Wednesday, April 11, 2007

quizzes..

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:

You have low extroversion.
You are quiet and reserved in most social situations.
A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you.
You tend to bond slowly, over time, with one or two people.

Conscientiousness:

You have medium conscientiousness.
You're generally good at balancing work and play.
When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.
But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it.

Agreeableness:

You have low agreeableness.
Your self interest comes first, and others come later, if at all.
In general, you feel that people are not to be trusted.
And you're skeptical that anyone else really feels differently.

Neuroticism:

You have low neuroticism.
You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.
Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.
Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is low.
You're a pretty conservative person, and you favor what's socially acceptable.
You think that change for novelty's sake is a very bad idea.
While some may see this as boring, many see you as dependable and wise.






You Have Low Self Esteem 36% of the Time

Generally, you feel pretty darn great about who you are, even when you mess up or fail.
Occasionally, a huge setback will make you question yourself, but you pick yourself up quickly.


Your Inner Blood Type is Type A

You seem cool and collected, though a bit shy.
You are highly driven and a perfectionist, but that's a side you keep to yourself.
Creative and artistic, you are a very unique person who doesn't quite fit in.
People accept you more than you realize, seeing you as trustworthy and loyal.

You are most compatible with: A and AB

Famous Type A's: Britney Spears and Hilter


You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.


The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.


You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament

Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.
You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.
You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected.

It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional.
You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others.
While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well.

At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.
You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.
You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment.


You Are a Mermaid

You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are.
While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need.
Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational.
You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else.


Your Dosha is Kapha

Calm and grounded, you are not prone to mood swings or anger.
However, once you do get angry, it takes a lot to cool you down.
You tend to think a little slower than most people, but your logic is astounding.
Overall, you very loyal and trustworthy. You're not scared of being who you really are.

With friends: You enjoy their company, but often listen more than talk

In love: You crave connection and affection. It's hard for you to be single.

To achieve more balance: Exercise vigorously (especially in the sun) and let go of attachments.


Your Love Type: ISFP

The Artist

In love, you feel deeply and experience intense emotions.
For you, sex is serious. It's how you best express your feelings.

Overall, you are laid back, warm, and a good listener.
However, you tend to seem lazy and disinterested sometimes.

Best matches: ESFJ and ENFJ








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heh was kinda bored during work n also suddenly quizzes seem 2 appeal 2 me. Had lots of fun taking quizzes! :D

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Your Birthdate: December 28

You have a Type A personality so big it makes other Type A's shrink away in shame.
You never shy away from adversity - and you love to tackle impossible problems.
Failure is not an option for you, and more than a few people are put off by your ego.
You tend to be controlling, and you hate leaving anything up to chance.

Your strength: Your bold approach to life

Your weakness: You don't accept help

Your power color: Bronze

Your power symbol: Pyramid

Your power month: October
Was reading thru a friend's blog n saw this n decided 2 try it... interesting outcome..
Anyway, when reading thru her blog,realised how mean i was/am, dunno... insensitive 2 others' feelings... esp wif the words i say. She wrote smthg down on her blog, smthg tt i said... n i realised it was a rather mean thing of me 2 sae... though she wrote thx as wat i said apparently woke her up 2 e need 2 b a better person n all... but it was evil of me all the same. N i thought i was always careful wif my words. Guess i thought wrong. Anyway, life's ok. First day of new job, was super late... haha, typical of me but honestly, 1st dae of work, tsk.
Was missing yijia n cindy lyk crazy... wat wif a new envt n strangers all ard. Of coz i made new friends... ppl dere r juz as nice but well, cant help thinking abt my ex-colleagues n dearest friends haha... Work's ok. After all, there isnt much gd stuff tt a temp staff can do lol... happening colleauges make e place better heh. Dinner outings is something 2 b expected, on a wkly basis, heh. Going out wif friends after work is of coz even better! Watched stomp e yard recently, similar 2 step up. But cool nonetheless. Pity fred didnt get his movie outing.. i still got 2 watch e movie in e end which is gd 2 me :)
Anyway, saw this in an email n thought the advice is gd:
Love is not 2 forget but 2 forgive, not 2 c but 2 understand, not 2 hear But 2 listen, not 2 let go but 2 HOLD ON !!!!
Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because theone You like will leave you for the one they love.
Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much heCares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's Her."
Pretty interesting advice(it was after a love story..chain letter style so ya). Anyway, rite now, for me, it's time 2 make friends n hav fun! :D My heart shall b warm 2 friends n family only :)

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Adapting to changes aint easy...

Just started my new job... at singapore national eye centre... as temp HR assist... but i'm not really working in the HR dept yet... soon i will... after i'm done wif my work in some other dept... coz i'm a temp staff, who can b borrowed by other dept to help them do stuff... kinda reluctant to adapt to changes again when i shift to another floor... juz when i'm getting used 2 the ppl and the work... haiz. Hope that it will b ok. That the job will b ok. That the ppl will b ok. i guess the job is the more impt factor... esp considering that i'm gonna stay for close to 4 mths in that place. So far it's been alright... but i dunno what it'll b like once i shift to another floor... rite now i'm on the floor where all the doctors' tables r at... but they're hardly in coz they're always in their clinics... so the place is rather peaceful n quiet, not tt many ppl despite the many tables ard. the HR dept will b diff, it will b full of ppl... n rather a smaller working area as compared to the floor i'm at. Oh well. We'll c.
Sometimes, when there's nthg 2 occupy ur mind wif, no studying n all... u'll start wondering abt the uncertainties of life. Abt wat i'm doing now, y am i doing it, the pointless-ness of it all.. n wat should i do instead... but there's lyk nthg that i can or need 2 do... in that sense, i guess being a student is the best. Sch will always b on my mind, occupying my thoughts n keeping me from thinking abt life's purpose-which can b rather depressing at times. Well, my colleagues rather happening, going out for dinner on mon n thurs this wk, only my 1st wk of work n alr i can witness their enthusiasm in making work livelier ;) heh. Fun..

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

friends- u all make life worth living!

It's been super long since i last blogged. Lots has happened since.

Finding a job. Start of 1st job. Getting to know new people aka colleagues. Release of the 'A' level results. Emotional Upheavals. End of 1st job. In search of a 2nd job. Learning driving. Keeping in touch with old friends. THinking abt my direction in life; my future career and hence my course of study in uni. Which uni and whether i can make myself study science again... or should i take something totally different.. Lots of things weighing on my mind.

But anyway, despite all these, i want to thank everyone who's been dere supporting me thru this time...
my dear s15 class girls: shuyu,fel,xt,mitch,
my ever-wonderful archery girls team ppl: wendy,rach
n even my colleague yijia:)
n also those who've no idea y i'm so depressed/troubled but were dere all e same..like fred n esp cindy my colleague n potential travelling partner! ;)

i kinda wish that i'm back in sec sch or jc where there isnt so many things to consider, to decide. Where hwk is usually the only thing on my mind, with no other crappy stuff to worry abt. I dun want 2 grow up. i finally realise how horrible it is to have to work to get income. Work is tiring. Though studying is too, but at least i learn loads in sch, so much more than in the working world.. and it's more fun in school than in any workplace. To me.

Now tt i've finished my 1st job, I thought i'll enjoy the freedom that i'll get from not working.. but instead now i'm worrying abt my expenditure, esp when i'm not having any income.. n i seem 2 b spending more these days... coz i hav so much time on my hands.. haiz. but i definitely need 2 b paid more 4 my next job. i need 2 pay my sch fees 4 gdness' sake. but i cant b too picky either. crap.

Been wanting 2 blog but nv really got down 2 getting it all down. Doing this to thank all those who've been dere n is still dere 4 me :) thanks ppl.

Saturday, January 06, 2007

wat's been up so far..

well... 3 dec was grad nite... a month ago.. was quite ok, better than e baccalaureate service at any rate. Took some photos. Cam wasnt really co-operating though. nvm got a few pix is enough. e diff between this n sec 4 is well, e ppl i guess. When i went dere, no one was familiar n i had 2 seek among a sea of unfamiliar ppl 2 find those whom i noe. e prog were ok. there was post-prom but i didnt go. was lyk 1120pm ard dere.

hmmm... then since then... there was e shooting club chalet... which i went n still dun get y i went. It was pure ugh. lyk go dun go obviously doesnt matter. a member's presence is hardly impt. y did i go... i still dunno. e only gd thing tt happened tt day was me getting a job. Agent called n was picked lyk a few min later... was so happy 4 tt short time. hmmm was fun seeing mr tiew again. thx 4 fetching me outta e place again. didnt stay long thank gdness.

then ever since i started work on e 18 dec... was rather tiring e first wk. first wk worked 5 days. 2nd wk worked 4 days.. thx 2 oh wonderful christmas hol! then 3rd wk which is this wk.. worked 3 days! Rawks man! haha... n i've been busy gg out after work these 2 wks! haha! i think it's e gg out after work tt makes e day bearable :) met up wif s15 ppl, mg ppl, archers, even hc ppl! Things were cool. lots of ppl celebrated my bdae 4 me.. so happy! it's juz so great knowing so many ppl remembered n were willing 2 give up their time n all. had lyk 3 other cakes/slices of cake aside from my own yummy ice-cream cake! first was e archers kbox outing.. hah i totally didnt expect e cake..i muz b totally stupid..then was kay yifang ele n ash they all.. wif e highly chocolaty slice of cake.. thx! i once again didnt c tt coming.. how silly. then was class chalet which was at yushu's house.. they celebrated all e dec ppl's bdae but was still gd. wasnt feeling well so didnt stay overnite or eat e cake either... one of e only ones who didnt stay. all e other girls cept shuyu who went stayed over..but i'm still truly grateful 4 it, e chalet n everything was gd. e fd was gd n we(girls) were being served e whole time.. more or less haha. apparently e guyz organise e WHOLE thing... totally shocked.

this wk went out on erm wed n thurs... watched Death Note 2 wif fel, mitch n shuyu on thurs nite(830pm)!!! Man it so rox! L is lyk so so so smart. n Light is naturally a genius too but i hate how he keeps using e girls who love him. Misa n his ex-gf Shiori. sheesh. but still respect him 4 his cautiousness n ability 2 stay ahead of e police if not L.at least e actor's cute. ;) it ended ard 11pm...i think fel made it 4 e last bus at least. thankfully. :) then hmm on wed went 4 hc chalet... s67's last gathering in a way. coz e earliest date tt one of e guyz is gg in is jan 9. so early. anyway.. it's been lyk a yr since i last saw them or made much contact wif 'em. juz so glad tt they still invited us first-intakers... treating us as still part of e class despite e distance. hmm pity tt qt couldnt catch e shuttlebus n made a wasted trip down... tt was so crap. anyway... went dere after work n stayed 4 lyk 1 n 3/4hr. kinda short but well still had 2 work e next day. went dere n alice joy they all were lyk... dont recognise u... coz i was wearing working clothes... watched my dressing 4 tt day... of coz muz leave gd impression :) hmmm rebuilt some relationships tt nite... wif e girls. :) it's been so long but it's lyk they didnt change much... to me... but heard tt e class became so much rowdier since e guyz ratio rose drastically.. haha.. poor teachers.. they muz hav suffered.a lot from wat i heard. hmm got 2 c most ppl.. but not all were dere. when i went dere felt really awkward standing in front of e guyz.. they werent really looking too thankfully so i quickly went upstairs haha. intimidating no of guyz i guess. as usual. was ok.. nice fd! bbq not bad despite e rain.. canvas sheet n all..sher's hair is neat..hmm jw realised tt i was dere when i was busy eating marshmallows haha.. then we chatted..talked 2 ivan 4 lyk a few sec haha.thank you jenny 4 riding e shuttlebus wif me back 2 tanah merah mrt station. kinda find it silly 2 travel so far on a working day but oh well. 4 e sake of e invitation.. tt they didnt forget us.yingjie was dere too.. after so long. e guyz were lyk so non-interactive as usual.4 e whole day from wat i heard.

hmmm well..really hope can go out at least once a wk every wk... it reliefs e day's work. in a way. but it's gd gg home n resting early too.. hmm.. hope can arrange tt meeting tt wendy wants soon. it's so diff n so hard 2 contact everyone by e looks of things. sigh. we'll c if fate decreeds it 2 b so. we'll c.

Saturday, December 02, 2006

enjoyable outing!

heh.. went out yesterdae, 1/12 fri for a lunch wif mg friends! it's been so long,... n i got many gifts from yifang n kay! N juz meeting up wif ash, ele, jo, amelia, alicia, daphne.. they all... it's juz great! so happy... even though it was only for a short while... went villa'ge heeren 2 eat... pretty lousy competition as compared 2 marche... they both look exactly e same.. e decor n everything.. oh well, they honestly should try product differentiating.. mebbe there's a diff in their service attitude.. wif marche being e 1 wif e upper hand n all.. oh well. Unpleasant stuff i shant bother wif. coz they're not worth remembering...

Wat's worth rmbering is yifang, ash n ele willing 2 shop 4 working clothes wif me! THANK YOU! u all rawk! until lyk erm 7pm! n finally found a shop at far east which offers reasonable pricing n suitably designed clothes... quality wise a bit lacking but oh well. it's only for a temporary job. i do still intend 2 study after working.. when e results come out n all.. juz hope e agencies i asked will hurry up n get me a suitable job.. preferably by next wk but tt's a bit too much 2 ask of 'em. hope e offer will b gd. hope tt i'll learn stuff n be able 2 find wat i wanna take up as my future career at e same time. yupz. yifang gg states soon 4 hol n every1's prom aka grad nite is approaching. Not really interested in it but still hav 2 go. Oh well. Take it as something 2 while my time away kinda thing. hope it's worth e time n effort n $ spent on it! OH i wanna get a job n start earning all tt $ wasted on this thing. ;) jk..

Sunday, November 26, 2006

Exams r finally over~

yay... 'A's have finally come to an end.. and well now's the time to juz sit back n relax... at least for a while before using the break time wisely and look for a job and all... wanna hav a team dinner or smthg, havent seen e team together in a long time.. 21/11 tue went back to sch after eating dinner wif e girls' team (cept dx) at a korean restaurant.. to check out e jnrs' camp trng.. saw mr lee teaching 'em how to juggle as part of mental trng... interesting... haha oh well... seem 'em so sunburnt is quite funny... now it's their turn... when it was ours last yr.. i need 2 start trng again soon.. so not fit after e break to study for prelim n 'A's... yah, muz get up e determination to do juz tt... soon... lol... soon. :)

Imagine not having to study for 7 months after studying for most of ur life ever since entering erm kindergarten? ya.. it's quite an interesting feeling but i'm not really tt fond of examing it closely.. coz well u dun exactly get 2 relax coz well 2 face reality, u'll hav 2 find a job, coz it's expected of u 2 use this time wisely 2 gain experience n earn $ n find out wat i wish 2 b in e future, as in wat kind of career i want... but i dunno.. i still dunno wat i'm gonna b in e future.. juz cant seem 2 find anything tt i'm interested in.. much less 2 make a career outta it for e rest of my lives,... hope a ray of inspiration may strike me suddenly soon n i'll find a career suitable 4 me..

Sunday, October 15, 2006

state of uncertainty...

Not quite sure wat to do now... maths results was traumatic.. now i'm so worried abt maths too... haiz... no more peace of mind. 'A's is lyk way too close 4 comfort... n i feel utterly unprepared. Not sure wat i'm doing now is worth it a not. haha. not sure if wat i'm doing now will help. i guess i'll juz have 2 believe in myself. difficult but muz try. if not 2 give up now, i'll regret it 4 life. after all this is for myself.

anyway juz e other day.. suddenly missing e team, missing every1... saw some of them ard sch n juz realised tt it's been a while since we met up.. haiz. i'll have to buck up from now on. Absolutely.

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

:)

today, got back most of prelim results, so disappointing but well, couldn't care less at this stage.. lyk every1 says, 'A's is then e one tt we've got 2 strive 4. guess i finally decide 2 heed their advice. anyway, had 5 days of break after prelims... juz whiled my time away.. quite a nice feeling but i was kinda feeling empty also.. lyk there's nthg 2 do 4 now.. juz dunno how i'm gonna use my time after 'A's but tt's 4 later 2 think abt. for now, it's juz resting 2 e best of my abilities.

was watching princess hrs on youtube during e 5 days... real nice show, guess i got addicted haha, sat in front of comp 4 lyk almost 12 hrs straight..but well, juz wanna watch this finish so tt i can officially concentrate on juz studyin n studying 4 'A's. last sat, had bbq at west coast park wif e archers! haha was real fun! even though e day didn't exactly started out well n all, n how ppl lyk fred, bing n dx couldn't make it, but i'm really glad 4 those we could, esp those wif lyk phy s paper n yet they still turned up.. dunno whether 2 praise them or wat.. still got paper then alr gg out... oh well, had a really great time! e fire was gd, amazingly they managed 2 set it up, still want so much firestarters, ha. e fd esp e chicken wings were gd... oh no mosquitoes too... wat can i say, was real nice. i didnt do any cooking at all haha, i'm lyk super lazy juz sitting there waiting 4 fd.. but tt would b better, if not i'll ruin e evening wif charred n half-cooked fd.. pity e corn was always half-burnt.. jason came too even though his promos r lyk this wk, but v poor thing, he alone haha oh well. Muz really thank jg 4 buying all e non-edibles even though he strictly followed e list n didn't bother 2 buy other stuff... hehe, muz hav been heavy, only he was free 2 do e shopping... n when he arrived he was lyk i noe u all couldnt start w/o me so i was hurrying... yah gentleman, didnt say something stupid lyk i purposely walk slowly make u all wait 4 me... lol, anyway, muz really hand it 2 wendy 4 bringing most of e things too... despite a hangover e previous day:) haha oh well.

guess i'm really glad 4 e 5 days. but i'm really not happy wif my results n all, esp since i noe tt wat's left 2 b revealed isnt gd so e prospect of gg 2 sch tmr isnt v wonderful. let's really really hope tt 'A's will b better, easier in tt sense 4 me 2 score~

Thursday, August 24, 2006

1 of e worst days ever..

monday, 21 august.. was 1 of e worst days ever.. in my entire life so far.. not only did i come 2 sch feeling down, coz was really tired thx 2 e tossing n turning in bed until 2am thing b4 i could fall asleep.. n sun nite looked thru chem til 1 am, started at 12am..coz was doing other work tt had 2 b done..came 2 sch feeling really tired.. when i woke up i seriously contemplated not gg 2 sch tt day.. but dere was chem org test.. anyway.. feeling down.. then chem made it worst.. checked mcq, 1/10marks.. realised tt nthg much went in e previous nite, sigh.. n my 2 yrs of studies apparently didnt help either.. i was so sad.. n i couldnt do nj phy prelim p3 some qns.. 1 actually.. tt was actually a slight conceptual error.. so supposedly no big deal.. but u noe, most of e rest of e qns had little blanks here n dere coz of tt 1st error.. now tt i think back, actually i did it correctly, juz wasnt sure abt tt part.. n anyway, juz felt as if i can't do anything, phy chem, all cant do.. as if my 2 yrs of studies was 4 naught. then coz i was looking so forlorn n kinda 1/2 complaining/sighing away 2 my classmates.. had a lot of ppl cheering me up.. trying 2.. then maths, last period, maths stats mock exam results out.. all except 4 in class didn't get A.. i got a B.. n prelim is supposedly 5x more difficult.. i was so down.. coz if i get B here, who noes wat i'll get in prelims, i wouldn't let this beat me now, no way, i'm gd at maths n i'm not gg 2 let this make me lose my A...

anyway, it's lyk juz when u're abt 2 stand up, smthg comes along n hits u down again.. sigh.. but i got a nice black paper wif comforting msg from 2 of my classmates.. haha, v sweet of u 2... thx guyz.. really appreciate it...then lots of sms trying 2 cheer me up were sent e rest of e day.. from xt, shweta, hx, mitch, amanda, even fred.. who knew coz amanda 4 no reason showed him my sms.. yupz... thx all.. it really helped.. in preventing me from sinking even lower into nthg-ness.. haha...

but these few days, hav been sleeping at 1am.. not even really studying yet, juz doing e hwk n revision stuff they gave us..n e stupid top 3 cca achievements thingy, haiz... i really really really desperately need some time alone 2 myself 2 study.. n i'm being deprieved of tt.. sigh, wat can i say, life is nv easy.. well, read somewhere tt giving up is e easiest thing 2 do, but in so doing, u give up all tt's impt 2 u! i edited it 2 suit my needs, i think it's quite true.. oh well, trying 2 fight on..nv realised tt i'll b so stressed out.. but i guess when u're faced wif e prospect of having wasted 2 yrs.. no way.. tt'll nv happen, trying 2 do my best from now on.. even ms kao msged me 2dae saying tt i look quite worn out this wk.. haha.. not bad, she can tell.. but i guess who cant rite.. every1 prob looks lyk tt nowadays..

wed.. gathered e masses so as 2 speak(quoting wendy) meaning some of e archers 2 sit down n do smthg abt e stupid cca achievements thing.. thx all 4 being so sporting n turning up, esp those who're alr done wif theirs.. lyk fred n weide.. anyway.. tue msged every1 abt it.. n e whole day i didn't receive any replies abt it.. sigh.. thought every1 suddenly hates me 4 watever reason n was quite sad n worried over it... thought mebbe all of them fell sick n cant reply.. 5 ppl- no replies received.. found out on wed tt it was my phone tt was e prob, now it seems ok alr.. dunno y, dun think it has got smthg 2 do wif calling up singtel last nite.. oh well.. found out tt wendy was sick n weide was more or less sick but his was on tue n wendy's one is on tue n wed.. sounds strange referring 2 being sick lyk tt.. oh well.. exams r weakening our immune system.. came back early 2 do work... but now feeling sleepy.. tired.. need 2 do work though.. need 2 study.. need 2 get offline now.. zzzzzzzzz............

kbox outing~

went for kbox outing wif my team! fun! lol.. was initially a simple outing, wif nthg in mind, cept perhaps movie.. not initiated by me.. by some1 who desperately wanted 2 go out.. aka mr artist, ha,give him new name again... anyway.. pushed e organisation 2 junguang who obviously didnt plan it..he tried, he asked some ppl where 2 go.. n he asked no furthur.bleah. so i called every1 up rite after national day celeb which was as usual no fun, or not as fun as mg was.. anyway, realised tt every1 had smthg on until e afternoon.. so i followed my friend 2 toa payoh.. lunched wif her... actually kinda barged in on her day.. it was not planned.. juz suddenly decided 2 go wif her.. haha.. poor xt.. thx 4 being so nice 2 me n showing me ard toa payoh!

yah.. then i went 2 orchard library 2 study... where wendy joined me... after lunching wif her friend downstairs... then 2pm, gg down escalator n wendy saw zhiyu in kino... so we popped in on her n her friend... then we left 4 cine 2gether.. where we found junguang in uniform which was strange coz he came from home... he said he didn't wanna stand out.. lol.. anyway.. had 2 make our way 2 dunno wat floor 2 find fred who was dota-ing or watever it's called. so checked movie timing..felt nthg nice coz some of us watched this or tt b4... yah.. so suddenly decided on kbox! haha, n zhiyu said my face lit up when tt was proposed...so we went down n got ourselves a room.. partly coz wendy said e previous wkend she got teased 4 havent been 2 a ktv or stuff lyk tt b4.. so yah, it's not juz coz of me lor! anyway... prob sang most of e eng songs in dere, so little songs bleah.. so out-dated too.. but well, not all of us prefer chinese songs wat... anyway.. yupz had fun all e same, was pretty high towards e end.. supposed 2 end at 5.. we drag until lyk 630.. ok lar, me n zhiyu drag until tt time.. but it was fun.. midway weide joined us from badminton game... anyway.. yah.. had fun, kinda ex.. but it's ok... yupz. then home sweet home.. coz a lot of ppl were really tired out.. n initially wanted 2 leave earlier.. but didn't get e chance to do so.. so srry wendy n wd.. anyway... prelims coming. will stop this now. nitez~

Sunday, August 06, 2006

time... pls dun fly away...~

oh no... watching e sands of time trickle down the hourglass... wishing with all my heart i can stop it... or slow it down... oh how i wish...

bleak times are ahead... desperate times call for desperate measures... fine, i shall force myself 2 stay back everyday after sch from now on... not too late though, later for wed-fri... earlier on mon n tue... realised tt i'll fall asleep whenever i come home early after sch or juz usual time... instead of doing e work i wanted to... no matter how much i want to, i cant really resist e lures of morpheus' realm. humph. can only blame myself for not being strong enuff, willpower n all. but sleep is really such an enjoyable thing... anyway... sleepy now... from doing nthg all day... sheesh... nitez.... Nyx watch over us all~

Sunday, July 30, 2006

29 July 2006-1st NJC invitational ~end~

our 4 months of preparation have finally amounted to this very day... praying and hoping for the weather to be fine, it was slightly disheartening when it poured around 2pm... juz when there was 2 last ends left to the 2nd round. but thankfully it stopped ard 3pm, e whole comp need not b cancelled, n all our hard work didn't go 2 waste after all. e prize presentation ended ard 8pm... when all e participants hav finally left, it was 9pm when we too left sch grounds. from 630am until 9pm. dinner at some place called 5 stars as recommended by jia pei... 10 pm half of us left, me inclusive... for a well-deserved rest at home... esp wendy, d.o.s. n o.i.c. ... out of which wendy n fred got drenched in e rain in e afternoon... tsk. wendy'll fall sick again at this rate.

due to e fact tt we had 3 details to accommodate the 190+ participants...we were behind time by lyk 1hr b4 e rain... e rain juz made it worse... but it was a welcome break for the poor judges... who have been standing out in the hot sun the whole morning and early afternoon... the various i/cs esp the O.I.C. had their share of tension n frustration... i thank them for being as even-tempered as they had been. we couldn't hav done it w/o 'em... i really wish to thank e air guns ppl 4 being dere n helping as they did... sometimes being scolded even... thx... me... i had my own share of unhappiness but tt was v little compared to e whole affair. i'm glad i had e chance to organise this n watch it happen. to actually see all these archers from familiar institutions gather in nj for our comp, was really a wonderful feeling. seeing e field wif e target boards all lined up neatly, juz as wendy had mentioned... mr lee had this vision abt 7-8mths ago, n it was actually realised so soon.. i nv quite believed him when he said tt, but well, here's e proof for all 2 c. we've come this way n this is lyk our reward for working so hard.. it happened earlier than what many of us would hav expected, bringing us e various lessons n methods tt would serve 2 continue 2 help us make each invitational, a better one.

28 july was e set-up day, setting up e field was so v difficult, squaring e field n all, thankfully we had ppl lyk fangjian around... as expected things didn't go as smoothly as fred planned it 2 b during e setting up of e field n all, but well, everything was completed b4 night fell so tt's really great. hm didn't feel as if i did much, comp day, being tabulator.. was a v light job.. morn was really free n all... oh well, i knew i helped in other areas n i guess tt's wat matters. after e setting up of e field n everything.. n eating pizzas wif e rest of e snrs n some air guns ppl, trying 2 print out e protest forms n sponsors' logos b4 gg home... 830pm was e time when we finally left sch. muz say, @ least e guyz were gentlemanly enuff 2 leave abt 6 slices of pizzas for sam n i... but haha, we can't eat tt much so yah. fun juz wandering ard sch after dark, gg 2 e staffroom.. gg 2 e canteen 4 e non-existent wireless system 2 work... haha. really cool 2 c e field slowly shape into e archery field tt we all hav seen b4, in our minds, in other comp venues, juz not in nj. we even had m'sian participants.. international haha.

e 2nd invitational is apparently going 2 b next jan/feb period... so they've got 2 start planning now... all e best jnrs... e prob now will b who'll take charge, n not choosing which capable one 2 organise it out of those ard... hm.. phrase it better would b 2 say there isn't any1 decisive enough to b e 1 in charge of all these... not something i can help wif anyway. oh well. now's e time 2 really focus on prelims... muz muz muz pass n score so much better than i did in CT2s... no regrets is wat i shall strive 2 achieve... n ms kao's goals for my various subj... shall try my best... try.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

end of season debrief

hm mr lee juz gave us an end of season debrief today. 19 july 2006. same day as last yr, sat at e atrium, juz lyk last yr. juz tt there's more ppl now, n e ppl dere r no longer e same as last yr.don't quite rmber much abt last yr's debrief, juz rmbered tt it was half praise half lecture lyk this yr's. but a friend reminded me tt e capts asked 2 speak last yr... n how they were so emotional tt they were crying.. i forgot abt tt... but it would hav been fun if e capts this yr also spoke.. it would b interesting 2 noe wat they've got 2 say abt this club, abt their team.

Well basically, mr lee brought up a v gd point during e debrief 2dae.abt e archers side 1st, he said tt e jnrs, their acceptance of mediocrity juz totally saddens us all. esp e snrs. he said tt, e j2s put a lot of effort into building this team, put in all our heart n blood n tears(i kinda esp agree wif e tears part..). tt e jnrs don't noe e half of wat we've done 4 this club n they juz accept being average, not aiming 4 higher, not trying 2 reach e stars.tt we've trained so hard, our grades suffer, but still, trained 4-5 times a wk, (during e hols), n tt's how we got 2 this position at this point in time. he said, i believe that when e snrs saw their jnrs this yr, they were juz bleeding inside, juz crying inside... he's right.tt's true.4 me, 4 many of us. when i see this group of jnrs.. who didn't realise tt all we worked for last yr was to make their lives easier this yr... they accept their low scores n even compare who's lower. do u understand e pain we feel inside? e tears tt we shed, whether in our hearts or openly... is proof of how much we feel for this club.yes we were bleeding inside when we saw our jnrs this yr.can't really rmber wat he said alr but it's v true, wish i could write his speech down here... i was juz so sad for us, for our team,... when he said all tt.n i guess on my part as a snr, i didn't really try 2 do anything 2 change their mentality n i'm sad abt this role of mine too... i only observed, as mr lee said of himself... n couldn't do anything. but in my case, i can do smthg... n i guess i'll at least change my attitude 2 this matter now.
mr lee was also talking abt shooters, how some may not win, have not won, but they still continue to fight, that they may hav faced so many setbacks but yet they still continue struggling on. tt's e spirit tt each n every1 of us hav 2 learn i feel.

he was also talking abt wat a cca is abt. it's abt e friends u meet, e character u build from the things u learn, esp being able 2 stay n continue 2 strive 2 improve no matter wat happens, n not quit, n not give up.tt's v true, somehow, i managed 2 stay, even though i was on e verge of quitting many times, somehow i managed 2 pull thru, n i really learnt n grew up from this experience. at e v least, i'm proud tt i nv gave up.

oh... i was also thinking... this yr,... whenever e team talk abt having a 2nd invitational next yr.. abt how stuff other than e invitational will b better next yr... i juz always feel tt, will dere really b a next yr? i dunno whether e others think e same way, but this is how i feel.i'm v worried abt a next yr, whether archery will still b a cca in njc next yr. even though verbally i speak of a next yr n how things can b done better next yr... but i feel deep inside me... wondering... if there's really gonna b a next yr... sigh. this is e depth of disappointment i hav in e jnrs i think. abt how i dun believe tt this club will still b around next yr... n tt it will fall apart in their hands. abt how sad tt we reached our peak in 2 yrs n now it's e downhill part alr...i dunno anymore. i can only wish for e best here.. for them.. for the club.. n hope tt our hearts wouldn't hav 2 bleed anymore..

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

i'm trying...

i'm trying so hard but i can't seem 2 get thru. i'm trying. i'm pushing for it. i can feel e pain in tt position. i hav been thru stuff too.juz try... is tt v difficult? put ur foot down. do it, set a dateline, meet it. lol it's been a long hour.

sometimes i'm really glad tt i'm myself n no1 else n tt i'm living my life, my way. i love this life of mine.

things seem 2 b in a better state now as compared to 1/2hr ago. let's hope things will work out. life isn't perfect. so sad. bleah. wanted 2 write of more stuff. other less depressing stuff. more inspirational stuff. do tt another time bah. got maths 2 do if not - will blow his top even more... lol.

i yearn to get rid of e notion tt ppl from my class is anything but e best. even if it's me thinking this way, i'm not gonna let anything stand in my way, i'm a rebel alright, n i'm gonna show it finally.i hate being threatened or controlled in any way. i'm gonna do things my way. i'm not gonna let e weakness of s15 overshadow it's strength. i'm gonna prove 2 those out dere tt we're gd alright, so watch out! :)
Was kindly reminded of smthg i wrote down by a friend juz when i let my guard down n was abt 2 let suspicion n fear into my heart: 'wat's life without all it's challenges?' i'm competitive n hate losing, so now's e time 2 win myself, 2 beat myself n stand up stronger than b4.

heard abt jo n amelia studying in australia. university of melbourne. top 10 Us. Law n Medicine n i still haven't found my path in life yet. crap, juz wish i'll hurry up. hopefully mebbe i'm a late bloomer... who will b able 2 do things as they come. dunno wat i talking abt alr. lol... sleepy...

Friday, June 30, 2006

e sweet taste of freedom~

wat a glorious day this is, there's no burden on my shoulders (for now) , not much worries on my mind, juz trying to enjoy myself the way i've always wanted to... :) CT2 juz ended, maths n phy was horrible but i shall not let it dampen this wonderful day! destress/ have fun time! games ! yes... haha...

Monday, June 19, 2006

aw...

had our last official comp yesterday. archery. sad to say, history repeats itself. i enjoyed myself last yr, it was a gd learning experience.. yet this yr, it was quite a painful memory.we tried so hard, we came back after 1 yr thinking tt we'll be able 2 do better but somehow... things didn't turn out e way we wanted it to. perhaps our road has been too smooth so far. it's time for a bump in e road. we'll pick ourselves up. life is abt standing up again. yet somehow, lyk my friend said, i really feel tt we deserve a better ending. guess e unconscious pressure from this comp being our last comp... tt we really wanted 2 end it off well... e stress... n we also didn't train in indoor b4 e comp... so mebbe we weren't used 2 e indoor conditions, i wasn't at any rate.

Recalling yesterday, both girls teams sent in ended our climb up in the first round. the guys team which got in, made it to e 4th position n remained there. juz lyk last yr. somehow performance wasn't ideal, we all noe we can do better, n we did better b4. somehow winning was v impt yesterday, deep in ourselves, we placed it higher than e fun we'll get in this experience, e learning points gained. oh well it's past n there's nothing we can do abt it, it's time to move on.

after e comp, watched e prize presentation, sat at e same place we did last yr... n watched as we did last yr. then we had debrief. many regrets, even if not spoken, was felt. then jnrs got reprimanded, for lack of communication, for lack of trying 2 build e team tt's evident within e snrs. then e snrs, us, we juz sat dere after e jnrs left, juz talking, juz joking ard,... having fun... juz staying there... haha, can still rmber how fred was trying 2 shrink himself 2 avoid e numerous rubber bands shot his way. thx 4 being our target. then we accompanied e lonely vcapt 2 eat ice cream at swensens. kinda got e feeling tt we were reluctant 2 leave, but were also lazy 2 go anywhere far... we still had 2 carry our bows.

yupz, had fun. was father's day yesterday. intriguing way of paying e bills at swensens. haha.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

sigh, wat a shock

juz found out yesternite that a fellow archer found out abt my blog ever since e start of this yr or e end of last yr... n he's been nice enuff 2 continue visiting it n reading my entries. Well, it's nice that at least i'm not talking 2 e wall... or talking 2 myself... but it kinda juz feels lyk an invasion of privacy... kinda wanted 2 open this place up 2 'em gradually. mg friends will hav e honour 1st but well,... guess e archers hav e priviledge this time round. n when i apparently gave him e green light 2 read my entries last nite, he kindly read most of my past entries... hm, he said i've changed lots, 4 e better... but well i myself can't really tell. anyway, i'm expecting more ppl, particularly archers who will find out abt this blog soon enuff, if they dun alr noe.

was supposed 2 reflect abt 2dae's trng, hm let's c, was quite bad, apparently lack of strength and focus from lack of slp last nite, slept at lyk 2 am.. was finishing e essay... so i dunno, hope tt's e reason, so tt i hope i can regain my touch 2mrrw... then i shall do my personal best during comp w/o difficulties, hopefully.

Anyway, was doing a 2000 word essay abt a shooter's life in njc yesternite. thought it was a bit too much to ask of me, but realised tt i easily wrote at final count 2250 words. guess i juz had so much to say, i believe tt i had more but well, couldn't really think of 'em offhand. had fun writing it, juz recalling all e fun moments... yah those stuff. it was more of an archer's life rather than a shooter's life but it didn't really matter 2 me coz i juz wrote wat i felt n wanted 2 say, 2 future generations, 2 any1 out dere who'll read it. was kinda referring 2 my blog entries while i was writing it as there's lots here abt archery which helped me recall stuff i may have left out. e entries here, r more or less how i felt at tt point in time... so it was highly useful. i guess i juz dunno wat 2 say alr, this place doesn't really feel as if i can juz rant n rave all i want... but there's no reason 4 things 2 change. haiz, life is as such, guess i'll juz hav 2 get used 2 it.

Told my friend juz coz he noes abt my blog doesn't mean tt i'll mince my words 4 'em.. n i fully mean it. was also thinking tt... sigh, now ppl will noe wat a mean n selfish person i am. wat i prob truly am. a person wif a sharp tongue n harsh words. hm, sigh.
anyway, went out wif some of e archers 2dae 2 watch 'cars' e movie. was a rather nice show, esp e part abt how e king muz finish his last race n all. lyk wendy said, this movie was really more of e more impt things in life than juz winning, juz racing. life's not a 1 man show. u need friends in ur life, 2 make it fun, 2 make it worthwhile. really sweet. also went shopping 4 a bit wif e gals, wendy n rach after e movie.. after e guyz suspiciously left 4 ps.(fred n weide) yah yah... stuff lyk tt... man should b studying now, i'm losing way too much precious time, so signing off now.

Saturday, June 10, 2006

had a great day 2dae*

yupz, 2dae, had lots of fun during trng, it's one of those sessions whereby u wouldn't bother looking at ur watch 4 e time coz u're enjoying urself n want it 2 last longer. We were practising team event 2dae, zhiyu n sam were in e same team as i... quite fun, we all, girls' team, including wendy n rach, talked a lot abt tv series n all, ok lar, it was me who started it n fueled it... haha, but green forest, my home is really a nice n funny show! Enjoyed watching all e main characters, they're all so wonderful 2gether! Anyway after tt went orchard mrt 2 meet up wif e rest of e class. i was dere on e dot, but only wingy was dere... should hav known. e 'organiser' aka yushu came lyk 5 min b4 2pm,... not v responsible humph. Celebrated zhijun's bdae at swensen's! had ice cream cake n all... baked rice... yum!

Basically i juz wanted 2 say tt trng was real fun n i'll really miss these kinda sessions... but of coz i'm not interested in those kind of sessions whereby u keep looking at ur watch every few ends, hoping v much tt time would pass faster... dislike this kinda trng sessions. it's only when u hav fun wif ur team mates when e real bonding begins, not tt we needed any ;) Realised i'll miss these kinda trngs in e future... anyway, yesternite, suddenly realised tt nus indoors' next wkend only, my gosh, so fast! n 'A's at e end of e yr! my gosh, only now did it really sink in tt i'm gonna sit 4 e 'A's at e end of e yr... n e end of e yr's not v far away... CT 2's coming too... ahhh.... nvm... sigh... relax... haiz... stop slacking!

Monday, June 05, 2006

Fatigue... wat a strange thing*

juz feeling so tired now, physically i think even though i didn't do anything strenuous 2dae. Juz went 2 e lib n study, dunno whether it's e phy notes or me, fell asleep coz i was tired... then even now i'm tired... juz had an online convo wif my fellow i/c of finance, he hasn't been involved much coz 1stly he hasn't been coming 2 trngs in a while... not sure y, prob coz of his other cca commitments... anyway, nv really trusted him anyway. So having some sort of 'presentation' 2mrrw on wat my team has done so far, thankfully we havent been slacking... did a bit of work but well, only a bit. tired, eyes tired... but i still havent done wat i'm supposed 2 do 2dae crap n i'm wasting time away here, alright off i go now. Nitez~

Sunday, June 04, 2006

hmm privacy hmm

was thinking, blogs aren't meant 2 b private, they're put online, a public space, it's practically impossible 4 it 2 b private... hmm... oh well, a friend said he was searching for every1's blog n found many of it... he didn't find mine though... hm... oh well, blogs aren't private in e 1st place i guess, no harm if he finds it, he'll juz c lots of complaints. typical of me ;)

oh well, juz had a little comp on 28/5, no team event, rather they compute e individual scores n yah, since outta e 5 snr gals, 4 got e top 4, me 4th, so naturally.. we got team gold again... but this was no comp at all, it's a comp where e archers were mostly amateurs/beginners so as 2 speak, should hav done much better, didnt focus / concentrate as much as i noe i can. coz it was more of a small scale comp, tt's prob y i let my guard down, realised i need a bit of stress 2 help me focus better, shoot better. It was raining, more than a drizzle, not yet a downpour. sigh, e grip was slippery, fingertab kept trying 2 fly off my fingers haha, made it tighter 2 solve e prob. RJ sent e J1s only. Nice gal i met J1, called Su XiaoTing, haha, real sweet n nice person, shoots well too, can c a potentially gd archer in her :) Anyway MOre practise is required. NUS indoor coming, 18, 19 june. e real competition wif seriously, more worthwhile competitors dere fighting 4 e team gold... we're not abt 2 lose this time, not this time, not after last yr, not tt it was bad, guys n gals team both got 4th, unexpectedly, coz nv practised team b4, well mebbe only me but oh well, we've come so far, let's juz c if we can't go furthur ;)

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

finally, it's over...

yes! e long awaited day whereby the 1st common test has finally come to an end is here! lol... it's been so long since i last blogged... recalling e last few days of late nite studying... at least it'll b a while before i'll have to do that again... tt's only if i fail to study earlier in advance... must focus... now's e time 2 learn to focus before the next common test, then perhaps i'll be able to study better and score better... haiz.

Today went out wif class after phy ct... n guess who i saw when e bus went past e hc stop... shermeen!! haha... it's so nice seeing some1 familiar... she was alone though,... look so lonely,... hmmm it's been so long since i went out wif her... soon,... i shall ask her....

hmmm... well... juz wanna say smthg,... i felt ok 4 this phy ct even though it was supposed to kill us ;) haha, they always say tt... but i seriously need 2 go thru my notes faster... i failed 2 finish studying properly... n i also failed to study e mcq topics sufficiently such tt i couldn't do any of e waves qns,... sigh, a waste of easy marks so as to speak... but wat i wanna say is tt e class ppl always think i can do v well for e exam... they juz dun understand... i worked hard 4 it but i also slacked lots of time... i'm juz slightly more hardworking than them only.. i'm no genius, i can't get 4 As now, but i'm willing to try, to strive for it even if it seems unattainable, i refuse to believe that s5g ppl all do badly, i hope tt i can show them tt even we can do well, we dun hav 2 b from 5a to do tt... but they dun seem 2 c this... they themselves look down on e class generally, i dun deny tt i didn't do tt but i seriously believe that they're all capable if only they'll try... perhaps it's e understanding concept part which they dun get... i noe it's not entirely their unwillingness 2 study tt is e cause of e overall not so ideal grades, some of 'em sincerely dun understand... wonder how i can help... it prob sounds as if i'm trying 2 act lyk some great person who noes everything n is trying 2 help others who're not as gd juz 2 show her capability... but i'm not lyk tt, tt's e very last thing on my mind, for eg, one of my friend, she always sleep in class, although she real gd in maths such tt she's a genius kind who dun hav 2 study, but tt's not so in e other subj, n she doesn't put in any effort at all, it doesn't matter 2 her at all... haiz, i guess every1 has diff priorities, cca's hers. haiz, i'm such a busybody.

but e fact tt i myself despise e class really irks me. a lot of my classmates also feel tt e class average grade would definitely be lower than that of e cohort, of 5a... which is supposedly e best class in e s5 combi... i wish 2 remove this unconscious biasedness, but i dunno how, for i myself am some1 wif this kind of thinking. to tell e truth, i hav nv been in any so-called worst class before n this is a 1st time, an experience, not say s5g is e worst class but it's one of e classes on e other end of e spectrum.

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

CT coming, it's time 2 study...*

Common tests are coming, no time to blog... not tt usually i hav e time, but anyway, now's e time 2 study... 2dae was also e release of e 'A' level results for e seniors, apparently they did v well... best in 6 yrs... e pressure on us juz increases... oh well, study time!

Saturday, February 04, 2006

having come this far*

was reading thru my old blog posts n noticed a few things... mainly this post is gonna b abt archery so yah... here goes...

basically, i was told by my capt (galz team) during trng camp tt she didn't quite lyk me @ e beginning, coz i made life quite difficult for her n all, wif my complaints... my attitude. i seem 2 hav an attitude prob, always complaining n hoping 2 get outta trng... pretty irritating... but i'm real glad tt they didn't reject me coz of tt... right now they're talking abt juniors' attitude towards archery n thinking of who they wanna accept... of which attitude is a pretty impt criteria... a while back, i had some run-ins wif e vice capt (galz team) but it's ok now... we're usually quite close so now everything's back 2 normal alr... back then, i thought of quitting coz since made capt n vcapt's life difficult n all... thought of quitting after e juniors are settled down... but i dunno... now i'm reluctant 2 leave, to leave e sport n e ppl i've met in it... now my form (posture) is right already, i dun wanna forget it... it's such a waste... after all i've been thru 2 learn all tt in e past yr... it seems so wasted 2 juz quit... mebbe i should continue in uni? i dun really noe... i was thinking if i quit now... n c team members ard in sch, it'll b quite awkward... we're quite close n all.. it juz doesn't seem right 2 juz quit. after joining archery, i've sarcrificed lots tt's 4 sure but in e process i also gained a lot unknowingly... had a galz talk kinda thing wif my capt juz now... real wonderful talking abt such stuff... i gained a great group of friends whom i noe i can keep after jc... at times when i can't count on my class 2 provide e warmness tt this 'family' can, i noe i can lean on this group of friends 2 help pull me thru any probs i have... i used 2 think of my class as smthg temporary, tt i'll leave this place n this class soon enuff, i juz have 2 bear wif it a while more, i'll b free after this, after leaving nj... not sure if i think tt anymore, juz tt i'm not tt extremist in my thinking now... when i can't depend on my class 4 comfort, i realise tt e team provides this 4 me. a few wks back, i felt kinda foreign in my class, tt time i was trying 2 ostro myself wat ;) haha, anyway, yah, tt time, when i didn't quite feel welcome in my class, i would b eager 4 e day 2 end, so tt after sch, during trng, i could b wif my team, which would make me feel more at home, better than my class at any rate.... -ve thinking, tsk.

well i can say tt i'm glad 2 hav entered archery, i've cum a long way since tt day when i stepped into e range 2 ask 2 join archery... so i should appreciate all tt i've gained in e process, having learnt wat is commitment n actually being commited 2 smthg, 2 hav made such wonderful friends who will stay by me even after i leave nj... a group of ppl i noe outside my class in nj... ppl i'm glad 2 c ard sch when moving from classes 2 classes... juz tt simple wave to 'em when i c 'em ard, it's quite a wonderful feeling. i've cum this far, so i might as well go furthur, juz a bit more.

Friday, February 03, 2006

hmmm....*

well let's c, nthg much 2 sae... so shall juz write some unimpt stuff... lyk for chem test i got 14/28, passed.. one of e 5 who passed chem test in class... haha... then phy test, got juz passed also, e only gal who passed, 12/24 i think... juz passed again... e rest of e guyz got lyk 13 coz they copy each other... e galz got single digits... haiz... if only they study... then erm econ test... fail... 7/20, was calculations... so haiz. well my class most prob having JTS next sat... @ clarke quay apparently... juniors so nice... so us seniors can't lose out 2 'em! so tt means we muz pay lots for STJ... haiz... haha, ok, end here, nitez!

Saturday, January 28, 2006

yay... cny hols r here!*

yupz, now i hav e time 2 blog... hehe... anyway... i realised tt i didn't mention tt since dec, i also participated in another archery comp... so basically for both comp, we got girls team gold... was real happy when we got e 1st gold... finally show tt vc wat we're made of... 2nd time round,... was from a rather small scale comp... so it wasn't all tt rewarding winning e gold... coz there was only 3 girls team in e event anyway... but well we had e chance to hav prize presentation twice in 3 weeks,.. haha bet it left a lasting impression on e juniors... rite now only abt 14 juniors, inclusive of lyk 3 girls... but i dunno... e original team is quite close even if i dun quite feel e closeness... but i guess tt all of e team ppl r quite gd friends of mine which kinda equates as a close team... e teacher was saying how close a team we were... n how our gals team capt was kinda reluctant 2 get new ppl into e team. oh well... nowadays i kinda prefer e (original) team 2 e class... dunno y... lack e kind of feeling of gd friends in class i think... but if i bother 2 try, i believe i can b close 2 e class... they're all nice ppl after all... but can't b helped if e gals hav their own cliques in class n me not quite lyking my own so called 'clique'... so i guess e best soln n only soln is 2 keep away from 'em until i feel lyk gg wif 'em again... me e loner... it's tough being alone in a co-ed envt... in mg it was easier... rite now i juz wanna feel lyk tt so hmmm, i'm not makin sense here but nvm.

these days team members keep suaning me... n disturbing me... humph! stupid guyz team... yeah it's e guyz doing e suaning... coz 1 of their classmates is a mg gal also... who's real gd at studies, 4 As kinda person,... a treasured friend of mine... n erm she kinda keeps insulting e guyz in her class( some of whom r archers...) n so they do tt 2 me also while i keep defending her... actually they start 1st one lor! that's y she's juz being defensive... haiz... now i noe how she suffers in her class ;) for 1 yr alr... 10 mths more for her ;) n cum 2 think of it... me too... haiz... hav 2 suffer wif her... i complained 2 my capt already... she said we'll beat 'em up one day... haha... funny... oh well, wat r friends 4 if i can't defend my friend thru this period of time rite? ;) lol...

well... let's chat a bit more abt my junior class shall we? when e class 1st met 'em... e class was half dere coz s15 is tt kinda class which is super involved in cca stuff... got sport cca as well as societies... we got lyk 2 presidents in our class, angklung n western dance... way cool class if u think of it... got lots of exco members for sport ccas... one capt even... haha... so can imagine wat kinda class it is rite? anyway, e class made e effort 2 wait 4 e junior class a while longer b4 gg 2 help their respective ccas for cca carnival tt day... when e junior class came in... e feeling they gave me while they gathered standing dere facing us(we were sitting ;) hehe) was strangely v nice... they gave me e feeling tt e class is gg 2 b real close, real wonderful 2gether, a warm kind of feeling, a feeling of home n family, of closeness n friendship. a feeling tt s67 once gave me. i was touched... wat a strange feeling... hahaz... but tt is in e past n i truly acknowledge tt wat's past is past, those will remain cherished memories :). oh well but apparently they're not tt close, these days, u nv ever c 'em 2gether as a class outside of lessons... whenever we hav breaks (05s15) we c e juniors in groups... u c a small no eating... n lyk 20 min later... u c some of e others cuming down e stairs.. they walk separately ... tt's wat i'm talking abt, not as a class. from wat i heard, many juniors dun lyk their class... haiz... well, as for me... naturally since we've e angel mortal game, i hav an angel n a mortal who r both juniors... but stupid mortal doesn't reply n angel took 1 wk 2 send e 1st letter so i can't b bothered 2 write letters 2 em at all, much less ask abt wat's gg on in their class... i already noe who's my angel, typical kind of ppl i always pick in these sorta games, but i promised a friend i'll give every1 a chance n stop being cynical n mean... in turn she promised 2 stop gossiping but she hasn't stopped yet... nvm, i shall try 2 stick 2 my promise.

juz yesterday, went out wif s15 after cny celeb... n instead of kbox (too ex) we watched a movie instead... well... e group of 17 ppl went for 3 diff movies... coz well some watched these n sum wanna watched others so e 3 movies were fearless, memoirs of a geisha n i not stupid too... i watched e last movie.... v sad n funny... funny at 1st then e sad part at e end which was super long lar... anyway... apparently fearless had a sad ending too... e guyz said jet lee got poisoned n he fought after being poisoned so was kind of a painful death yah. after tt some stayed behind 2 hav dinner wif e juniors (all e guyz= 6 guyz n lyk 6 galz) yah... wonder how many juniors will turn up... btw e whole class seems somewhat obsessed wif this so called chio bu in e junior class... super athletic n all, gd figure according 2 e galz... i juz find her kinda cute tt's all, not pretty, only cute. even e galz are obsessed wif her... crazed. galz looking at galz... wat has e world cum to... i ask em n they tell me, no yan dao (shuai ge) 2 look at so look at galz instead... watever.

Thursday, January 26, 2006

summary*

okies... lots happened in between e previous post n this but didn't hav e time 2 cum online 2 blog so yah... basically, for team event, we got gold... n erm, my junior class seems quite nice if not as united... but tt's unimpt... playing e angel mortal game again,... which i hav no time for n no need for it either... dun wanna play it but we're not given a choice... jan is almost gone now n 2mrrw's celebrations for cny... not supposed 2 wear sch u 2mrrw... we're synchronising e colour we're wearing 2mrrw... then we'll go kbox... we refers 2 my class... wonder if it'll b fun... anyway... archery also got juniors... interesting ppl... if a bit dao... haiz... they're prob shy or smthg... more fun being wif 'em than wif class juniors anyway... had lots 2 blog initially... but well am tired now not 2 mention tt it's late... n hmm... can't rmber wat i wanted 2 blog... oh wells... -end

Saturday, December 10, 2005

busy period of my hols...

29, 30 nov, 1, 2 n 3 dec... had CIP @ suntec... only 1 word 2 descibe it: exhilarating... was fun @ times, coz u're so busy u find it fun... n @ times u get real frustrated coz of messed up stuff - organisation v messy this yr @ e Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon 2005. e marathon was on e 4th itself... @ 1st i only wanted 2 go 4 e 1st 4 daes coz apparently, u need 2 go @ least 4 outta e 5 daes.. but turns out tt i enjoyed myself so much on e 2nd dec... tt i decided to go on e 3rd too! n erm skip trng @ e same time ;) dun tell my capt pls... made lots of real nice new friends dere... kinda sad tt we part ways already... dunno if we'll ever get 2 meet again, they're lyk sec 3, 4, unis... yupz, even working adults also got... coz e volunteering experience is v enriching. really hope someday in e future we'll get 2 meet again... hopefully Singapore is tt small. but well... some of 'em live in e east n north... kinda no hope but we shall see. 29 & 30 was packing of goodie bags - so NOT fun.. zip e stupid shoebags until hands pain already... 1, 2, 3 - expo days... giving out of e bags... it's when e fun n horror begins! horror = i was in 10km section, n e prob was tt e shirts wasn't here yet so we've got 2 put up wif e public's disapproval/anger/unhappiness, u name it, yupz, we had 2 put up wif tt. but got mostly nice ppl too so erm wasn't tt bad. fun = being runner... meaning counter support... getting e bags n e bibs 4 e counter ppl... fun! i was counter too... it was busy n fun too... at times... but v tiring standing... whole time standing so if u go 4 this thing, b prepared 2 stand! 1st 2 days slack... e next 3 is really busy! made lots of friends during e last 3 days... tt's when u get 2 mingle wif e rest.

10, 11 dec... 9 dec was sighters for this archery comp, my 2nd to date. 1st outdr comp... n well todae's e 10, n i'm already burnt red so who noes wat i'll b after 2mrrw... oh well, now i noe better = put sunblock! results out, i'm ranked 13th outta e dunno how many archers... as usual i'm one of e lousiest in e whole team... including guys' team.. oh well... v unhappy wif myself for lacking e stamina 2 maintain my score in e 2nd round. 1st round was 206/300, 2nd round was 160/300 HumPh! considered passed but i had higher expectations of at least 180 for each end... i'll do better 2mrrw, tt i promise 2 try.

Saturday, November 19, 2005

not much of a hol...

2nd week of hol, had trng camp... 3 day 2 night, total no of hrs of slp i had= 3.5 hrs... dunno y 2nd nite couldn't slp... we voluntarily switched off e lights at 11 some more... usually 2nd nite can slp... dunno y this time couldn't... at least wasn't a deep slp... v short if there was... anyway... e galz were sleeping on e 2nd floor which was out of bounds to e guyz but erm some of 'em didn't noe so they accidentally stumbled into our rooms 4 various reasons... lyk paying up e money we owed 'em.. haha... meals was horrible.. .everytime wait so long coz they had 2 go out n buy or order macs or stuff lyk tt... longest we waited was 3 hrs... hmm... it was lyk starve until cannot starve already, so had a nap which helped pass e time n forget our hunger for a while then we tried shooting pistol(me) n rifle (no way) which helped to distract us... yupz... trng in e sun... made me darker... during those days... haiz... oh well, at least i wasn't burnt... compared 2 e shooters-pist0l n rifle,... they were so fair... haha... nvm... watched a motivation movie - MIRACLE... really inspired me... commitment... haha... hm, will commit myself from now on... it taught me lots... yupz... hope this feeling can sustain me thru out e whole of next yr too...

3rd wk of hols... harsh trng begins... mon had rest coz trng camp ended on sun... thankfully... coz otherwise it'll b pt.... tue... shooting... wed, break... thurs, pt - endurance otherwise known as morn run... fri, strength trng... otherwise known as strength trng... sat... shooting trng... sun, rest. as seen from above... our trng is undergoing a major overhaul... during camp, we learnt mental trng n putting down on paper our thoughts n feelings abt each trng... our trng is getting more organised... n more disciplined... late 1 min for pt... 5 push-ups... n so on... will increase 2 running round track dunno how many times... 30 min late... turn ard n go home coz makeup pt another day... everyday at home muz do 100 push-ups n 50 jumping jacks... haiz... dunno wat 2 say... but i've decided to commit myself so i didn't complain as much as i usually would,... am trying 2 stop these complaints of mine anyway.. lol... i'm so troublesome... no wonder e galz team capt didn't quite lyk me at 1st.. coz i made life difficult for her... unintentionally... unknowingly... but now i noe so i will not commit e same mistake twice, meaning, my complaints shall CEASE! hehe.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

really wat a day~

2dae... hmm... pon sch 2nd time... 1st time was 2 days ago... oops... haha... no 1 say anything... anyway 2dae, went 2 meet mg friends! had fun talking n chatting... then went for pw op workshop... urgh... but it was ok... kinda boring but oh well... then went 2 surprise eleanor! coz her bdae's 2mrrw... so some mg friends crashed nj 2 surprise her... haha, i went too... then we went johnson's duck 2 eat.. yum... but erm... juz when this fabulous evening was going 2 end... some of my friends decided 2 take a pix wif some signboard...when then leant on it... there was a loud sound of breaking utensils... e restaurant on e other side... had stacked saucedishes leaning against e signboard so it was toppled over... all of us were stunned so as 2 speak... we didn't noe wat 2 do... those friends of mine, they immediately offered 2 help clean up, 2 help compensate... e rest of us were willing 2 help pay if necessary... we were all in nj u,... anyway e manager was really really nice, he told us there was no need... it's ok... such a nice person... it's really great noeing such ppl exist... my friends they were really really srry... e employees weren't happy though,... some woman was lyk muttering away in chinese tt it's those girls playing,... haiz... oh well... it's really lucky for us tt he didn't make a big issue outta it... wonder if nj's reputation was ruined... haiz... me n my friend was lyk we don't care anyway... hahaz... outta e group of 8 ppl there... only 4 were real nj ppl... hahaz... anyway... what a day.

Friday, October 07, 2005

life after promos~

yay, now can relax alr... couldn't find anything 2 do though... hmm... anyway, juz glad tt exams r over n now can rest... or so i thought, thinking... i realised tt there'll still b lessons, there'll still b hwk, much worse is tt there'll still b trng, yuck, hate PTs.. only ever really liked e shooting part of e whole cca session anyway... n well... only switched on my hp in e evening, n i realised there was 5 missed calls, n 6 sms... why are those ppl looking 4 me.. when i leave my hp on 4 more than 72 hours, it doesn't ring, no not a single time, when i switch it off for a day, ... no 1 seemed 2 realise tt they can call direct 2 my home... not lyk i blame 'em or care... msg was abt trng, resumes 2mrrw, rite after promos, wat can i say... thought i had a chance 2 rest, guess not... SIGH... it's lyk back 2 tt life full of complaints... will definitely look forward 2 e time when ccas r no longer a bother,... primarily referring 2 end of jc... haha, sounds so extreme. every1 says studying years r e best... they're rite... but sometimes, when u're in this situation... can't b helped... mg would b a lot better.

Sunday, August 28, 2005

Tempus Fugit~ time flies...*

no kidding... tempus fugit... time flies... how apt a description... i seem 2 b wallowing in self-despair... haiz... was talking to my friend e dae b4 yest... fri... realised tt these few weeks... always been mentioning life ... in e 1st 3 mths... always recalling 2 e fun times we had... e many little jokes... lyk how sher used 2 dodge whenever we put a phone in front of her... for fear of its camera... but we always use a cam-less phone... lol... i guess i'm trying 2 use my present class as subst? i checked ard... n realised tt most ppl had cam phones... strange... i would expect nj 2 hav ppl wif less of such phones... but well... i guess e cam phones r v common alr... wonder if she's still so affected by such a gesture... or has 67 trained her alr? i wonder...

guess i've been comparing e kind of ppl i meet in both schs also... v diff types of ppl... how strange... we're all singaporeans but such a vast diff... hav been comparing... my friends n i,... we keep saying s15.. my nj class.. has no guyz... hahaz... i dunno... it's juz small little things here n dere tt gave me tt impression... they... their lang v coarse, v rough... my poor friend cringed on hearing 'em... but well, got used 2 it alr... hear bad lang everydae... poor me... wish i was back in mg... but well, we can't turn e hands of e clock back... tough luck... but i guess they're alr acceptable... should stop complaining... things might hav been worse... ok... gotta admit smthg... kept comparing 'em wif 67 guyz... man, i think i'll regret saying this... but well, really, now i noe.. how decent they r compared 2 my class guyz now.

i was telling my friend... by now i think i should hav let go alr... but somehow i keep dwelling on e past... it's not wrong 2 look back... but i guess it's wrong to keep my head turned back while walking forward... might knock into a pillar... hahaz... wat a bitter laugh... sigh... i muz face forward... i muz.

fri, had lunch wif some of e ppl from 67, mainly mh, sher, ivan, darren, ian n jenny... it was really hard 2 organise it... wat wif mh doing e organisation... tt morn i was in a gd mood... realised tt i was nv in such a gd mood ever, not since entering nj... anyway, was laughing n joking wif some friends... then 1st lesson... mh ruined it by saying how e galz all can't make it... might hav 2 cancel it after all... darn, wat wif e lousy marks i got from econ drq test... i was really down in e pits... think i sorta gave my classmate an arrogant look, a darn pissed look... well it's ok, we dun really communicate anyway. then it was really hard 2 smile in e 2nd lesson n so on... msg jenny n she said, we'll juz go over n c how... so ok, agreed. fri after sch, coz there's math remedial, tt's y so many classmates stay back... real glad 4 their company, even though i was only wif 2 galz - my pw mates.

lunch - went over... sat @ e bench... saw 1 snr... forgot his name... sigh... alice's angel n mortal... even jenny forgot his name... then they ended sch... alice 1st one down... prob coz she's 2 go 4 oac... painting banner... prob for maf... haiz... was talking wif qt abt tt... she said alice invited her so she invite me n it's not tt e class forgot abt us... well they juz don't inform us abt stuff anymore... ok, shall stop it... anyway, then e galz all came down 1st... followed after a short while by e guyz... woah... it's lyk really woah... suddenly hit me tt oh yeah, e ratio's lyk 18 guyz to 8 galz... forgot abt tt... hahaz... it was nice seeing familiar faces again... kinda... more or less... ivan asked if i still wanted 2 strangle him... hahaz... mh is e target now... she pissed me off more... there was a mango on e table... wanted 2 throw it @ mh... jk. lunch, adam's rd... was ok, mh had 2 rush off 4 yida's autograph session... but got a taste of e familiar atmosphere... lunching 2gether. anyway... yeah. guess i'll stop here.

Monday, August 15, 2005

temper temper- time 2 b tempered*

okies, shall not throw tantrums anymore... or rather i shall try not to ;) anywayz.... update... e wounds on my arms, legs, everywhere r healing now... within a few days, they're almost gone, tt Dr Loke sure is gd. being e responsible me i turned up tt dae, crap, hate it when duty calls... ok, promos, 6 wks left, chem spa, 4 wks left, phy spa, 1 wk left, chem n math tests, 1 wk left... = it's time 2 start revision... rite... n e ipod mini gold colour, apparently it's not in Singapore yet... too bad then... mh... guess u hav 2 wait... haven't lunched wif e 67 galz in a long while... but well... wonder how they're doing now? sigh... it's time 2 study every1... no matter who/where we r...

well i guess i have 2 admit... i'm starting to like my class... they're real fun, almost comparable to 67, or rather wat 67 was. s15, they definitely do not = mugger class... after having a few class outings wif 'em since joining this class... am starting to like e class ONLY, not nj, yucks. they gave us a feedback form 2dae 2 fill up n let's c, there was do u agree whether the facilities n environment r conducive for studying? PUh-leez! e mosquitos! so i put strongly disagree! then later they put are you proud to be part of njc? strongly DISAGREE! whahahaha... so many disagrees n strongly disagrees in 1 feedback, 1st time i disagreed so much... tsk tsk, nj has FAILED terribly! HA! there was 1 option saying if other people are criticising njc, you will defend njc.... STRONGLY DISAGREE!! i was telling my friend, i'll join them in their criticisms man! so funny... it's lyk they've really failed... either tt or i resist too well... my friends n i (2nd intaker galz) were discussing 2dae... when ppl asked wat sch we're from... we would mumble njc... it's so pathetic... i also dunno y... i juz dun feel proud 2 b part of njc... they say it's boring here... but e councillors n every1 r really trying their best 2 make this place fun... but i guess e uniform reduces watever effect they had? it can b pretty fun in here, esp wif my class, but well guess e general idea is still nj is a mugger sch... can't b helped i guess.

btw, i've changed my hp no.... u ppl should hav received my sms otherwise... i dunno... network failure? hahaz... anyway, nitez ppl, mugging time. ;)

Friday, August 12, 2005

u wish, i'll not turn up, there's a limit 2 my patience! n e limit's been breached! curses::..

hey
can i complain?
i've juz been thoroughly angered
stupid archery
u noe there was supposed 2 b a meeting juz now but then it was cancelled... e capt told me after i put down my bag...
so tt wasted a bit of my time...
so i was a bit pissed
then i dunno, i got pissed a lot 2dae... feeling up n down lots... dunno y
then they sms me
i end at 1230 2mrrw
they wanna meet at 5 pm
n so i said i went down 4 nthg juz now, now u want me 2 wait damn long, 5hrs juz for a meeting 2 discuss e script
so i said wait n c if i feel lyk turning up
n she said no i will not wait n c, it's ur choice whether/not 2 cooperate n give a LITTLE more then e luckier ones who dun hav 2 wait
u noe... i'm really damn angry.
i was feeling so down juz now on e bus dunno y... juz felt lyk crying... i dunno wat's going on... then receiving e msg juz now made me so angry... i really wanna quit archery now...

i dunno
i really dunno
i hate it rite now
perhaps after a nite of slp... things will get better... or rather things will b clearer
i'm really tired...
tired of compromising...
tired of doing things way beyond myself juz 4 em
i noe tt perhaps e others r doing e same thing also... but i nv had e experience b4... i dunno whether i can handle it
i mean it's lyk affecting my studies too
i really hate this
damn!
i wanted 2 use stronger words in my nick but i guess i thought better of it...
they don't exactly deserve my attention
they're not worth it
esp not njc
it's juz a short 2 yrs here... it's ending soon, i'll study hard n get outta here
then it'll b over i hope
finally
haiz
i seem 2 b trying 2 comfort myself

i really felt lyk quitting a lot of times alr

i dunno whether i can sustain for e rest of e 1+yrs here leh
if i quit i dun hav 2 face all these again
i dun hav 2 waste my time there
i can use my time better elsewhere

i was supposed 2 do my dc circuit tut
but i got too pissed off by em
i'm quite glad i got e mc now... mebbe it might = to me seeing less of 'em

haiz... i noe... but i dunno how 2 solve it... i dun wanna flare up @ em ... i sort of flared up in front of my capt b4 u noe
n i dunno... it'll b e 2nd time... i seriously wonder if i've been angered by e same party so many times b4 in my entire life
now it's all their fault tt i can't do my hwk

c how they affect my studies?

-end

Saturday, July 30, 2005

~lonely solitude, nostalgic for bittersweet memories~

defn: Unhappy at being away and longing for familiar things or persons
bittersweet: Tinged with sadness
lone: Characterized by or preferring solitude in mode of life
solitude: A disposition toward being alone

~lonely solitude, nostalgic for bittersweet memories~

"looking back at the past, how i wish things didn't have to change between us; i've asked myself countless times: why must we be separated? it's a fact, we can no longer be 2gether again, no matter how much we try, we can no longer go back 2 tt time in life, when we were happy, when we were in each other's company."

"i'm waiting for you here, where are you? Are u waiting too? for my appearance in your life? if only e time when we finally meet can arrive faster... i'm adrift in the sea of time, waiting for you to lift me into your arms, before i sink below... so please hurry, hurry here to save me."

"isn't she lucky this hollywood gal? n they say she's so lucky she's a star, but she cry cry cry wif a lonely heart thinking, 'if there's nthg missing in my life, then y does these tears come at nite?' she's so lucky, but she cry cry cries..."

"i used 2 think i had e ans 2 everything, but now i noe, life doesn't always go my way, feels lyk i'm caught in e middle, tt's when i need your love... all i need is time, a moment tt is mine, while i'm in between."

these few days, have been real tired, always falling asleep in lectures n tutorials, i've changed, not for e better n i really hate this me, but i wouldn't let this bring me down, no way.

Sunday, July 24, 2005

bks bks bks

oh yeah, am also reading artemis fowl @ e moment, 1st bk n e arctic incident... yupz, am waiting 2 get e other 2... pretty interesting... also reading comics recently... but well, time 4 studies now, esp wif 6-7 wks thereabt left 2 promos, i need 2 start now... esp after those results 4 ct... anyway cya ppl.

nthg much 2 sae...*

well lyk e title says, i've got nthg 2 sae, but well haven't been blogging in a long while so i guess it's time i blogged again... harry potter n e half-blood prince juz came out, on e 16th of july... i finished reading it on tt sunday, n well... went back 2 sch on mon n every1 was talking abt it... i didn't expect certain classmates 2 b reading harry potter but they were all discussing it... esp e ending... yeah i feel v unfair 4 dumbledore, he trusted him! oh well... guess it teaches us a lesson, believe all u want in a person but don't 4get who he started out as... nay, juz kidding. but well, can tell harry sure matured lots, esp in e last few pages... hope things will b ok in e end...
well, my grad ceremony is 2mrrw, or some refer 2 it as speech day, for mg, it's called founder's day, or rather they arrange e grad ceremony 2 b on e same day as founder's day...
on fri, i went 4 doctor's appointment 2 check out all these 'wounds', yeah all e galz n some guyz out there who noes me would noe wat i'm refering 2... hahaz... almost if not all e galz i noe who've seen me in e past month would noe... they all saw... their observance is amazing i muz admit... well gd thing is tt it's nthg tt bad, it's smthg lyk due to my body itself, then i got bitten by some bug so my body reacted 2 e bite n caused all these things 2 come out... bad news is tt it'll take a few yrs 2 go off... haiz... so much 4 'spotless' skin ... @ least @ e end of it, it wouldn't leave any scars behind... or so e doc says... who noes... hav 2 wait n c...
well, CT... was real bad, got ----, for math, chem, phy n econ respectively... my gp... it's too horrible 4 me 2 b willing 2 publicize it... all of 'em too horrible so i rather not sae here. so i got a tuition teacher, juz had 1st session 2dae, was ok. ok, am tired, shall leave now, bye :)

Friday, July 01, 2005

outing EnJoyeD it!!!

noticed tt my tagboard going haywire, when tag... muz refresh whole page 2 c e new tag... if not click nonstop no use... juz results in too many tags... haiz... tried fiddling wif it, didn't work... still e same old prob, srry ppl, guess we all juz hav 2 bear wif it til i find a better one
2dae, 1/7, had outing!!! went 2 meet up wif 67 after their math paper then went over 2 orchard where we had lunch at pastamania... we spent lots of time deciding where 2 go- as usual... when will this change? haiz hopefully soon. okies, then we went watch movie -WaR oF e woRldS... it raWkS!! no kidding, dun listen 2 mh... she actually said she felt lyk SleePINg!!! sheesh... it was lyk felt so highstrung thru out movie... it's juz tension from start 2 end... lyk e guyz said, their fight 4 survival is really portrayed very vividly, clearly. not a minute of rest b4 some other crisis befalls e ray n his family... it was lyk woah... tensed up thru out movie! well, then we took neoprints twice... damn hot in e booth they still take so many times... sheesh... then went heeren walked ard in hmv b4 alice, yj n i left... yupz... it was lyk 6 by tt time... amazing how time flies... esp when u're juz stoning ard n waiting 4 'em 2 make up their mind abt where 2 go... but well it was gd being back wif 67, enjoyed every minute tt i had chatting wif 'em again... well kinda regret not watching movie wif 15 but i guess... there'll always b a next time :) we should b optimistic hehe, anyway ta ta now.

wheeee... time 2 hav fun!

yupz, i'm totally ready 2 juz stay home n while my time away... luv e long wkend... sch'll b dreadful when we hav 2 go back... haiz... wat wif phy spa coming up... bUt tt's things 2 worry abt in e future, not now, not here, not in e present! shall attempt 2 begin blogging again... but no guarantees... stuff will always get in way... which is kinda sad considering how young this blog is :( nvm, there'll b time. well back 2 e usual... realise i'm always complaining, talking abt hc, archery n sometimes nj... i guess tt's wat my life is all abt... hmm shall attempt 2 talk abt other stuff, laTer.
a quick update on wat's going on in:
-archery = trng during hols were everydae
= hard work paid off, i did my 'personal best' in comp even though it was lyk ranked 31 out of dunno how many, abt 60-70. lousiest of all e nj shooters but wat e heck.
= team event, i was in e galz team, 1st shooter some more so nervous, other teams damn noisy, keep cheering nonstop even if their members' arrows didn't hit e board. nus, ntu, tp n many more. well too bad 4 nus/ntu, not gonna join their archery club when i reach tt lvl :P.
= being 1st time participants, we didn't expect much outta this comp... n well we sent 3 teams, 2 guys', 2 galz' team... out of which 1 of e guyz' team got 4th overall, same position as e galz' team... 4 vs 4... not bad at all even though we were quite disappointed at having missed getting e medal... in order 2 show mrs cheng tt she's wrong.
-school = common tests.... quick summary...
= G.P. okay.
= math NoT ok -40 marks alr, outta 100... chem NoT ok -26/80 alr...
= econ, quick satisfied, after doing e essay, quite happy wif it.
= phy... So NoT oK... paper 1 was ok... -12/40m(if tt's considered ok...) n paper 2 was E killer... every qns dunno how 2 do... formulas dun seem 2 b able 2 work... sigh looks lyk this is e 1st time i'm gonna fail my exams... max fail 3 subj, min, fail 1 subj... either way still fail... wat can i say? i tried my best considering i only had 6 days after all tt archery trng 2 study... haiz.
-my life = went out wif nj class 2dae after e phy paper... quite a lot of ppl went... well, went ps 2 eat n they went 2 watch movie(either war of e world/a lot lyk luv) some watched war, e rest watch luv... yeah. i didn't go... not interested in those movies plus dun wanna waste money... lousy excuse... 2mrrw might b going 2 watch movie wif hc class also... so juz making sure e movie i watch will b smthg i haven't watch b4... tt doesn't make sense... heck care.

Saturday, June 04, 2005

trng---clashes----wif everything.. but i still luv archery

haiz haiz haiz sigh sigh sigh... archery teacher sae muz give up everything else coz no time 4 'em... only left time for studies n trng...not quite sure if there's even time 4 studies... next wk... trng whole wk... mon, mental trng, 130-330, tues 2 thurs, trng from 3-6pm... really really dun wanna voice out my objections 2 these dates... even though i arranged wif mh 2 go kbox wif her on tues , 2-7pm... coz he's always saying, would u put trng b4 leisure a not? i've placed trng in front of leisure so many times alr.. he juz doesn't noe... would it hurt if i sae i can't make it 2 trng this once coz of leisure? or would it b lyk e case where once u make a mistake u're black-listed 4 life... then he'll hav a bad impression of me... if he doesn't alr... how 2 run 4 ex-co lyk tt... haiz
he was saying out there... every archer is ur enemy... they'll pick on ur every mistake... to give nj archers a bad reputation, for e.g. last nite... we went potong pasir cc to train... actually it's only lyk 2 person who went... i went there 2 fletch my arrows n put in e arrow tips... n i left pretty early... anyway, this morn, 9am... e rj coach called n complained abt all e rubbish left behind supposedly by us... luckily our teacher clarified wif him n found out tt it wasn't nj archers who left all tt rubbish but some other ppl... so u c... ppl outside... they can't wait 2 give nj archers a bad reputation, esp since we're new.. so-called pioneers... not 2 sae tt u can't hav friends who r archers, our archery teacher's good friends r also archers, it's juz tt in competition they'll b tt, competitors.
3rd june, fridae, 12-3... went n crashed hc phy lect... irene tan took so long 2 notice jenny n i... then when she noticed she was lyk 'ae... err... ok...' then she kept looking back... during break she came up n talked 2 us... hahaz... anyway... after tt, i went 2 get my arrows n stuff... all e way in bishan... haiz... then went outdoor range 2 meet up wif e rest of e archers then went potong pasir cc to train(i didn't train i juz went there 2 c) then by e time reached home... was 8+...
4th june, sat, 1-3pm archery trng over @ Cdans, but i didn't manage 2 train much... coz was fletching my arrows... then i took lyk 2hr 2 fletch... haiz... wasn't easy... but part of e time was spent on stoning coz hav 2 wait 4 glue 2 dry... anyway... then we voted 4 archery boys' team capt n vice-capt... was a close competition coz voting was 7-6... anyway, i support both candidates so it's ok who bcome capt n who bcome v-capt ... btw, only 2 person ran... e rest were not interested/too busy yeah stuff... gals' team capt n vice-capt will only b decided after one of e galz who went back 2 china(she's from there) comes back... haiz...
okay, doubt i'll come online e next few daes coz of trng n studies, so this place will b quiet for e next wk or so... anyway, time 2 go... nitez all!

Friday, June 03, 2005

busy busy week...* prob is tt haven't start mugging

i'm so dead... haven't started studying anything... really really muz chiong now... let's give a quick recount of my wk... 29 may, sun, archery, coz i taking a course... lvl 1 course... e basics 2 archery... then coz e board was shifted so close... coz beginners wat... so my arrows all land v close 2gether... n coz dist so close, arrows went into board wif lotsa force, v hard 2 take out, plus they all clustered 2gether so v hard 2 remove... half e time asking other ppl help me take out arrows... even e coach also help... he was smiling when helping me... prob coz only me got such a prob... coz i shot e arrows so close 2gether wat... meaning i'm zai! err okay... not true lar... coz later on, after e course, we practised 4 our upcoming comp, practise shooting e pro-er way... n shift e board v far back... guess wat... this time e arrows not even on e board i'm aiming on lar... haiz... muz go practise.
okies, then 30, mon, nothg... i slacked e dae away... tues, 31st, got phy makeup tutorial, from 9-1040... then after tt, e class all go one of e galz' house 2 watch movie: star wars... then later they going for class lunch,
@ sakae sushi at west mall i think... i dun eat sushi so i didn't go, i didn't go 4 movie also coz they left n forgot abt asking me along... haiz... i guess they assume i wasn't going.. so i went lunch wif e other galz who're not gg 4 e class thingy... went golden rooster... saw alice wif her oac friends there... wat a coincidence! hahaz... then on e bus home met 2 of my classmates going 2 tt friend's house 2 watch movie... i didn't go along.. went home 2 slp instead.. so anti-social... haiz.. when did i bcome lyk tt...
1st june, wed... MUGGING session @ hc!!! went 2 meet e galz @ johnson duck 4 lunch... didn't expect 2 c e class guyz but well... it was lyk a whole group of hwa chongians juz descended on tt busstop then e guyz walk in front... jackson leading e pack.. wah look lyk some gang lar... hahaz... jackson look so fierce some more... then i was standing in front of him.. he didn't notice lor... until he came closer... then he was lyk ae! wat u doing here? oh u meeting us for lunch ah?... i said, no, i'm meeting e galz... so he went oh okay lor, then we go liao, bye bye... hahaz... anyway, johnson e fd quite yum, not a bad recommendation.then went back hc 2 class bench 2 mug... however.. weather damn hot.. plus zj brought poker cards along.. so erm instead of mugging, we played bridge instead, mh was lyk: this is not an official mugging session, still early, no need 2 mug yet... hahaz... only alice got any studying done lar, she sit beside us not distracted by e cards @ all... then went cdans 2 get my bow n quiver, spent $207 then met mg classmate @ busstop, she's in cj now. then went airport sent my sis off 2 London, sch trip, yupz, hope she enjoys e in-flight movie... n games :) so reach home at 10+, eat dinner n showered... so late rite? haiz, can't b helped then fell asleep quickly slept at 1am sigh.
2nd june, thurs, another long dae, coz previous nite didn't do any work then 2dae got chem makeup tutorial so went 2 kap at 830 2 mug... meeting my pw group there at 10 yup so went early 2 mug, quite productive, i should go kap 2 mug more often. yupz... then we went golden rooster(HAIZ) 2 eat... dao bao n sat on floor n ate lar... damn sad.. e others were lyk: no big deal wat... n i was lyk... i've nv done this b4.. sick of e fd there lar. then went back sch, chem makeup tut 1-430pm so long... it was actually 4 hrs long, then he let us off at 430.in e midst of lesson, celebrated 3 classmates' bdae, got 2 cakes 2 eat... hehe, bet sher would juz drown in happiness if she was here, one mango cake, another pink cake, prob strawberry? dunno got lotsa cream on it. anyway, glad i didn't fall aslp during tut, managed 2 learn lots from this session, glad 4 tt :) then actually at 630 need 2 go get arrows but archery teacher called during tut n told me.. no need, not 2dae... 2mrrw afternoon... haiz.. glad 2 hav e evening 2 stay home anyway, it felt as if i've been going out early n reaching home late everydae, which is not true.. but e main prob is tt i'm not really studying yet, which is really worrisome, coz i really need lotsa time 2 study... shall start asap, but 2mrrw promises 2 b another long dae so can't b helped, another 'stay-out' dae where i'll spend my afternoon n perhaps evening outside. haiz. sad case.