... waste money again.
8/5, sun: wasted most of e dae away... basically wasted e whole wkends! c i so damn slack lar! slept most of e day away... hardly did any work... n so ended up @ nite cannot slp... so mon morn got headache due 2 lack of slp how ironic... qt was laughing away @ me... sigh i so pitiful still laugh @ me,... tsk tsk...
9/5, mon: so she told me she went hc sports dae on sat n no1 from 67 turned up! wah... she wasted trip... almost wasted trip... @ least got snrs there... but they were only there 2 watch wuqiong run his race.... after he finish his race... qt sae all e snrs stood up n zao... no1 cared... ppl were juz walking in n out freely according 2 her... mebbe it's considered lucky i didn't go? coz i was too lazy... hahaz oh yeah... 2dae was... 1/3 DAY! u noe... lesser than 1/2... we had 2/3 of e day off! hahaz! some more it's my 4.30 day so 2dae ended lessons @ 11.40 instead HA! hehe... srry... juz being stupid... y got day off... it's coz e performing groups did very well in SYF... got lots of golds n golds wif honours yeah... so got dae off... but then i was very stressed when sch ended... coz of my PI... was feeling suffocated... stressed out in other words... feeling quite miserable... then class wanted 2 go out n watch movie(kingdom of heaven) i also kinda wanna go watch but then didn't feel lyk going out coz i wasted my wkends away so lots of hwk uncompleted... yeah... so instead went 2 KFC @ BTP wif 3 other galz classmates n ate lunch... chatted lots... 2 were 2nd intakers so we were talking abt our 1st 3 mths jc... n sec schs... yep... very nice, sitting down n talking lyk tt... heartwarming. went home n did PI until 1 am abt there... coz felt quite miserable... so wanted 2 finish it asap used an idea tt repeated popped up in my various conversations wif various ppl... so it wasn't my idea... srry 2 e original creator of this idea... think it's jenny then later my nj friends also got suggest... so hope u ppl don't mind me using this idea coz i really really ran outta ideas... srry! e idea is tt lyk jenny said... abt going back n taking lessons wif 67... of coz i modified it a lot... can't sae everything here if not some stranger take my idea too... or rather jenny's idea... e internet is not a safe place 4 new ideas.

10/5, tues: No PT 2dae! yay!!!!!! coz achery 'captain' sick so let us off 4 1 day... but still got running on thurs... anyway, almost slipped n fell again 2dae... it's lyk juz last wk(also tues) tt i fell... so erm... starting 2 wonder if tues is a bad dae 4 me or whether may is a bad mth 4 me... lucky my friends caught me b4 i fell... was saved from a bad fall(n muddy fall) coz ground damn slippery(raining) n was a very steep slope too... shall not attempt tt again on a rainy day... very grateful 2 them 4 catching me... now suddenly struck wif a thought... really glad 2 hav friends there 4 me 2 catch me if i should fail n fall... they help set me on my feet again, it's really both literally n well not literally. 1 of them is a real close 2nd intaker gal... e other is surprisingly a 1st intaker gal in class i dun really talk 2... also didn't hav a gd impression of her... didn't lyk her character... but i noe she can b nice it's juz tt i dun really lyk her habits? those little things tt make up a person... i was biased against her in e 1st place when juz entering s15, so i feel bad 4 being mean... srry... i'm usually not easily influenced but tt time... guess didn't lyk her look either... she kinda tomboyish... n not e cute tomboyish... yeah... her skirt @ knee length, blouse tucked in... guess i was juz being stupid... shall stop finding fault wif her. well PI time... cya ppl... all e best 67! heard frederick injured his leg... well get well soon(even though it's not possible 4 him 2 c this). sigh how come everything abt 67 i hear from qt one... i'm so outdated... n no1 inform me also... sigh... should i feel left out? no. nv. not in a million yrs. ^-^

real lazy 2 come online...haiz*

haven't been online in a long long while... too lazy... too tired... too busy... excuses or reasons i'm not sure of... basically juz didn't come online so really short summary of wat happened 2 me this wk:
sun 1/5: nthg much...
mon 2/5: sentosa... pretty ok... some guyz turned up in e end... managed 2 persuade some of 'em out... got sunburnt in e end... still hurts... bag strap always resting on shoulder where it's very painful...
tues 3/5: fell down on e track... during PT... kinda made every1 got lectured coz of me... feeling very bad n guilty... y wasn't i careful... poor j2 got all e blame... still wanna say srry! even though there's no chance they'll c this... so now injured all over... aside from e sunburns... but wounds not as painful as e sunburns... shoulder injured, face injured, hand injured(left more serious than right), knee(left) kinda injured... basically all abrasions... left hand is e worst... face will not b disfigured coz of this incident so i guess tt's a relief... when fell down felt so disorientated when i stood up... so dizzy couldn't stand straight... hahaz
wed 4/5: juz chit chatted wif classmates during civics... hahaz quite funny coz there was this classmate... he was trying 2 slp... but e teacher thinks tt e other guyz should go make friends wif him so she made some ppl go n sit beside him 2 noe 3 things abt him n tell e class abt him... so funny... not juz tt 1 guy... she made a few guyz go find out more abt others... hehe
thurs 5/5: super long day... early in the morn PT... 9 rounds... but e guyz finished their 12 rounds during e end of my 9th round.... haiz... n my shirt was lyk soaked... sheesh... sweated so much... tt doesn't really make sense... didn't really think my shirt was as wet last wk(12 rounds)... during e day wasn't really tired... juz felt lyk slping now n then... dunno how 2 sae lar...
fri 6/5: 2dae went OCS(officer cadet school) - SAFTI - Singapore Armed Forces Training Institute.. e one near Jurong there... saw it b4... realised 2dae it's a real big place inside... very nice architecture even though their bunk area not air-conditioned... e cadet sounded so sad 4 those cadets inside(including himself) when he was describing life in there... while we were c-ing wat kind of conditions they hav in their bunks... saying haiz... quite sad... their life there quite busy... so when hav such bf pls try 2 understand coz he was saying when many guyz enter NS they break up wif their gf n all.... yeah he was saying it's not e guyz fault... not e galz' fault either... dunno wat 2 say... but he very funny... e way he said it... every morn those ppl run 1.5km... now n then got PT which have included 10+km run(?) at MacRitchie... stuff lyk tt... got galz cadet there too... but didn't c any... very few probably... they hav 2 march everywhere they go... as long as they're on e 1st floor... but e officer(adrian) showing us around wasn't marching... hahaz... CJC was also there... then we visited e 256 steps high tower... think it's 60m? not sure... wasn't paying attentn coz during 1st part of 'tour' was raining heavily... sigh was walking in e heavy rain... but e view from up there really gd... 2dae a bit misty but e guy said could c 80% of Singapore on a clear day... could c suntec but not changi too misty... tt guy was lyk saying tt galz u all very lucky coz galz officer cannot come up(i think),.. even e guyz who can come up r e top 10% they climb stairs all e way up b4 taking lift down... only 2 stories... 1st floor n 2nd floor... n fun part was watching them demonstrate close combat... poor guy fall on e floor so many times... painful by e looks of it... got wat neutralisation = using minimal forces 2 neutralise e enemy... stuff lyk tt ... very fun 2 watch... 12.30-5pm.... very long... not sure if it beats lessons... coz quite warm... humid... after e rain...e guyz there... some not bad looking lar... officer bringing us around quite ok... e guy who looked n sounded so woeful when he telling us life in there while checking out their bunks... he quite cute... hahaz... he was saying if u want get a bf out of NS alr... if not pls try 2 understand those in NS... hahaz. came home nv do work... went slp... then woke up n here i am... nitez all.

too lazy 2 come online these days... no time also*

haven't been updating my blog coz i haven't been coming online coz i too lazy 2 come online... hehe... also too busy... shall i give an idea of wat my wk was lyk? but i can hardly remember wat went on this wk... shall try 2 write down e interesting part then.
27th Apr: wed... short day i remember... wif pe... ran 2 rounds 2 warm up n then juz sat down n watched other classes play captain's ball... teacher didn't care... another teacher came along(my class's 1st 3 mths pe teacher) n asked y were we slacking... they said we're learning from the other class... learn strategy... stupid ans... really sian-ed tt day... of coz e guyz juz went off 2 play bball n soccer by emselves... whereas us gals.... really bored... n tired... was sleepy n tired from tues PT... but i think PT is quite ok dun mind it.
28th Apr: thurs... ah a day i was sorta looking forward 2... PT in the morning... sch starts at 8.30am... PT at 7... had thunder but didn't rain... n e j2-in-charge came late... not lyk he cared... tsk tsk... took his time 2 come n e rest of us was there @ 7 am ShaRP... n he didn't run wif us.... coz he had 2 c mrs cheng(principal) tt dae... so he said he didn't wanna turn up all sweaty n smelly... understandable i guess... lucky he said 13 unlucky no.... so run 12 rounds instead... but heard 2dae tt need 2 run 14 rounds next wk... wish myself all e best... it was actually quite ok running e 12 rounds... fun 2 run as a small group... all abt e same pace... stopped following e guyz' pace after my 6th round... altogether got 3 guyz running n 2 galz... me inclusive... but e guyz slowed down 2 follow my pace... e other gal rested 4 a while coz she injured her leg b4 so cannot run 2 long... then when she came back n ran wif me they went off ahead... when finishing last lap e guyz ran it wif us.... yeah... e whole 12 rounds were slow n steady. tt dae ended @ 5.20pm... but didn't feel as tired as i thought i'll b... then had a shower after e morning run in sch... felt really gd! wah so cooling n comfortable...
29th Apr: fri... nthg much... 12.30dae... then my class had a bball match against another class... s15(my class) vs s19... but instead of watching... me n e other 2 2nd-intaker galz went off 2 lunch @ coro... very anti-social rite... i noe... we've been doing tt awfully often... always going off by ourselves n leaving e class behind... real srry abt tt... shall try bonding next wk... then... came back ... heard tt e match's score was 43-38... S15 won!!!! hahaz.... guess they didn't need our support @ all which is a gd thing :) then wait 4 qt 2 come out... then we went coro 2 eat @ cafe wadever... she ate i watched... met yongkai there wif his tahan ppl... they came in n saw e paper we stuck up on e board e last time we went wif jenny mh sher alice they all... he only came in 2 c e board... not 2 eat... they left soon after... we talked n then called sher 2 meet us @ hc gate 2 bring us in... yupz... we stood outside gate 4 a while coz we didn't c sher standing @ e stairs... then we went in when qt met her hc friend who went in wif us... we felt awkward going in... as if we were intruding... didn't feel lyk going in... n were kinda looking out 4 table tennis ppl... coz erm... they were quite pissed off wif nj table tennis team 4 disqualifying 'em i heard... yeah so we saw mh wif her super short hair! wah she look so diff n kinda strange but dun worry u look ok mh! mh, yj, alice 2gether wif sher were waiting there 4 us... walked in n met darren, ivan they all @ canteen... heard table tennis team all went 2 support galz team so lucky they not ard... hehe... then went 2 class bench... met jenny n minli... sure looked as if most of e 1st intaker galz were back... a congregation of e jcs @ s67 class bench... rj, nj, aj, hc n later ac... when shuwen came! b4 tt... i learnt 2 play bridge thx 2 qt n company... in ivan's 'office'... not bad, in central area of singapore, no need pay rent some more... air-conditioned comfort... no need pay bills too... hahaz... e rest of e class guyz seem 2 hav disappeared... all tahan-ners wat... yeah... so cannot waste e long wkend away... then we gave shuwen her present(bought by jenny)-mini skirt... 4 sw's bf 2 c only... hahaz... had fun chatting n sitting ard... n took photo wif phone coz kinda 4got 2 bring camera... shall go activate my mms soon so can send those photos.
30th may... finally reached e last dae i hav 2 describe... achery! woke up ard 12 noon... hav 2 leave 4 CDANS @ 12.30 so was rushing ard eating changing... shall learn 2 wake up earlier... slept @ lyk 10pm previous nite... still so tired... yeah... 2dae's shooting not bad, didn't drop on floor didn't fly off into e wall or anything... had fun. then later my friends purposely took lane 1... coz lane 1 got 3 places 4 3 ppl... n was e shortest distance... no need 2 shoot so far... they pushed me 2 lane 2 which was furthur off... hav 2 shoot furthur... as in e board is furthur off... was so afraid my arrows would miss e board totally n fly off behind e board... shall not let 'em hav a chance 2 get lane 1 again! then went home... yup... nthg much... watched tv... supposed 2 do hwk... online until so late... sunday busy... mon... sentosa... tsk, muz end now... nitez

PT-actually pretty fun ...*

24th Apr: sunday, yup, went archery again! coz mrs cheng really came down... however only lyk 5-6ppl turned up... coz rest were busy i think... she came at the wrong time lar... then my friend was telling me we came down 2dae not to train, came down 4 her... so it's not really considered a training... we set up our bows so fast lar... usually take our own sweet time... this time really rush... hav 2 make sure we're all set up n practising by the time she arrives... she turned up around 1.20 thereabt, then went off at ard 1.40pm... yup... short while... 'trained' for 1 1/2hr... arm was alr aching from the previous day... made it even worse... mebbe strained the muscles a bit... even now still aching but very slightly... then the coach sent us 2 west mall... the rest haven't eaten lunch yet... but i had so i went home... but really damn squeeze in the car... but super nice coach lar! offered 2 send me 2 bus-stop but missed it so nvm, sent me 2 west mall along wif the others.
25th Apr: monday, sch... 4.30pm day again... totally sian-ed diao the whole day... but ended at 3.40pm coz the math period got shifted up... n i sorta knew tt it got shifted up but wasn't sure so went 2 ask this classmate... who gave the wrong info! said nv shift up so my friends n i... went 2 library 2 mug... hahaz... actually 2 finish incomplete hwk tt had 2 b handed up tt day or the next... yah... was juz trying 2 finish the work they gave us... then this 2 Fmath students(galz) came along 2 borrow calculators from my friend n i... so we thought we were gonna stay there until 2pm.... so we agreed n juz lent them, without asking 4 name n class... yar, hp no also nv ask.... juz noe tt they r J1 students... so... we had math tut at 110pm... so we were informed by another classmate... she called me up n ask me where were we... then ask us 2 go back classrm now... yeah... so how? wat abt calculator? my friend asked one of her ex-classmate in the library 2 call her up if those 2 came back wif the calculators... but of coz u can't trust any1 but urself... so yah... didn't get the calculators back... thought it was gone for good... was quite upset... called up my Fmath friend(mg friend) n pestered her 2 help me... she did... sent 10 sms to her friends in all the 6 Fmath classes 2 ask abt the 2 calculators... 150 students taking Fmath, 75 galz... so yar... at least it was Fmath, narrowed down the search by somewat alr... then tues morn, met another friend in Fmath(sc gal) n asked her 2 check wif her class... n BINGO!!!! she sms me during assembly 2 ask me 2 meet her n yep, 2 pass the calculators back 2 me n my friend! sometimes, it's really gd 2 make as many friends as possible... connections... was very worried coz i thought had math test tt day.... turned out dun hav... but really glad 2 hav my calculator back.... only 1/2 - 3/4 yr old... then dun wanna buy new calculator also, no time. it wasn't those 2 galz fault at all... it's me lar... dunno tt i had lessons at tt time... turned up 15 min late... teacher was lyk being lame lar, but he real nice lar, nv lecture us or anything... joked wif us... told him we were in library then he said ' gd, library mugging, not lyk the rest of the class, in canteen eating'... then my classmate was lyk, 'we could b mugging in the canteen n they could b playing in the library wat...' yeah... mon nite was really worried 4 my calculator... but had 2 finish up hwk for the next few days coz... had PT on tues 4.30-7.30pm... yeah...
26th Apr: tues... short day! luv it! ended at 2.50pm... fell asleep in chem lect... lecturer damn noisy... n she kept repeating herself... wasted so much time lar.. lyk for e.g. she was supposed 2 finish chem bonding part 1 during the previous lecture but coz by the time the bell rang n she haven't even started on metallic bonds, she told us 2 go home n read ourselves! wat crap! she earn her salary 4 nthg! lyk tt any1 can b a teacher, juz tell students 'this part go home n read urself'... then she always blame us tt we come in so slow n make so much noise tt she can't start... she can juz start... when we see her teaching we will reduce our vol somewat... but no... she wants complete silence... lyk the other time... after pe... then the LT damn hot.. so many of us were fanning ourselves n u noe wat she said? 'stop fanning urselves!' per-leeeeze.... we were feeling hot n is it a crime 2 fan ourselves??? she damn siao lar. well... had PT(physical training) for archery at 4.30pm so in the meantime after dismissal, did hwk coz knew tt i'll b too tired 2 do work after PT... got econ test 2mrrw... haiz... mebbe go take a look @ my notes later... yeah... doing hwk... in canteen... felt quite happy wif myself coz finished half of hwk for the day. then PT... 3 hrs of it... but was actually quite ok... altogether 7 ppl... plus the one in charge lar... so 7 of us, 2 galz... rest were guyz.... went gym n worked out... quite ok... interesting in fact... learn how 2 use the equipment... nv actually worked out in a gym b4 so was quite an experience... but 1 big prob... too many mosquitos! got bitten 4 times in there lar! the gym was lyk ground floor right in front of track yeah... then 6 rounds round the track, tt was ok, guyz had 2 do 8... then cool down exercises... my friend in archery recre(apparently there is recre archery n they told me dun hav!) was lyk mocking us lar... coz she dun need 2 do... sigh... but then later chit chatted wif the j2 person in charge real fun... yep, actually left nj when it was dark...usually i can't wait 2 get outta nj but well, 1st time left nj when it was dark n realised tt i'm starting 2 lyk this place... the track was so dark yeah... no lights there then it was kinda cool walking out coz u can kinda c some ppl's figures walking in front of u n hear ppl shouting out 2 each other... saying bye... was really something else altogether. looked back at nj... very pretty... with the lights only illuminating the crest... n the rest were shrouded in darkness... glad i'm finally liking the place i'm gonna b in for 2 yrs... perhaps archery deserves the thanks more than anything else, yup. so now i'm eating dinner n typing this... time 2 end this n go do the rest of my hwk n study... guess no matter where i am, i'll always b a mugger... but thx mh n sher 4 letting me join the "slackers' club" even though jenny was being mean n say tt we should b more stringent wif the members' criteria... realised tt i really miss jenny... she looking so serious but so lame on the inside... hahaz... heard of the thing tt happened in econ lect hc side from qt... yeah... the one abt william n peter... plz lar, choose nicer names, but really funny... real joke of the day, so much happening over there... shall try not 2 b too envious... @ least i'm still part of 67 somewat... yeah... yesterday when talking 2 my classmates... i said too fast... said my class was 05s67 again! sheesh stupid reflex action, when will i stop? lucky it's between the 2 2nd intakers galz only, so they understand... hope my class wouldn't get offended if they find out... anyway signing off now... cya ppl! this wk kinda busy lots of tests so cya a few days later...

wah... my accuracy damn lousy...

review of these 2 days...
22nd Apr: fri, shortest day of my week... n absolutely luv it! ended sch at 12.30pm... waited for qiuting until 2pm... her classes end then... hung out wif my classmates in the meantime... quite interesting sitting around... eating,... chatting... being lame... datz me... hehe... were in the canteen.. thought heard some1 said 'we got gold!' then they were discussing mebbe for some competition.. then i said mebbe not, mebbe they were juz saying tt they got the gold paint... srry.. being silly now... they got gold for CO? dunno... SYF for CO now? mebbe some private competition we dunno abt. yupz... then went library wif some classmates... hoping 2 vote 4 council candidates... then my classmate was abt 2 use this computer after this gal... then this IP student came up n said he haven't use finish the comp... n so my classmate let him use... but hello?? it was a gal who used the comp juz now... not a guy... sheesh... mebbe he knew the gal... hope so, mebbe they doing proj then not finished... rather hope so than he being irksome n trying 2 get the comp 1st... my friend in class... gal... was saying... let's go up 2 him n say... go away IP, i'm older than u... smthg lyk tt... anyway... met qt after tt... then went over to wait @ the gate of hc(am proud 2 sae tt for this whole wk i nv step into hc! not even once! ha! coz dun feel lyk going in anymore... yeah so pls understand guyz) 4 our dear friends, monghun, sher, jenny. then ash n darren tagged along... ok lar, they came along.. so nice rite? i mean it... i'm not being sarcastic... so nice 2 go lunch wif us! we (galz)walked into cafe wadever... n guess wat? the guyz walked rite past... n went into golden rooster instead... sigh... guess u can't expect much of guyz... but then... later... alice came!!!!!! wat a surprise! chit chatted n ate 2gether... fun... n decorated a paper wif 05s67 written on it so tt can paste it up... of coz... wrote every1's names on it... counted the names 2 ensure nv leave out anyone... the guyz came over later, after eating finish so i guess they should b complimented 4 tt... 2 2ndintakers came along too... dunno their names... tink it's junwei n another wei... srry ah... didn't catch his name... of coz, the paper had the 2nd intakers' names on it... mh write small print though... then darren said we missed out some1... then i said 'where got... we even included darren lor' ... kinda mean... srry abt tt... guess wat he said... 'u missed out mrs boo' ... err... got nthg 2 say 2 tt... except tt he snatched andrew tan's galfriend... hehe

23rd Apr: ARCHERY 2dae! @ beginning was fun, my arrows very close 2gether... then later... drop arrow on floor... 5-6 times altogether!!! arrggghhhhh!! can't believe myself... hope nv bend any of the arrows... $8 for 1 arrow... lucky not my arrow... friend said, should drop as many arrows as u want now... coz it's not ours... when get our own then should not drop the arrows anymore... my arrows went beside the board to drop on the floor behind... n got once... it erm... ... ... ... .... . .. . .............. .............................. ended up in the wall... so now the wall got a hole... so embarrassing! drop so many times... then later arrow hit metal part of wall then the j2 ask me 2 switch sides wif my friend so tt i'm in the middle n not @ the side so tt i wouldn't hit the wall again if my arrows go sideways... but 2day was really bad day 4 shooting.. heard lots of arrows being dropped on the floor. NOT juz mine lar, others also... i'm not tt bad... sigh... 2mrrw going archery range again... coz mrs cheng(principal) might come n watch... so hopefully dun drop arrows on the floor or go into the wall... will die if she sees it... she'll prob faint from shock lar! hahaz... jk only... hope everything will b better 2mrrw... arms aching... blue-black on arm... string make my arm even though got arm-guard protecting it... sigh... shall hold bow properly next time so wouldn't hit my hand again... all the best 2 me 2mrrw... n all the best in finishing my hwk... dunno whether i get 2 finish my hwk at this rate... esp competitions coming up, training thrice a wk... hope tests next wk will b ok... coz dunno whether got sufficient time 2 study 4 it... haiz... wait n c i guess... if i can cope... abt time i learned anyway. ^-^

let me rant n rave some more...

haiz... 2dae... long day again... 4.30pm... pw... pure crap... couldn't think of anything... brain kinda no ideas at all... wasn't even thinking... sigh... no inspiration of any sorts... muz come up wif smthg by next thurs... hav 2 hand up draft alr... chem test... next thurs... meaning next thurs sch ends at 5.20pm... sigh... econ test... next wed... math test... dunno when... all the topics until math ind. ... shall i sigh once more? sigh... math... dun understand trigo! need tuition! Alice! haiz... shall attempt once more 2 understand it later... endless stream of hwk... shall end here... need 2 do hwk... hav a gd nite ppl.

council speeches... no content @ all...

2dae... comprised of only council matters... basically the whole day, from 8 to 2pm was totally devoted 2 council nominees speeches... n well... hav 2 say it has been interesting somewat... but totally devoid of content worth listening to... in other words, the council-wannabes cracked lame jokes... sang songs(sometimes out of tune... on purpose?) 2 express themselves ... or juz plain talk talk talk ... 'i shall tell u more abt myself...' ... stuff lyk tt... but not once, i repeat, not once did they tell us what they would do 4 us if they got voted in... so guess had 2 change my criteria in searching 4 some1 worth voting 4... so i voted 4 those confident speakers, those ppl i knew who were more or less worthy... n those ex-councillors who were running 4 office again... really quite a pity tt none of the councillors-2-b were able 2 give me wat i was looking 4... for instance if they said ' i'll make sure they fumigate nj(2 remove/reduce no. of mosquitos)@ least once a month'... they'll definitely get my vote... hahaz... juz kidding, but i juz might do tt... if they gave me tt... they could @ least tell us wat kind of policies they'll try 2 implement if they got elected... sigh, well, no one's perfect, much less us teenagers.
then later got Civics... so stayed until 3.10... stupid mosquito in class... bit me 3 times! hateful... practically ran outta class when dismissed... ;) then went 2 grandstand 2 meet qiuting n watch hc against nj friendly 4 softball n as expected hc won. :) qt was supporting nj... n me having sportsmanship, helped support the hc team who was not on home ground so very few supporters around. then... shermeen came! yup... on the pretext of supporting the hc softball team... but of coz the 1st place she headed 4 was the canteen... came here 4 bubble tea... guess 4 us njc-ians, we take these sort of 'luxuries' for granted... hahaz. darren n dickson tagged along... dickson even ate prata lar... then aik chuan finished his game... frederick too... then he(frederick) walked past the grandstand... so... dickson n darren started calling 'monghun!'... hahaz... they called frederick 1st... then he couldn't c us... so they started calling monghun... hahaz... he saw us... aik chuan of coz had sharper eyes.. saw us n headed straight 4 us... yep, the day basically passed lyk tt... quite fun having 'em over... but not quite possible 2 hav this done often coz of security guards n no trespassers... coz got recent spate of thefts going on... sigh, y steal? they should noe tt in the future they'll earn lots of money n there's no need 2 resort 2 stealing... assuming the thief is a student... sure hope not... if not his/her future's ruined... anyway, had fun 2dae, thx guyz 4 making my day by coming over!

long days really drag on n on...

18 apr: mon... nv really believed in monday blues b4... but well... i guess i've changed my mind... esp since my mondays end at 4.30pm... juz looking @ the timetable makes u feel so tired alr... classmates always saying i always look so tired... maybe i really am... in nj... not very lively... naturally will b very sian... hahaz... monday... yeah... 1st thing in the morning is phy prac... skill C n D... plotted the x-axis wrongly... then had 2 redo on the spot... needed an extra 15 min... lucky had break after prac... so used tt time 2 do it... but i wasn't the slowest... another classmate(gal) was slower... she replotted her graph dunno how many time... hope she'll b ok during real phy spa... chem prac @ the end of the dae... not bad... but skill C n D again... sigh... getting really sick n tired of skill C n D... dun lyk D... stupid sources of error n suggestions... overshot titration value again.. sigh... lucky only needed 1 value n doesn't matter if overshot a not... stupid clip n stupid instructions, nv state clearly tt add starch only after pale yellow... sigh... should hav used my brain... but overall... could heave a sigh of relief when the day ended...

19 apr: tues... pretty light day, ends @ 2... main focus is @ 2... but during GP... chatted wif classmates abt class stuff... abt diff sch... abt stuff i was curious abt... abt class scandals... pretty fun,... even though we were supposed 2 discuss n write out essay outline 4 cigarette smoking... hahaz... finished 2nd last ... had break so used tt time too... the last group muz hav been talking nonsense too... sitting rite beside us... hahaz
At 2 PM... went 2 Parliament House! woah... guess wat the 10th parliament house was discussing abt? Integrated resorts.... yep, casinos in other words...saw our PM Lee Hsien Loong... n then later our Senior Minister came in!!! yep... but kinda monotonous... the 'debate' more lykly juz telling those ppl whether u support or dun support casinos being built... saw some members of parliament sleeping... or rather juz closing their eyes... who knows... Eunice Olson was there too... she is 1 of the member of parliament... yeah... apparently, the 1st row seating the MPs wif positions(PM n his cabinet) had too little seats so yeah... some had 2 sit in 2nd row... quite poor thing... they should juz enlarge the whole thing lar... quite tight security ... searched my bag twice... n i got the admission 'order' (pass in other words) n guess wat my no. was? 67!!!!!! YEAH!!!!! hahaz... was so happy... all the class galz... highly amused wif me... my 'baggage' no. was unfortunately 68... was going 2 b 67 but then the person anyhow give one... sigh.... nvm, had the admission 'order' as 67 is juz as gd! from the corridors of parliament house got a wonderful view of clarke quay n the singapore river... really picturesque... too bad nv bring camera... doubt they'll allow a camera 2 b brought in anyway... took away handphone n bag... quite sad actually, juz missed the Minister Mentor by a few hours... when i reached home n switched on the tv... channel news asia... n there broadcasted live was our dear MM talking... live telecast from the parliament house... haiz... even though their debate quite boring... cannot sleep... coz seating in full view of PM, SM they all... so erm, will b highly obvious n very embarrassing 4 nj if some1 slept... hahaz.... my classmate slept 4 lyk a couple of minutes... luckily tt was in another room... quite high up... they can't c... hahaz... could hear him snoring away... damn funny lar... ^-^ then went home by mrt... was the only gal taking east west line... rest were guyz(4 of 'em)... other galz went back nj 2 collect their bags n some had some activities... yep... shall end now... 2mrrw is council speeches so whole day NO LESSONS!!!! HAHA! so happy! can perhaps rest... but actually still must go read my math lect notes coz haven't been understanding since 3 lect ago n didn't hav time 2 go thru notes... well, now's the time... mug mug mug sigh... shall watch tv 1st anyway... cya ppl!

napfa retest*

4got 2 mention i did retest 4 napfa 5 items... n got B 4 sitnreach, B 4 situps, B 4 broad jump, A 4 shutter run[impressive rite? from E(12.48sec) to A(10.5sec)] and B 4 inclined... basically... overall... i did a GOLD!!! whahahaha... learnt tt from qt... juz tt her's muahahahaha.... nvm... impressed wif myself too... nv practised n managed 2 get a gold... even though i had 2 do a retest on it... but still... actually could try get an A for everything... but didn't feel lyk it... was satisfied wif my 1st try... for e.g.... broad jump, 1st try got 175 cm... then didn't wanna do again. hahaz... was too lazy.

blog-pros n cons

juz read an article on the newspaper... on how some PSC scholar put up racist comments on his blog... and how the whole issue landed in the papers... well i guess if he didn't want 2 end up in the papers in the 1st place 4 all his comments, he shouldn't even put those comments up in his blog... or even have a blog in the 1st place. i mean those with blogs have 2 b prepared 2 hav its content known publicly. datz the purpose of a blog... 2 announce stuff 2 the whole world, not 2 b kept private. so monghun... u over-reacted when we found out ur blog lar... u should noe tt dae would arrive... juz as i m prepared 2 hav my nj classmates find out my blog 1 dae... juz hope they understand all tt i've said in my blog abt nj... haiz... kinda wanna erase all tt i've written so far... but wat's the point... shall juz continue 2 write then.
for a blog which is a few days old... it's kinda out-dated alr... hahaz.. srry... fri i slept at 8.30-9.30 onwards... was too tired... so didn't come online... sat... was doing my hwk... so didn't come online... sun... should b doing hwk... but came online anyway. :) hahaz. time 4 an update!
fri: went out wif classmates 2 bukit timah plaza and ate at the 'foodcourt' there... very small foodcourt... the one beside KFC... yeah. the other time went wif 67 to tt KFC. then headed over 2 hc. as my 2 classmates and i were attempting 2 find the exit outta btp, 2 guy classmates came along and gave us the idea tt they were going 2 lead us out... n guess wat? we went 1 whole round... n they were headed 2 the toilet... STUPID GUYZ! we were so pissed off... the 3 of us(all galz btw)... i pretended 2 kick 1 of the guyz... kick his bag lar... n well... my friend really kicked him... serve him right. bluff us lyk tt. he totally deserved tt. then we went out... and on our way 2 the bus-stop ... met this crazed wild dog... was lyk barking @ us non-stop n almost tried 2 chase us... luckily was separated by railings and a drain... sigh.... then finally made it back 2 hc... didn't really feel lyk going back tt dae... but haiz... going home so early would b strange anyway... so went back n chatted a bit... walked around a bit... then went home... met joy, mh, alice, sher, yj, 2 galz 2nd-takers... jw, yichuan, yeah the seniors... and so on... the rest of the class guyz all disappeared 2 play pool... dickson was left behind... hahaz... then later he went over... they all went 2 eat steamboat @ marina 4 dinner.. didn't follow coz wanna watch tv n also no $ alr... hahaz.
sat: baby cousin Glenn came over in the morning! he woke me up! my aunt brought him into the room... hahaz... he's so cute!!! then later went archery! yeah! but arms aching now... i can't aim 4 nuts lar... n my arrows actually drop on the floor... wat's worse... it missed the board totally n erm... went 2 the other end of the room... had 2 retrieve it when they gave the all-clear signal... yeah... muz give 'clear, collect' if not later accidentally shoot ppl wat... hope tt i'll learn 2 aim the next time round... i'm using right-handed bow... coz my master eye is my right... even though i'm a left hander... sheesh... should hav tried bluffing tt my master eye is left... but oh well... wat's done is done, can't really bluff anyway. then slept the day away... was raining heavily... then did hwk until 2 am... wasn't tired.. coz sleep too much the nite b4... hahaz
sun: i slept all day again... then now blogging... quite boring lar... hahaz... shall end now... nitez all.

Sometimes it feels no one understands*

early in the morning... qiuting and i went over to hc... 2dae assembly starts at 8.30am... but since qt very long nv go back alr... so i might as well accompany her back... i miss the class bench anyway. but having 2 wake up earlier when i could sleep 4 another hour was not fun... plus 2dae super long dae... until 5.40pm... zzzz....
went back and stayed all the way until bell rang... hahaz... teachers down there giving us funny looks when we were taking our leave juz when ppl were going 4 assembly... sat @ bus-stop 4 a while... thinking whether or not 2 go back after hc assembly ended... coz thought 67 had free period... in the end.. qt wanted eat breakfast @ nj... so went 2 sch...
nthg much happened 2dae... aside from the funny phrases the phy lecturer used and the incident in class... during pw...
during phy lect... he was telling us abt some sub-atomic world to describe inelastic or elastic collisions, either one, can't remember... then he was saying we'll visit tt world next yr... how fun, we get 2 go 2 another 'world'... interesting phy... then he was telling us the collision theory using glass boxes... only thing is tt he sounded as if he said 'grass' boxes... so yeah, the grass boxes shattered upon impact... stuff lyk tt... then the apple was falling downwards and the world was falling upwards... tt so doesn't make sense... plus in the equation u1-u2=v2-v1... he described it as 1-2=2-1... which obviously doesn't hold... how can
-1=1? sigh... being really crappy here... u'll only understand wat i'm talking abt when u're there urself... basically all he said made sense... juz the way he phrased it... funny. being lame is 1 way of preventing 1 from falling asleep... esp in lect...
in pw... my class was being super lame and crappy... for instance... they were making fun of each other(class guyz) and were being kinda racist to this indian guy in my class... but he doesn't take it 2 heart... so it's quite alright. was laughing so hard during pw... lyk they were saying wat's the diff between a black brain and a bucket of shit... the bucket... sounds familiar rite? yeah... had a similar lame joke in hc... but the brain in this case was describing yeah... my classmate... anyway, ct wasn't too happy wif ppl calling each other names so she said since they were acting lyk kids... they should b treated as kids... they had 2 pull their ears or else get sent outta class... and read aloud the kind of attitude and characteristics a gd member of a group should have... yeah. poor them.
Anywayz, 2mrrw my class going 4 horror movie i believe... the eye 10... and obviously i'm not going. nv liked horror movies and will not start now. sigh... quite a boring post... but well, u'll only understand wat i'm trying 2 sae if u're there 4 urself... esp during pw... they were juz hilarious... and lame... ^-^

i don't really noe y i do the things i do*

2.4km run todae... had practise run yesterdae and did 18min thereabt... so was quite uncertain of passing this last part of the pft... even though alr failed shutter run(E) but still i ran... dunno whether stupid or wat... nvm, i dun wanna b left watching my class run from the sidelines anyway. i muz say, my class sure noe how 2 run. their starting pace was kinda fast 4 me... so i had 2 speed up 2 catch up... still lagged behind... coz i rather run @ my own pace than risk being too tired out in the middle and stopping to walk. i ran all the way! i even sprinted the last lap! didn't noe i had the energy in me 2 do tt... but the class(galz) was cheering me on... i was the last... everybody finished so fast, galz lyk 12-14min finish alr... and i took 16.09min, gd! i passed! yeah! didn't noe whether i could pass a not and yet i did! so happy! hahaz, was real funny... coz my shoe quite loose... then when i was sprinting finish... shoe came out... ^-^ teacher was lyk 'why ur shoe so loose? tighten ur laces!' hahaz... but the prospect of having 2 redo everything doesn't sound gd,... quite a damper but nvm. the dae passed by quite ok...
then at the end of the day, juz when i was looking forward 2 going back 2 hc... qiuting called me n told me tt 67 got sent off 2 turf city 2 support some competition... n being the wonderful class it is, they pon... and went pool... according 2 monghun... so there was no 1 @ the bench... so wat could i do? ended at 3pm... so went home... met desmond on the bridge though and the 1st thing he said was 'jenny said hi' or did he say alice? wasn't sure... was quite surprised 2 c him... talked a little, lyk 10sec... coz i was abt 2 go bus-stop n catch the bus n my classmate was wif me... didn't wanna slow her down also... he was going 4 taiwan immersion prog... i received the 'invitation' too but no space @ home 2 host any1, much less some1 from taiwan so 4get it. then when i crossed over and reached the bus-stop... guess hu i met? bryan! imagine tt... 2 ppl i don't usually c ard the bench and yet 2dae i sae them on my way home... gd thing or bad? i really dunno... obvious where bryan was headed 4... he changed 2 outside clothes alr... over in nj, heard lots abt bryan and yeah, sj from my mg friend who was in angklung... funny hahaz,... enjoyed myself listening 2 such stories... but then was quite sad,... coz i was really looking forward 2 cing u guyz... coz visiting in the morning is quite different from visiting in the afternoon... ppl more relaxed in the afternoon? i dunno... juz diff atmosphere... sigh. guess will juz hav 2 wait n c.
these few days(weeks even)... realised smthg abt myself... for instance juz now... when i was signing up 4 some law as a career talk... they needed my class... so being the impatient 2 leave 4 hc me...(was going over after signing up 4 tt talk) i quickly wrote down my class... and only after checking my details again did i realise smthg... i had written in the class column, 05s67... reflex action? i really dunno... i seriously didn't mean 2 write tt down... sigh, had 2 cancel it and write 15 over... kinda strange... seeing another class there... but well this sort of thing has been happening these few days, lyk the other day, my youngest sis was asking me wat my class was so i replied quickly: 05s6...7 i realised my mistake... sigh.. . but i couldn't bear 2 correct myself... and tt time was in the car... drove past hc... pointed out my sch 2 her... parents were lyk... ur sis' sch is the other side... not this one... sigh... dunno y i did tt... lying lyk tt... felt very bad and guilty... sigh.
Anyway, all those ppl reading, dun worry abt me, these sort of things take time... juz tt i didn't expect it 2 take this long. but eventually, i'll prob stop going over 2 hc, j2 cannot go over alr anyway, very strange. by then, the fact would hav sunk in and i would b comfortable in nj alr hopefully, well, hope is quite a beautiful and wonderful thing... it can lift 1 from the darkest hours and gives 1 wings 2 dream on. hahaz... made tt up, make sense? luv making up such phrases, sound so logical and beautiful... sometimes doesn't make sense but nvm... 2mrrw... a long dae ahead of me... ends at 4.30.. then going 4 law talk... so prob 5.30... hope i'll hav time after sch 2mrrw 2 do my hwk... coz all 4 subj tut 2mrrw... so prob got hwk.. haiz, all the best 2 me then! ^-^

lotsa things happened

it's only been 3 days since i last blogged yet it felt like so long ago... so many things had occurred during these 3 days so much so that i believe that i'll miss certain things out but this post will be too long if i remembered everything too... :P well, let's get started.

10th Apr: Sao Mu. wakeup time: 5 a.m. time i slept: 2 a.m.
so... only had 3 hours of sleep... was talking online to about 4 ppl the previous nite... so slept late... but surprisingly in the morning, didn't really feel tired... had to force myself to sleep on the car if not no energy 4 the rest of the dae. Went sao mu! this yr went super early so... not tt much smoke to suffocate me or to make my eyes water. After sao mu half way, went to buy my new running shoes! actually just normal shoes for normal school days... but still followed monghun's advice and bought nike... hope it'll not b wasted... a whole $89 lyk tt... lucky got 30% discount... the design quite nice... dark blue and light blue.shall wear it after pft. after sao mu finish... went home and fell asleep... intended 2 do my hwk but was too tired... so didn't do much tt nite.

11th Apr: my sis had brought back the sch mag so i decided on impulse to bring it and show it to sher... went back hc in the morning and saw... MongHun!!! surprise surprise! so early... super rare... of coz... she was there to do hwk... hahaz... wat else could make her come so early? but tt dae when i went back in the morn... didn't meet anybody i knew on the way in... felt very strange on my way in... as if i didn't really belong... not anymore. i felt worse and worse sitting at the class bench... noticed some ppl watching... prob only glancing ard... but still didn't feel gd... asap, i left, to go back to nj, where i now belong. yet as i was walking in, i again was thinking, this place is where i'm supposed to belong to now, yet the feeling of home isn't there. hc no longer felt lyk home... neither does nj, so where do i belong? really felt as if i didn't belong here or there. quite sad. Anyway, later on my classmate(who's in air rifle) informed me tt i can go join archery! yeah! finally, 1 of my aims in nj is being achieved i think... coz not confirmed yet... muz go c their training 1st... hope no trials or anything so i can stay for sure... then there's somewhere i might finally belong to after all. later on, during contact time... my dear ct, an ex-mg gal(ms chen)... asked us 2nd-intakers to private talk wif her... the 9 of us. she asked us how are we doing so far in nj. basically she was concerned for our welfare, it's part of her job anyway. then the ans came rolling in. 'wat we lyk and dun lyk abt nj' : 'lyk the fd only' 'dun lyk the mosquitos' 'dun lyk the stairs' 'dun lyk/lyk atmosphere' (some ppl lyk the atmosphere whereas others dun) my ans: i lyk nthg in nj, i dun lyk everything in nj. then she asked us who's still going back to their previous jc... my hand was raised... she made me feel kinda guilty 4 going back... even though her tone was nice... but i guess i sorta imagined a feeling of accusation in it... she's really a nice teacher, not lyk ah-hem, ya, u noe hu. (hypocrite) i mean all mg galz are nice wat so she's no exception. then she asked us 2 give her suggestions 2 make life easier 4 us 2nd intakers... so we did.
during phy lect, there was this qns abt raindrops hitting the roof of a building... so when lecturer short-cut write: 'hitting the roof = Force...' then some ppl started laughing... u noe... hitting the roof... angry until got force... watever, i was very bored then... so was kinda lame too...
tt dae included chem prac... was quite happy... coz the clip was gd and my readings were more or less accurate, to me. i managed to do dropwise to get 1 drop and soln became colourless, was so proud of myself. lucky got no need 4 graduated flask, prob bcoz of tt, tt's y i wasn't so flustered. but pipette still 10.0cm3 so can't help it.
after chem prac was... pft 5 items! arrrggghhh... at 1st was ok. had sit and reach 1st, did 48cm, a B i think. inclined did 9, a C. then came shutter run... 12.48sec... E. so basically everything muz redo alr lar... nj doesn't allow 4 bronze. nv had bronze b4 anyway. then was quite unhappy, contacts giving me probs too... so looked lyk i was crying... sigh, my classmates prob all think i'm so emotional... clarified wif 'em alr... so nvm abt tt. then did 26 sit-ups, a C (quite satisfied i could do this... coz usually cannot do). Broad jump, 162cm, only jumped once, was quite satisfied alr and didn't feel lyk doing anymore pft. had headache then. so another D i think. well i can sae 4 sure i only got 1 E which ruined my whole test... hav 2 do 5 items again retest.. heck care, now not impt.

12th Apr: 2dae... was very sleepy... almost fell asleep in math and chem lect... nthg went in... hav 2 go read notes again... oh yeah! hav 2 tell smthg really really interesting tt happened 2dae... coz erm, i didn't hav time 2 do hwk... chem(periodicity) and thought the teacher was nice... even though he set ground rules alr... abt muz do assignment or else... so yeah... got kicked outta class... made 2 do assignment outside of class... and i had the whole class as company! fun rite? it was not embarrassing or anything coz everybody was there... the whole class also nv do hwk... well, said b4 this class is slack, now can c the extent of their 'slackness'. hahaz. anyway, teacher let us back in after a while(half period) and warned us not 2 do it again. he's a nice teacher juz tt shouldn't bully him. sms monghun and told her... she replied 'WAH y ur class so zai? and ur teacher so hen...' hahaz... damn funny... was thoroughly enjoying myself. then in afternoon got econ 'diagnostic' test of sorts... 4 2nd intakers only.. compulsory.so had 2 go... sorta studied 4 it... also went 2 run 2.4km on my own for practice 4 2mrrw... datz y now so tired... zzzzzz... nvm, anyway, expected test 2 b easy, guess i was too confident... esp since i was so proud of hc and their pace of lessons... anyway, it was hard, still can do, but was definitely not easy at all. qiuting arranged 2 sit beside me... hoping 2 copy ans lar, but then i also dunno... hahaz... nvm... 1st time lt was so full(teacher's comment)... hahaz, she should noe y. so basically dat was my dae. was too busy trying 2 finish up hwk 2 come online but now i'm back(even though i shld b sleeping...^-^)

anywayz, gonna join recre. squash too. finally mebbe life will be more fun over in nj. dunno whether can pass 2.4 2mrrw... juz hope so... if not hav 2 retake everything... darn, but my practise run this afternoon was a failure... timing too slow, nvm, shall wait n c. ^-^ nitez!zzzzzzzzz

city hall-marina sq

2dae was... simply put, boring and fun at the same time. okay, 1stly we were supposed to meet at 2pm then jackson and ivan changed it to 1.30pm... so being the almost punctual me, i reached city hall interchange at ... 1.36pm... and guess wat? only ian was there. he reached there at 1.30pm... then of coz, i called ppl up to ask 'em where were they... i called monghun and she said she was on the bus and she was quite shocked to hear that the time was changed to 1.30pm... haiz... inefficient communication system... so she said the pool ppl would reach there 20min later... at tt time, jinwei was there and then he went off to look around... and then i also went off to look around... leaving ian behind to wait for the rest... kinda feel bad doing tt... but he didn't wanna go walk around so nvm... then when i came back... i met sher and then we met ian and frederick at the control station there... i didn't see them even though i was lyk walking around for a min or so... guess i wasn't looking out 4 2 person... anyway... yea... then we waited around... super sian... then finally the pool ppl came... and there were only monghun and ash... we were expecting a group of ppl... ended up only 2... wat a disappointment... the worst class outing ever... only 1 of the 2nd intakers came... and at any 1 time, only 8 ppl were around... let's c, went pool watched jinwei and frederick play, ash, ian and monghun had a turn. then went bowling, then ian no socks, dun wanna buy so nv play, played arcade, played daytona, 5 players, got 4th 1st round, 5th 2nd round. played time crisis 3...FUN!!! pedal!! change of weapons(4)!!! $3 gone lyk tt... then played bowling.... 3 players, monghun, ash and me... of coz the others had their turn... had 47 in 1st round... (lousiest) got 71 in 2nd... beat monghun by 1... coz she wasn't playing... frederick and dickson playing for her... but they anyhow play one... so lucky i even got 71.. went gutter lots of times... ash was best... strike, spare... hardly gutter... still sae dunno how 2 play. next time dun play wif him... jinwei left... during game,... he was super sian... frederick left when we headed for marina bay, jackson joined us... ian left... so left dick, sher, jack, ash, mh, joy, jenny and me. went steamboat! yum... sher was so relieved... she was very hungry... after the ice-cream at 3... cooked ourselves, not bad, super hot though, sweating... and the stupid flies diving down... really fun eating as a small group.then went arcade! time crisis 3 again! this time wif joy(previous was wif mh).. played to area 2! yeah.. then my player died.. poor joy play alone,... then her player died too... so went to play bishibangi(?) smthg lyk tt and played tt panic watever... bang into each other game... joy damn strong lar... i got no strength to bang back... she won me 3-2, i won 1st 2 rounds... then she won last 3 rounds.... then played wif monghun... draw... had 2-2 and 1 draw... monghun at 1st not as rough... but was more so during last few rounds... i always win in front then lose at the back one...
anyway... then went home after tt. realised i'm the only east-west line gal... lucky my father fetched... not tt lonely... yup so now... time to slp! coz 2mrrw sao mu... oh no... wat abt my hwk and pft training... haiz... heck care abt tt now... now muz slp! yup! nitez!

complaints...

sigh... 2dae was really tiring for me... even though it wasn't as long as thurs(4.30pm end sch) but it included pe... and datz not a gd thing, esp when PFT is coming up... so we had a female pe teacher which would equate nice teacher so she let us decide on wat we wanted to do tt period... and guess wat the class did... after running 2 rounds(warm-up) they decided to run 8 MORE rounds... so being the not-really-paying-attention me... i didn't realise tt, i thought they meant 8 rounds altogether and since ran 2 alr, it'll be 6 more... however, my friend clarified wif me after the 3rd round... even though i jogged/walked the whole 8 rounds... i was still lagging by 1 FULL round behind the last person... at least i can say for 1 thing: i survived... at 1st i wanted to stop at the 7th round... but then i couldn't bear bluffing myself so... went on to run the last round... dunno whether it's pure stupidity or wat... made myself super tired out... so not in the mood to do hwk, juz looking at the phy qns and i alr dunno how 2 do... plus my class happens 2 b a slack class... almost no one did their hwk at all... so i got queries also got no one to ask... i miss 67... i could ask 'em abt hwk freely and get help immediately... rather then get the answer: 'erm i haven't done it yet'... i'm really tired, not juz physically but mentally and emotionally too... after tt 10 rounds who wouldn't be tired(physically)... but i'm really tired of trying to do finish the assignments b4 the teacher starts going thru them... let me explain... it's lyk u spend ur time on geometrical progression then u finish it in time for the teacher to go thru it... then instead of being able to relax, he tells u tt he's going thru summation on mon so prepare tt by mon... do they noe how tiring(mentally) it is to try and keep up, esp for us 2nd intakers, it's worse for those who haven't learn tt topic until in the makeup lect... for me still okay coz hc teaches faster than any other jc... but i guess the teachers hav 4gotten tt we all happen to take 3 other subj, all of which we hav hwk... they should take tt in consideration... plus my econ teacher told us he expects us to finish all the topic 1 and 2 tut for him... is he mad??? finish 3 mths worth of hwk within this term, he's not taking into account we have normal lessons' hwk to do... i really feel as if i chuan bu guo qi lai... feeling really drained... as for emotionally, i feel kinda hard to connect wif my new class... it's lyk i got qns abt simple stuff lyk the dialect words they used but i dun wanna ask them... in 67 i freely ask 'em anything i dunno... so u c... it's really draining me... but on a gd note, i'm going out wif 67 2mrrw! hopefully tt will rejuvenate me... but all the hwk... heck care, teachers kick me out of class then kick lar, i'm too tired to care... when they push a student too far, esp a person lyk me... i'll rebel... i really dun understand, i've been hardworking so far but making me do so much at 1 shot is really the limit. they made me this way so can't blame me. after all i've learnt all those topics b4 so y muz i do those hwk AGAIN??? doesn't make sense to me... heck care really really heck care alr... enuff ranting and raving, shall end now! ^-^