Hmm my dec has been pretty much packed wif activities,from chalets to gatherings when i'm not trng,dere's been two chalets i've been to,one for my cousin's 14th bdae n e other juz another family chalet which was seriously e nicest chalet i've been to,ever.e pic above is of tt place:)e place was renovated juz 6mths ago so it's really new n nice! Anyway since then,i've had e chance 2 meet up wif my hc classmates,my mg friends,my nj archers,went 2 sentosa twice n had an archery camp.actually now i'm on my way 2 meet some of my nj classmates 4 dinner,hope it'll b enjoyable:pbasically my days r quite packed wif working out too,ok nowadays not tt much coz of all those gatherings but i really need 2 bcome fitter!Haha anyway yup lots of stuff filling my day n on a sidenote i was really happy on my bdae,really had fun n had e sweetest guy by my side tt nite,i couldnt hav asked 4 anything better:)perhaps coz of this i wonder if it's too gd 2 b true n whether anything bad will happen soon 2 ruin all these,well let's hope not coz i really wan 2 enjoy e v last of 2008:)
This was given 2 me by e gals from my hc class,i cant believe they rmbered n well as usual i didnt notice anything..Haha i can b so silly:pwe had steamboat dinner at vivo n it was juz great seeing all of 'em again after ard 1.5yrs:)we only left at abt 1030pm yup..n well we took photos n talked a lot(mostly abt our r/s status:p n little updates on our lives)i'm lyk seriously outdated when it comes 2 these ppl's lives,i guess i thought all these belong 2 a past me but perhaps not,they're still such sweet friends after so long n i c various degree of maturity in them n it struck me tt we've all grown a bit in our own ways during these few yrs n well it makes me feel a bit nostalgic 4 my nj archery team,not sure y but i really kinda miss everyone,esp when i recall fred's confidence in realising wat we wan,juz lyk tt 1st invitational tt actually happened quite a while ago yup.Haha muz b coz of e combined trng session we're having wif nus tmr:)hope everything goes well but well if it doesnt at least i'll make e most out of it,over dere's my precious wendy n fred n i hope they'll b dere so tt we can catch up a bit yup coz now i really miss these ppl loads! heh anyway abt ytd i juz found out so many things lyk how qt's attached,(i hope it's 2 some1 nice coz she's too much of a gem 2 b wasted on a normal guy:p) n how mh's a facebk stalker(she even noes how lance looks lyk!)..stuff lyk tt,so i've 2 b careful abt wat i put up on e net in general,heh seems so interesting all these things n though i was reluctant 2 meet up wif 'em previously coz of laziness i'm glad i did coz i realised tt i still hav friends dere:)
sometimes it seems that i lyk picking fights... even if i do so unintentionally... lyk it's so fun creating a tense n awkward atmosphere when it used to be one of warmth. wat's wrong with me i keep asking myself. N i guess e only ans i hav at this point in time is juz for some understanding by the other party.. but then when i make things so unhappy for seemingly no reason, then i'll start 2 regret it and realise that i didnt put myself in the other person's shoes..
I was riding shotgun with my hair undone in the front seat of his car He's got a one-hand feel on the steering wheel The other on my heart I look around, turn the radio down He says baby is something wrong? I say "nothing, I was just thinking how we don't have a song" And he said...
"Our song is a slamming screen door, Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window When we're on the phone and you talk real slow Cause it's late and your mama don't know Our song is the way you laugh The first date "man, I didn't kiss her, when I should have" And when I got home... fore' I said amen Asking God if He could play it again"
I was walking up the front porch steps after everything that day Had gone all wrong 'n' been trampled on And lost and thrown away Got to the hallway, well on my way to my lovin' bed I almost didn't notice all the roses And the note that said...
Our song is a slamming screen door, Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window When we're on the phone and you talk real slow Cause it's late and your mama don't know Our song is the way you laugh The first date "man, I didn't kiss her, when I should have" And when I got home... fore' I said amen Asking God if He could play it again
I've heard every album, listened to the radio Waiting for something to come along That was as good as our song...
Cause our song is a slamming screen door Sneaking out late, tapping on his window When we're on the phone and he talks real slow Cause it's late and his mama don't know Our song is the way he laughs The first date "man, I didn't kiss him, when I should have" And when I got home, fore' I said amen Asking God if He could play it again Play it again... Oh Yeah
I was riding shotgun with my hair undone In the front seat of his car I grabbed a pen and an old napkin And I wrote down our song
Check yes Juliet Are you with me? Rain is falling down on the sidewalk I won't go until you come outside.
Check yes Juliet Kill the limbo I'll keep tossing rocks at your window There's no turning back for us tonight.
Lace up your shoes Eh Oh Eh Ohhh Here's how we do:
Run, baby, run Don't ever look back. They'll tear us apart If you give them the chance. Don't sell your heart. Don't say we're not meant to be. Run, baby, run. Forever will be You and me.
Check yes Juliet I'll be waiting Wishing, wanting Yours for the taking. Just sneak out And don't tell a soul goodbye. Check yes Juliet Here's the countdown 3... 2... 1... now fall in my arms now They can change the locks Don't let them change your mind
Lace up your shoes Eh Oh Eh Ohhh Here's how we do
Run, baby, run Don't ever look back They'll tear us apart If you give them the chance Don't sell your heart Don't say we're not meant to be Run baby run Forever will be You and me
We're flying through the night We're flying through the night Way up high, The view from here is getting better with You by my side
Run baby run Don't ever look back They'll tear us apart If you give them the chance Don't sell your heart Don't say we're not meant to be Run baby run Forever will be...
Run baby run Don't ever look back They'll tear us apart If you give them the chance Don't sell your heart Don't say we're not meant to be Run baby run Forever will be You and me You and me You and me
We were both young when I first saw you I closed my eyes and the flashback starts I'm standing there On a balcony in summer air
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns I see you make your way through the crowd And say hello Little did I know
That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet" And I was crying on the staircase Begging you, please don't go And I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess It's a love story Baby, just say yes
So, I sneak out to the garden to see you We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew So close your eyes Escape this town for a little while
Oh oh Cause you were Romeo, I was the scarlet letter And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet" But you were my everything to me I was begging you, please don't go And I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess It's a love story Baby, just say yes
Romeo, save me They try to tell me how I feel This love is difficult, but it's real Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess It's a love story Baby, just say yes
Oh oh
I got tired of waiting Wondering if you were ever coming around My faith in you is fading When I met you on the outskirts of town And I said
Romeo, save me I've been feeling so alone I keep waiting for you, but you never come Is this in my head I don't know what to think He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring And said
Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone I love you and that's all I really know I talked to your dad Go pick out a white dress It's a love story Baby, just say yes
This is the number one song on my fav list right now heh. It's about the love story that everyone knows about, or rather pretty much everyone in the literature world; yup it's Romeo & Juliet's story just that i prefer Taylor's version of the ending which is just absolutely sweet and touching despite it being just a song and all. While i was searching for these lyrics online i found that ppl hav posted comments that especially the last part of this song made them a bit teary (or a lot heh ;) ) Well i have to agree with them on this, while i was listening to this song for the first few times trying 2 catch the lyrics and it was then that i realised what Taylor was singing and well it really made my eyes fill with tears because it's the perfect ending that pretty much every girl in this world would wish for: a perfect ending where her prince charming would sweep her off her feet and all obstacles in their path would crumble away and well, just live happily ever after. :)
haha it's those times when you hear a song for a first time, trying to focus and catch wat the song is about which is quite a fun thing to do at times :) of coz tt's preferably when you've a lot of free time which at present i don't coz well actually i'm having my math paper tmr and to be honest i'm not that confident at all but here i am (wasting time :s ) blogging abt this absolutely fabulous song that has got me hooked :) . Aww the perfect love story is wat everyone envisions themselves in but is well, a fairytale, not reality coz well it's not possible to have such a flawless relationship as kinks have to be worked out and jigsaw pieces modified to fit together n stuff .. haha sounds so weird and abstract..
hmm seems lyk i typed too much, argh must not waste precious time that i still need 2 make myself more confident before tmr's paper... but i still hav loads 2 say! One of them is that i think Taylor looks absolutely gorgeous in her music video! I so love her gown (the one she's wearing while singing).. oh it just stimulates my creativity in designing clothes that i lyk again heh ;) haha nvm, perhaps another time....
recent msn nicks: .:Non est ad astra mollis e terris via :. so true i don't know what to say anymore.. BAD DAY.. njc archery closing :'( it's time 4 battle
basically i wanted 2 blog abt a lot of things (as seen below)
sometimes life brings a lot of surprises...
(potential) closure of njc archery
if i were a guy...
my first thoughts about life in NTU and the startling differences observed
matlab & MOM quiz
e-learning wk's over... n exams r coming...
but somehow i couldnt find e time :S even now i'm juz stealing time from doing fluids tut :S argh some1 save me... or give me more time in a day... ehh mebbe not, i'll prob juz slp those extra hrs away... anyway watch hsm2 again todae on ch 5 n well, i would say it's inspirational 2 me hahaha.. or rather i shall try hard 2 get real fit n get a real gd figure ;) (hahaha bet this aint smthg u'll expect me 2 sae but... yah!) After e exams hahahaha n well in e meantime i gotta work hard on studies.. meaning i gotta keep my mood up in order 2 b able 2 study hard these coming weeks... juz b4 e exams.. oh how fast time passes.. but well, smthg 2 keep in mind, is well, 2 enjoy my uni days juz lyk those hsm ppl (though it's juz a movie n all) coz well, this is my one and only chance at uni at this age (of abt 19+) and this time definitely wouldnt come again,... soooo jiayou myself haha... or 2 quote from London from the suite life ( ;) aint i an absolute disney channel fan... i havent grown up yet hahhaa ): yay me!
ok tt sounds totally bimbotic O.o some1 i'm definitely not but well, no harm acting lyk one once in a while... it's a rare mood i'm in @ this moment i suspect.. which therefore explains my wackiness now haha... well back 2 fluids n life in well.. ntu... suffering lyk crazy but well, at this point in time, it's time 2 focus n not think too much abt that oh soo ominous cloud in the sky.
hmm i juz luv my blogskin now, it absolutely reflects how i feel... : I seriously need 2 go shopping 2 destress/hav fun or watever... haha ... well prob coz i juz had 2 quizzes todae, one went sorta ok though it could hav been better, e other went way way bad.. wat're u supposed 2 do when u can only stare at 3 physics qns for the whole period without having any urge to write anything down... :s feels exactly lyk how i felt when i was doing phy 1 & 2 end-of-sem papers.. :s disgusting... urgh dunno whether is i didnt study enuff or wat... i noe i prob didnt prac enuff but juz looking at the >8qns / tutorial is enuff 2 make any1 dread doing it again...
oh wells, it's over, i cant do anything abt it, shall juz move on then.... guess this means i gotta work harder 4 e exams... well who wouldnt...
n i really wan 2 go shopping this friday, was supposed 2 b todae but i decided tt trng is quite compulsory so shall stop missing e wkday ones... but dere's a 230pm makeup lect for MOM on fri... :s gg after tt wouldnt exactly b early anymore :s oh wells... guess i'll wait til then before i make my final decision... though i really still wan 2 go shopping, preferably wif not so many ppl ard.. got lots of things i've gotta n wanna buy.. lyk:
1. clothes! mainly in e form of tops, shorts n perhaps dresses 2. gg out sandals? - unconfirmed coz i juz bought a pair of rubber slippers from everlast tt looks pretty gd 2 wear outside 3. MUJI snacks! - yummy... muz restock n it's really salty haha, better than MAMEE i suppose coz it doesnt hav MSG i think heh... 4. Things 4 decorating a thing ;) 5. lip gloss? - haha juz 2 ensure my makeup kit is complete 6. markers & pens - basically i'm lacking colours in my stationery! i wan PINK hahaha 7. new spectacles? - i really hate wearing specs though... but my oh-so-sensitive eyes need 2 rest 8. Mp3 player cum radio for my dear (*) - urgently required heh though i suspect he wouldnt let me pay 4 it 9. watch? not 4 myself of coz but yup... juz one of those not sure items
hmm i've got quite a few things 2 do too... revision 4 exams r naturally at e top though all e tutorials seem endless such tt dere's no time 2 do anything else... argh gotta find time, gotta make time it seems.. oh well we all gotta try..!
Sometimes it takes so much effort to keep myself from throwing tantrums that i juz have no more energy left for basic interactions with others.
Sorry dear for behaving sooo... hmm not gd today?
So now i wonder, issit better to juz flare up or keep it in... it's depressing keeping it in... but it's better for those ard me... hmm mebbe it juz requires practice n perhaps nxt time i'll still hav e energy 2 muster a weak smile to keep others from worrying too much. I'll also have to keep my independent level high despite my mood to make things easier for all when i'm in juz such a mood. When i'm too drained of energy, i shouldnt rely on others too much coz it's juz not right i think.. yup shall try not 2 repeat such incidents n if really hav 2, i shall learn 2 b a better person heh.
msn: .:Non est ad astra mollis e terris via :.
keeping an open mind & doing my v best; time to feel the breeze and walk the garden path of companionship =)
Sometimes i can behave so irrationally. But 2 b honest dere's always a reason y, even if it takes some time for me to figure out.
Right now i juz feel tired though i dunno y.. been tired since i woke up, issit coz i havent had enuff slp? but my slping hours didnt differ much... my body's also aching a bit, mainly the shoulders, back n arms... thx 2 ytd's trng i should think, but it's all my fault 4 taking such a long break from trng... esp wif pesta sukan juz this wkend.. i wonder how i'll perform eventually.. difficult 2 do well so i shant hav any expectations i suppose.. i really prefer not joining this particular competition even though it's 1 of e more impt comp... =x
Been behaving quite badly these few wks.. i was temperamental, mean, rude, evil... everything bad abt me juz showed itself recently... n i was trying 2 figure out y on e bus ride home after a particularly horrible appearance of one of my many imperfections... n i deduced tt i m juz..... stressed. Such a simple word yet it could cause so many problems.. why am i stressed? the sources are sch work, my hall room n my own inability to cope wif all tt's gg on. It takes a lot out of me juz 2 understand wat's gg on during my various subjects n plus the tutorials, it juz got to a point where i couldnt take it. Naturally it's also coz i've never been optimistic abt my performance wif regards to physics, esp for this semester. I've almost lost all hope i suppose... especially after every tutorial when i can't follow what the tutor is gg thru abt the various qns. This is juz so frustrating, so agonizing in a way...
I kinda wish i was back in secondary sch? when i was much better @ handling stress though definitely not perfectly, when grades werent as impt as doing my best and being satisfied wif that, when i've always worked hard 2 not let myself down... Now i'm too reluctant to start working hard, 2 start on tutorials... for reasons tt include the difficulty level of the qns, the complexity of the theories & eqns involved. I no longer understand wat's doing my best so tt i will hav no regrets; n tt used 2 b wat i always told myself back in sec sch.. seems lyk studies got a lot tougher.. or i got a lot weaker... I'm no longer in full control of my actions my thoughts my grades so as 2 speak.. all bcoz of stress i suppose, n my increasingly pessimistic nature... i juz wan 2 do well, from now on but tt's lyk an impossible task 2 do.. I'm so tired.
I hate that i've become lyk this despite being older, i thought maturity comes wif age..? Guess i'm not old enuff.. though i hav e feeling tt i was acting more mature in a way back when i was much younger...
I used to be proud of my ability to control myself well, 2 b fully aware of wat's gg on, 2 noe how 2 improve myself in order 2 achieve that goal of being a perfect woman hahaha... somewhere along the way i went downhill apparently... will i ever start climbing up again i wonder...
was thinking of searching 4 a new blog skin coz was tired of this one alr... not tt i blog often but well, it's time 4 a change... but searching 4 a new blog skin takes time that i do not hav the luxury of spending... my tutorials and notes await...
I used 2 b satisfied wif my performance in all aspects of my life.. now's definitely different already... I don't lyk giving up n hav always believed in the phrase 'you can give out but u can't give up'... yet now i'm close to the brink of giving up... when did i reach this stage of desperation i wonder...
Perhaps a nap will help me re-align my ideas n goals... i realise i really do need a goal so tt i can c where i'm gg coz moving aimlessly gets me nowhere... but i really hav no idea wat's ahead wat road 2 take, the many bumps in e road i left behind were nv really forgotten... how to move on if i don't let go...
I wan to b a better person, it has always been a goal of mine yet i feel as if i'm failing miserably... perhaps it's time 2 give myself a lecture n some +ve self-talk 2 refresh myself n leave behind the old me.. i really wan 2 b a new person wif much better characteristics that i currently hav n i wan 2 correct all those flaws of mine and acquire gd points tt i lack n hav always wanted but failed to achieve...
perhaps this is why i hesitated during those few minutes tt happened some time ago yet r still fresh in my memory... those few minutes when a crucial qns was asked and an answer was required...i gave my ans after choosing not 2 deliberate too much instead n juz c where this will lead me... i kinda got the feeling now tt it is coz i noe exactly wat kind of person i m n i dunno whether it's wise 2 impose myself on another being when i noe perfectly well the repercussions and perhaps unhappiness tt i could cause.
I really hope that somehow i didnt make life difficult 4 others though i alr knew tt it was a possibility those many mths ago... Forgiveness isnt so wonderful when i don't learn 2 b a better person in e process... Apologies n regrets arent as impactful as ensuring tt my bad qualities r greatly reduced or even removed along the way...
This was a photo of pocoyo tt i took when i was flipping channels randomly some time b4 sch started,i juz thought tt this little guy was juz too cute 2 resist;)heh anyway it's been million of yrs since i last blogged n i Guess tt's bcoz i was bz..also coz whenever i feel lyk blogging i'm not on my comp so it was juz troublesome..hmm naturally loads hav happened since then,some gd some not so but we all somehow find a way 2 get thru it n looking back juz makes us grateful tt we had company thru e difficult times n tt we could share e happier ones wif those ard us:) hmm well i spent e first half of my hols trng 4 comp which should b considered fruitful though i didnt get any individual placing (again)but i'm glad i made it 2 e top 10places n could almost get e chance 2 fight it out wif 2 persons tied for 5th placing during nus indoor,well e key word here is almost:p Then 4 e next half of e hols i slacked on trng 2 hopefully do well 4 accounting elective(which i didnt really so seems as though i wasted my time)but oh well tt's over so it's time 2 move on.. Yr 2 modules r really quite difficult,i'm definitely feeling e stress e pressure mainly from myself but tt's coz i wan 2 do well or at least better than where i m now but well,guess i gotta take things 1 step at a time n slowly work my way thru,think tt's e only way if i wanna survive thru these uni yrs of mine;) Anyway archery comp is approaching fast n considering tt i havent been trng since i sprained my ankle e wk b4 sch started n my flu last wk,i think i'm way unprepared 4 it but despite it all i really cant give up,somehow i'm in 1 of e 2 teams sent n i hav 2 ensure tt i dun let myself flop coz dere r other ppl at stake here,all their hard work n trng n it's really unfair if we fail coz i havent been trng,i would feel so angry if i were them soo this basically means i gotta work hard,but well despite saying so i'm still not starting any form of strengthening exercises so i guess i'm all talk:p Haha but i cant afford tt so i better jiayou n anyway i'm reaching sch soon,gotta walk in which is tiring coz i hav 0 stamina now heh so i shall end here first:) this post is mainly 4 my dear bf who notices tt i didnt post in a long while n is prob e only one who does;)but in tt sense i'm grateful,really:) Recent msn nicks:time 2 slow down n walk e garden path of companionship:)
this time i seriously thought my skills were mostly up to standard.. argh blame my failure in seeing the motorcycle coming my way.. haiz.. n i still need 2 brush up on checking every direction during parking apparently.. n i hav 2 form up correctly else it'll b another immediate failure.. crap so many things despite me being satisfied wif my skills level.. hateful. n this time so many ppl noe i was taking the test.. haiz so it'll b quite painful telling every1 when they ask.. haiz, nvm that way i'll become numb 2 e pain faster ;p i was pretty confident.. hate feeling such crushing defeat; was it wrong 2 feel as if everything will go smoothly? should hav realised that i should nv hav such high hopes of myself apparently.. guess this depends a lot on luck n the day's conditions. not to mention i thought the tester was pretty strict. oh i need 2 brush up on my // parking.. it has nv been a prob.. juz not used 2 the one in the circuit where the pole is so near the edge of the parking lot.
Haiz. nvm it's over.. i'm juz glad tt i wasnt left 2 my own thoughts 2 sink in self-despair after the test, my dear came over n waited 4 me 2 finish up wif the test n everything.. then we went watch 'made of honour' after which i was pretty much back 2 normal.. he was so sweet 2 me after e test.. hmm kind of like that treatment :P but i noe his normal attention to me is alr a lot so i'm grateful for that.. we went je after that 2 get some cooking bks from the library n cooking/baking supplies n grabbed some dinner despite me not being hungry (it was alr 9plus) n then he sent me home.. didnt sound lyk much but i enjoyed my time wif lance :P hmm the 2nd attempt for my driving test (which was also a failure) was also followed by a day out wif lance too so hmm the company is great as always :) no complaints dere.. juz tt i wanna pass n celebrate wif my dear instead of moping ard n having 2 get him 2 cheer me up n everything.. i juz wanna stop wasting time n $$ both of which i seriously hate wasting.. oh wells, it's been a long n tiring day wat wif LDP meeting in the morn at 10am followed by 2 hrs driving then the test n all so yup time 2 get a well-deserved rest! :)
hmm i realise i'm pretty much pessimistic wif my thoughts most of the time, failing to think abt the better things in life, always seeing things in a darker shade of light than it could have been seen in.. i noticed this a few days back while on my way to my driving lesson.. suddenly feeling as if i could see things in a better light, in a better way; be it my family, my friends, my driving lesson.. everything took on a better colour so as to speak... i was grateful for that which i have and a bit regretful over that which i don't but knowing that i already have so much n hence not being too greedy for more.. heh sounds quite deep n all but that was my thoughts at that point in time.. anyway the lesson after that turned out to be pretty bad so my mood took a swing downwards so it was perhaps gd that i had tried to make myself feel better before the lesson.. n in this incident i realise (as always) that my mood is ever-changing, easily swinging from happy to sad with the swift flow of my thoughts.. was juz thinking that i feel quite apologetic towards lance that he has to bear wif me when i'm in my moods.. throwing tempers or juz being downright unhappy... hmmm...is it a gals thing or issit juz me.. a qns i'll juz hav 2 consider but not really bother wif esp since my days are packed wif activities to bz myself wif everyday :P
recent msn nicks: '3 whole days more..' ... 'i reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some'
Time passes real quick and it's already the end of my first year in NTU Aerospace.. kept wondering how i was going to survive in aerospace but i guess all e yrs in ntu will juz pass lyk that so i should juz let time do its magic n use my brain on my impt matters...
the 5 papers were alright i guess, phy a killer as usual.. dunno wat's wrong wif me, having smthg against phy i guess.. oh wells i cant let this go on, gotta find a way to overcome it coz engineering is all abt phy aint it..? :S haiz gotta jiayou
basically this holiday will b spent on getting my license(hopefully), trng, special sem-accounting (yay my 1st choice! :P), worldview stuff as well as gg out n relaxing at home i should think. No chance for overseas trip partly coz my parents wouldnt let me go wif lance... haiz only 2 b expected.. though i did hope.. nvm. guess i juz gotta wait for some time first, guess it's too fast too early 2 ask. I shall learn 2 b a gd patient little girl...
guess i really gotta jiayou 4 everything.. esp studies...
recent msn nicks: i ans 2 me n only me :P , cant always hav everything u wan, tt's life.
Yesterday saw the 830 lab class having fun throwing their glider after their whole test n everything.. apparently huiwen's pink dolphin got the 2nd best distance in their class n kenneth & sikuan's glider the 'black hawk' hit the other end of the hangar though only prof jorg schulter was ard; so w/o e other 2 teachers ard 2 c its performance, that flight couldnt b counted though here on youtube, huiwen posted that magnificent flight of black hawk's :P
Not bad that she managed to get a gd video of it juz when it decided 2 fly ;)
hmm the 'show & tell' session was alright, jingxin(& yonghwa, timothy, bangwei)'s group was before mine, lance's before theirs and so thankfully by the time it got 2 our turn, the 3 profs were a bit tired of asking qns :P e 3 profs were prof schulter(dunno whether spelt correctly), materials lect prof n prof yongki go (yr1 coordinator). n jingxin was a really gd speaker too, talking so fluently n flawlessly lyk he knew everything though apparently he juz saw the paper juz b4 e presentation n smoked his way thru ;) lucky him.. haha but that meant that the profs were tired of asking qns after their group alr :P yay... coz i had 2 present wif benjamin n i wasnt clear (or that clear) abt the concept n theory... lucky my part aint tt technical n the profs didnt really post much difficult qns, they didnt ask much! :D
Then for the real flight itself... it was cool :P me on e ground was nervous for kitling n yvette on b3 n b3m, think they muz hav felt worse.. whenever it came 2 our group 2 fly our 'black knights' glider(coz we pasted black knights sticker on it as supplied by yvette :p ), they'll always take their time 2 check if the tail is centre n whether the ailerons n elevators r working.. pretty cool watching them do that while the others juz fly their glider when it's their turn coz they looked so pro! lyk they knew wat they were doing which they did of coz :P heh so fun! n when it came 2 distance flight... our glider flew 2 e last pillar from the back so it's lyk 3/4 of the hangar,.. yay! :P 1st try flew that far n 2nd try juz slighter lesser than that... then after that also no one beat that distance so very happy :D For precision, kitling controlled it pretty well such that both times landed within the 'runway' that was marked wif masking tape on the ground.. 2nd time was slightly better coz slid to the middle of the runway.. :D then the materials prof was commenting to the other profs that 'oh twice also'.. then i was walking past so v happy :D!! hmm but gliders lyk lance's n jingxin's which were supposed 2 perform didnt really... coz lance's one broke after e 1st/2nd flight.. ouch.. unlucky.. then it couldnt fly well after it broke.. then jingxin's dunno wat changes they made 2 it coz ytd it couldnt fly at all, kept nosediving, they said one of their servo also spoilt so hmm prob combination of unfortunate things.. then after 2 tries still got time so since our group wanted 2 try distance again, i approached the profs 2 get 'em 2 watch again... n i guess all e other groups also wanted 2 try again so i was lyk surrounded a bit by a lot of ppl after i asked e profs.. lol i was lyk woah where did all these ppl came from.. hahaha... so they were all on the 'landing area' but of coz they cleared the middle area for our glider but it was alright coz.... our glider totally flew over everyone n headed for the end of the hangar!!!!!! WAY COOL! hahahahaa kitling so pro lar! he got the glider to pitch up gently everytime it was tilting downwards so it managed 2 fly so long, so far!! i saw the whole thing!! O.O it was woah........! neat man! n i couldnt stop smiling when i went 2 get it back while prof jorg marked e spot :P
Here's our glider: 'Black Knights'
Our group T2-4 and our glider in MAL!
hehe euphoria... apparently prof jorg was v interested in our glider coz after e whole thing when kitling n yvette juz went up again 2 try n c if we can fly it that far again 2 record it down on video he was on the lift up n he asked qns abt our glider :) seems lyk all e effort wasnt wasted.. pity the fuselage broke that time when we tried again after e whole thing.. nvm glued n taped it back n returned it.. anyway it's only worth if it flew well during the flight itself, imagine if all e time it was doing ok but it didnt perform during the most crucial flight then every1 in e group will b pretty sad that all e effort was 4 naught... i should think it's prob lyk how jingxin's n lance's group would hav felt.. hmm well juz glad tt it's over then time 2 focus on other more AUs subj :P yup.. torturous but gotta try 2 score... this time 5 papers only, gotta make sure i do better, else it'll b stupid 2 hav 1 less paper than last sem yet dun do better... yup. gotta force myself 2 hit e bks/notes.. lyk muz.. dun care how i might feel i juz gotta force myself.. this is e only way 2 not feel too stressed hopefully...
btw juz an interesting note.. benjamin wrote E pluribus unum on our glider which means 'Out of Many, one' in Latin.. cool eh... always thought latin was fun.. mebbe i shall go learn it someday :)
hmm realised i totally didnt blog in march at all... always cant find time to do so, esp when i'm the biz mag for NTU Open which was in mid-march, think it was 15 & 16 march, sat and sun.. i know i had a math quiz the following week which i totally flopped in.. that time there was a phy quiz during that period which i did average only, but was at least satisfied wif it.. esp considering that i only got 1 qns correct for today's quiz, i better do well in the final exam else it'll b really hard 2 not let my gpa get pulled down by phy.. again -.- so that means i muz work hard, really hard all the way til the exams! which are actually only a week away so not much time 2 show my diligence / sloth watever.. math quizzes were ok overall since lance forced me 2 work hard for the last quiz which helped pulled up overall... but phy is smthg tt i muz force myself in else it'll b very difficult 4 me 2 turn things ard at all.. ok muz really try alr..
anyway was commenting on deb's entries and everything n also realised that she uses perfect english in her entries, not lyk me using shortform whenever i can.. dun bother to capitalise the 'i's too ... heh guess we all have our own style of noting down the little things in our life. These few mths have been hectic, they seemed 2 pass so fast.. though every mth's 28 is remembered coz it's me n lance's 'month-niversary' :) but sch work n the various activities juz keep getting in the way of us having a proper celebration.. ok fine it's me n my unfinished tutorials that keep us from celebrating properly since always hav 2 go back n make me finish my tut for the nxt day's lesson.. i can b so imprudent, foolish, thoughtless, irrational sometimes.. failing to consider this big picture by doing my tutorial earlier instead of leaving til the last min.. a flaw of mine that i'll hav 2 correct for every1's sake.. esp for mine n lance's i suppose..
hmm i'm seriously forgetful sometimes too.. forgot 2 bring tissue for lance coz his nose aint treating him well todae n forgot 2 bring the pages that i printed out for our report for management that we were supposed 2 hand up during the tutorial.. made him run here run dere juz 2 get it 4 us.. i should start carrying post-its ard wif me i think, n write down all e stuff i hav 2 do immediately instead of storing them somewhere in my brain.. apparently the short-term memory gets forgotten for a while before my memory gets jolted and i recall that dere's smthg that i failed to do.. tsk tsk, think it's too much memory work since pri sch that has reduced my brain's ability to store short-term memory well.. even the management tutor notices this phenomenon among singaporeans while our peers from our countries dun seem 2 hav this prob.. or mebbe it's juz our styles of studying.. it's time we learn from them i guess...
ok it's late, i wanted 2 watch the online lect for marketing, but felt that it's too late n i'm too tired... which is true.. was studying in yonghwa's room wif lance dear while they 2 studied astro.. argh, my fav subj but from wat i heard, it sounded pretty content heavy, juz lyk management, v content heavy too.. hmm wonder how m i gonna pass for management.. coz it doesnt seem lyk it's ez 2 pass.. crap i seriously need 2 put some work into management even if i s/u-ed it alr.. i still need 2 pass... okies time 2 rest else tmr cant wake up on time for our glider's final flight, the one that we keep practising for.. let's hope it'll be a smooth flight for our 'black knights' glider :P
recent msn nicks: never again will i.. time is of e essence!
Storybook endings, fairy tales coming true Deep down inside we want to believe they still do And a secret is taught, it's our favorite part of the story Let's just admit we all want to make it true Ever ever after If we just don't get it our own way Ever ever after It may only be a wish away
Starting your fashion, wear your heart on your sleeve Sometimes you reach what's real just by making believe Unafraid, unashamed There is joy to be claimed in this world You even might wind up being glad to be you Ever ever after
Though the world will tell you it's not smart Ever ever after The world can be yours if you let your heart Believe in ever after
No wonder your heart feels it's flying Your head feels it's spinning Each happy ending's a brand new beginning Let yourself be enchanted, you just might break through To ever ever after Forever could even start today Ever ever after Maybe it's just one wish away Your ever ever after Ever ever ever after
(I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss) Ohhhhh , for ever ever after [ Ever Ever After lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
Sometimes a beautiful white rose, a cherished gift and a thoughtful card is all it takes to make an uneventful day special :)
Seems like just yesterday You were a part of me I used to stand so tall I used to be so strong Your arms around me tight Everything, it felt so right Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong Now I can't breathe No, I can't sleep I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces Can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything Opened up and let you in You made me feel alright For once in my life Now all that's left of me Is what I pretend to be So together, but so broken up inside 'Cause I can't breathe No, I can't sleep I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces Can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out For hating you, I blame myself Seeing you it kills me now No, I don't cry on the outside Anymore...
Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces Can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces Can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry Behind these hazel eyes
Sometimes when i'm really angry all i wan 2 do is start screaming or smthg. but i cant. it's stupid. so i force myself to shut my eyes and stop being an idiot. typing fast can be a way 2 let out this excess energy.. else blasting music will help too.. Totally blocking out all surrounding noises is the best way to calm down at times.
I have a really bad temper. That I juz barely control. If i'm angry enuff i dunno wat i'll do. i juz feel lyk crying sometimes when i cant stand it. seriously. but crying is lyk admitting to losing. Losing to yourself.
Often I'm angry coz of myself. Angry at myself. For always failing to be the perfect person i've been trying to be all my life. I really hate this. Hate myself for letting things get so bad that the only thing i can do is rage and cry over it. BUt i dun cry on the outside, not anymore. Gotta calm down. Getting angry doesnt get anything done. It juz wastes more time i guess.
