Wednesday, August 29, 2007

interview.. visitors...

Definition: Humility is the state of being humble. A humble person is generally thought to be unpretentious and modest: someone who does not think that he or she is better or more important than others.

Hmmm... was asked this during an interview for smthg... n i was lyk err humility to me is about being humble -.- haha... and then i juz anyhow started bringing in archery... lol, silly me. Haha the coincidence is that this happened to be my msn nick now... n i told those ppl interviewing me.. i think i was rattling on... talking nonsense not really making sense haha. But i feel ok after the interview so should b alright i hope. Hope i didnt talk too much nonsense n make myself out 2 b some super capable person which i'm so not. Juz hoping that things will b smooth-gg n that matters will go my way...

Mon 27 aug, ate dinner wif mf marie deb... then headed 4 hall... was talking 2 kennerve @ nite who later asked if i wanted supper -.-" n the network here in ntu a bit lousy coz too many ppl using so i didnt get 2 reply him... then he called n asked if i wanted 2 eat prata... coz he's apparently buying... n well shuyu was suddenly in the mood for lots of junk fd (she went jp that evening 2 buy $26 worth of fdstuffs...) so she said ask him come... though i alr brushed my teeth n refused 2 eat anything else... shuyu was alr trying 2 force junk fd on me that evening alr... 12 midnite he popped by n they ate supper while we 3 juz chatted until 230am... haiyo...

so i was really sleepy in sch e next dae... hardly paid attention to the mat sci lecturer though he seems quite gd... couldnt absorb wat he was saying... wasted... then during lab i also not v alert... didnt really spot mistakes n my lab partner had 2 keep asking another group doing the same stuff as us 4 help... sigh, asked until he sianed diao alr i think haha... so we switched 2 asking the lab person who was supervising us ... haha... @ least we got our queries answered... n we ended juz past 3pm... yay lots of time 2 walk 2 computing... met mitch on e way 2 lkc n she was lyk 'yl i'm so tired... ' ya she looked v tired 2 me.. walking alone 2 her lecture... anyway so i went computing wif my 3 labmates n 1 other guy who's also in my lab but not my group... surprisingly i didnt fall asleep during computing n could follow wat he was teaching! :) yay so happy... @ least my day not entirely wasted...

evening, had dinner wif ashley :) went 2 visit her in her hall 11 coz @ 8pm she had kickboxing... yup ate at canteen 11... ok la i guess. Better than my canteen @ any rate... Then came back n did my phy tutorial! So proud of myself that i finished it... though i was wasting a lot of time juz staring @ e qns n was on msn half e time... only finished @ 1am then went 2 slp... really tired esp after e lack of slp e previous nite... oh kenneth from aero hall 9 3rd floor popped by 4 a visit coz i saw him b4 meeting ash but he was on e phone so he couldnt talk 2 me.. anyway he offered me n shuyu a ride 2 sch e next dae :D yay! haha... better than walking dere myself... but dun really noe his roomie n his friend who didnt talk 2 me so nvm 'em. Haha.

Wed, came back hall wif e intention of doing work but eh think i didnt really succeed... crap i gotta meet kay n ash @ 430 lkc 2 study.. then hav dinner tgt @ 630 coz they having some lindyhop thingy at nite... k better go rest b4 meeting 'em... even though it's alr 410pm on my watch... -.- yikes.

Sunday, August 26, 2007

3rd wk of sch over...

Time passes really quickly when you're studying, the 3rd wk of sch is alr over n yet i still feel so new 2 this whole system. Wishing that time could juz slow down a little to let me enjoy my time here in uni n 2 think over the stuff that i want 2 do here instead of rushing thru everything. Give me time 2 do my tutorials properly, 2 read my textbks properly, 2 understand the things i'm learning now properly... But well this is mainly my problem i believe. I'll juz hav 2 learn 2 manage my time properly, 2 quickly get back into the pace of things, 2 not waste time anymore n b lyk how i was last yr, when i could juz focus n get my things done quickly... 2 b efficient n not b easily distracted. 2 prioritize n 2 gauge 4 myself wat's really impt n wat can wait. Time 2 get back my focus again. Asap. Oh wells. I've gotta jia you.

Realised that i really do miss home when staying in hall... home is always the best of coz :) This wk of sch has been quite hectic? No more lyk busy... almost everydae dere's some activity but tt's only 2 b expected coz eating dinner alone in hall is so so so sad. Thankfully i havent had that experience yet.. was always able 2 find ppl 2 hav dinner wif me... real grateful 2 them 4 being so wonderful!

This wk... tue had the investment interactive club (iic) welcome 'tea' @ 630pm but it didnt start until abt 745pm... due 2 the large no. of ppl who turned up... found out that abt a 1000 ppl signed up 2 join iic... *shocked* it's lyk wow... so many... they had 2 use LKC-LT which is the biggest LT in NTU... haha i really respect their ability 2 attract ppl in. Esp since their subcomms don't require interviews or anything(juz higher membership fees -.-) hence the large no. of ppl signing up 2 b subcommers rather than juz members. I joined financial events subcomm despite my interest in financial controller subcomm coz i had 2 mg snrs dere n it was prob easier 4 kay, fj n me 2 work tgt in financial events. We were quite amusing that nite... dere was supposed 2 b a briefing 4 e subcommers but kay fj n i juz signed up n when every1 juz got settled down we were alr out of the LT, rushing 2 can A for Macs dinner lol... we were lyk 'srry but we're rushing off so we cant attend e briefing' n the guy was lyk oh it's ok, we'll contact you all @ a later date... haha we were lyk rushing here n dere.. coz @ 1st we were in the queue for members (which we rushed down 2 b @ e head of e queue as soon as those main comm ppl stopped talking lol) then later we found out that subcomm muz sign up in another part of the LT so we juz totally rushed dere too... haha it was v funny. That dae only really reached back hall ard 10pm after sending fangjing off @ e bus stop where she's heading back to her hall 7 after visiting my room n borrowing my dress from me :) oh wells. Campus + Hall life i guess.

Wed, Hao Wen got nite out! Haha he was supposed 2 hav nite out last wk but it got cancelled so shuyu was quite disappointed so this wk we werent banking on him really coming. But anyway he did! So we hurriedly informed mitch n fel who were sporting enuff 2 turn up despite mitch's apparent fatigue after tuition n fel's reluctance 2 abandon her og again(not e 1st time) for dinner... anyway in e end fel prob did eat wif her og.. coz she had alr eaten by e time shuyu hw n i were eating in can A. Hw dropped by my hall 1st... n we showed him our sparsely furnished room haha... he was in so formal an attire!But apparently that's the compulsory book-out attire.. quite odd..., then every1 in can A prob noticed him.. haha... met my og in can A who were waiting for the ogl interviews thing... hope some of 'em can get in!Then it'll b fun.. kinda haha. Then hw got a chance 2 check out mitch's hall too n then we went hall 6 to pick up his friend n they got a cab n went over 2 hall 11 to pick up another guy n @ e same time send shuyu n i back 2 hall :) haha no need walk back yay! Anyway hall 11 is lyk 3 min away from hall 9 only!SO close!Muz walk inside then v fast, walk along the main road quite slow. Haha i discovered the short distance that afternoon when marie they all asked me over 2 hall 11 to study tgt.. which wasnt v successful but anyway nvm tt. Quite fun that nite despite my undone material sci tutorial looming over me haha.

Thurs n Fri also got activities. Actually mon nite had dinner wif fel mitch shuyu so also considered got smthg on haha. Thurs nite had dinner wif puikhuan! who had a speech later than evening for current affairs club for main comm position... which she got!! haha she's gd! Anyway i went back hall but hardly did any work coz keep talking on msn n was dunno doing wat other things... tsk me. Then later at ard 12 i guess, kay msged me (so late!) n asked me abt a coursemate of mine, whether i noe him... haha, n since i saw her online i immediately started chatting 2 her on msn... despite the fact that i was supposed 2 b reading my notes... -.- oh wells. It was such a surprise n i was enjoying myself chatting that nite.. kay was lyk so excited when she found out that i noe him... n naturally i was surprised that my lab group mate who's also the guy sitting beside me during computing tutorial juz that afternoon is kay's relative... cousin's cousin.. haha.. v funny. N on tue b4 i met kay i was wif my lab mates in the library... so it's lyk they kinda missed each other by minutes! hah.. n i told my lab mates i was meeting a friend(who's kay) n i told kay abt 1 of my lab mate being in iic but wasnt gg 4 e welcome thing tt dae coz he go support his friend in star search... so that nite when kay invited him into the convo(coz apparently they were chatting n found out that we all knew each other..) they were happily chatting n was lyk 'Oh so that was you!' n 'so the guy that yl was telling me abt was u!!' yah... n i was feeling a bit ... it's as if i keep telling my friends abt my other friends.. hmm dunno how 2 describe, juz feel weird. But i was having fun chatting anyway so haha. So amusing how we're connected n all... n how coincidence that they juz missed each other...

Anyway, fri afternoon had lunch @ hall 14 canteen wif some joker ppl.. then evening had dinner wif mf,marie,deb n marie's friend in clementi b4 us girls headed 2 nus ucc 4 some martial arts display(10 martial arts groups)-it was quite gd actually, n quite scary certain parts coz worried 4 those ppl.. haha... it was quite impressive some parts 2 b honest. Guess i learnt more abt martial arts, was a bit reluctant 2 go in the 1st place but well... later apparently marie's friend paid 4 some tix so i kinda only need pay half price so juz go lor. Then reached back hall ard 11 showered, unpacked n juz do some stuff b4 gg over 2 marie room in hall 10 to play cards.. but anyway ended up studying half e time coz mf started teaching marie tutorial stuff... oh wells. i definitely didnt get much done that nite but it was fun.. derrick went out wif deb 2 buy stuff back 2 eat.. yum! then leilei was happily on msn chatting away... derrick later sent leilei back on his bike so it was ok us all meeting up in marie's place :) Fun actually! haha

Sat morn (slept @ lyk 3am that morn... thx 2 e session @ marie's hall) i had archery selection trials... wah found it difficult 2 wake up this morn... but had 2 pull myself outta bed... trials impt... took shuttle bus the long way n was late but thankfully they havent started yet. Went dere n juz nice they were calling 4 those ppl wif eq n experience so immediately headed 2 e field n start our 2 rounds of shooting w/o really getting a gd look @ the pretty big group of ppl who were beginners @ archery meeting dere this morn. Oh wells. Made friends wif e other 2 girls dere aside from dx n 2 guyz too. Nice ppl. Turns out 1 of e guy was a hall 9 person so he showed me n dx e shortcut back 2 hall which is really short! Next time i shall walk dere n not wait 4 e shuttle bus... Anyway the captain said that ya they'll c our scores but anyway most prob all of us will get in so no need worry haha. Though my score isnt much 2 look @ i think... prob e lowest among e girls, 470+ i think, cant rmber... Anyway,then wat's e selection 4?i seriously wonder.. Quite great feeling shooting again though i admit it was tiring..only 2 b expected i guess..hence e need 4 PT again... all of us were complaining by e end of e 1st round n we took a v long break hahaz. Had fun n that's wat really matters. Cheers 2 noeing more ppl who're hopefully friendly n nice in ntu, esp in archery.. but hmmm trng gonna b quite as intensive as back in nj so i gotta jia you... muz really study hard n well n effectively o/w sure will fall behind wif archery trng schedule as told 2 us. Gotta jia yoU!

Recent Msn Nicks: time 2 b humble, seeing red.anger fills my entire self, humility in the face of adversity.

Saturday, August 11, 2007

Dreaming a little dream...*

Somehow i've always imagined myself to grow up into a businesswoman, firm and confident, at times stern but always fair.. but now, i'm studying to be an aerospace engineer, with mannerisms nothing lyk the gentle character i imagined myself to hav in the above. haha strange that i've always been training myself 2 become a better person, for this dream. I guess i've always thought that my life would eventually result in the above i juz described. Yet the path i've taken now is not likely to lead to wat i've always thought will be. Me, an engineer. To be honest, i dun even noe wat an engineer does.

Imaging myself as a careerwoman, wearing business suits as compared to wat i'll become now that i'm studying engineering... wat do engineers wear? i've no idea. Engineers arent really technicians but yet i seem 2 c ppl wearing overalls covered in grease and oil as smthg similar to wat an engineer muz appear to b. wat a stark contrast. Oh wells, studying engineering doesnt mean that i'll become an engineer, i can always go into business, banking, administrative(..boring) areas even if i dun hav the knowledge n expertise of these sectors.. i can always go learn and study, if i were 2 choose 2 enter these areas. So i guess, for now, this will be my path, watever i imagined myself 2 b previously, will no longer hold.. for now.

hmm uncertainties aside, let's get on wif wat's gg on wif me these days. A friend juz told me that dere's only abt 15 girls out of the 162 aerospace students in my batch this yr. Guess we were all disappointed that the cohort is so big... so much for 'our facilities cant accommodate too many students', guess we wanted our numbers to lie in the 80 - 100s... so that we were more exclusive, we were more special. I was shocked when i found out dere were 162 students, more so when i heard only 15 were girls.

I knew that there'll b very little girls, i've been warned innumerous times by countless ppl yet i was hoping that it being the dragon girls' intake, there'll b more girls. Apparently i was wrong. But i was checking out the other girls ( ;] ) hehe n i saw hey, most of them do noe how 2 dress up, hooray for female aerospace engineers! Guess u cant really tell that they're that capable n smart from their so-not nerdy get-up. Oops i seem 2 b insinuating smthg.. we dun dress bimbotic. We dress in line with the latest fashions n trends. We noe how 2 make ourselves look gd. Haha, for our sake than for those 147 guyz. Eww, dressing up for them is an insult to us, oh well, me @ least. i guess it was interesting to see who were the other 14 girls who would pick up this course. Amazingly i alr knew abt 1/3 of the girls in the aerospace cohort. 2 were from nj, 1 was from my og and another i got to know thru friends. Haha, somehow i managed 2 find so many aerospace girls ard me. No wonder i was shocked that dere were so few girls, that most were actually ard me haha.

Guess this juz made me wonder even more if this is the path that i ought to take. Perhaps i should hav taken accountancy, assuming i can get in. A career where e male to female ratio isnt so bad, where my image of wearing business suits would easily fit in.. hmm.. i guess it's too late to consider all these again. I've already thought thru it so many many times that i'm getting a bit tired of it all. Let's juz see wat happens in these 4 yrs. I will work hard. I wouldnt let myself down for 1 thing. Hopefully i'll b able 2 cope. I do wan 2 take certain biz electives. All e best 2 me.
Let the challenge of the 4 yrs ahead begin.

MSN nick: Sometimes i really hate myself.

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

oooh i'm an Uni student alr!

it's been a while since i last blogged... as commented by my room-mate shuyu! haha.. so i shall blog now... next time i blog i hope 2 b using my new notebk! hopefully it'll b of gd quality n wouldnt spoil or anything.. hmmm lots have happened since my last post.. fantastic 4 was great and we all had a good though short chat over dinner b4 the movie.

Found out that huixian is gg nus mech eng.. even though she got accepted into ntu mech eng.. isnt ntu better in terms of eng? oh well, her choice :) not mine hehe.. hmm realised that these 6-7mths break after JC passes really fast esp the last mth,...though when i was in the midst of it i wasnt enjoying it thx 2 work:( all work's fault! humph... haha.. anyway suddenly i'm alr a ntu student, a Uni student! Guess it only sank in after my first dae of sch.. which was boring come 2 think of it haha.

Anyway, should start from the beginning.. had dinner in mid-july wif yushu, fel, shuyu, mitch they all... haha fel was lyk how come yushu? then i was lyk 'coz he wan this outing.. mebbe coz he v long nv hang out wif girls alr haha' oh wells. had fun tt evening anyway..

Then 14 jul sat was my last dae of work! lyk FinAllY!! haha been waiting 4 this dae 4 quite a while..not that work is distasteful or smthg, in fact i learnt lots in work n even had fun sometimes during work.. but work 2 me is smthg nv 2 b loved i guess.. coz it's always routine, always lyk that. No matter how many mths hav passed, u're actually still doing the same thing n it's not fun in that sense..

Hmmm the wk rite after ending work was Camp Insinyur,... Engineering Camp in other words. When i was in camp, i seriously couldnt wait 2 get outta it. Guess it was that bad 2 me.But now that camp is over, looking back, i guess it was fun... coz looking back u'll only rmber the gd things n forget the other not so wonderful stuff that happened... n since i only seem 2 rmber 1 or 2 stuff abt camp (the last 2 daes of camp actually).. guess camp was mostly not fun for me when i was in it. haha.. anyway, seems lyk my orientation group (og name: Joker) is only enthu after camp lol. They keep having outings these days! which is rather expensive... i've been 2 abt 3 outings so far and they've had abt 5-6 so far. realised that if the outing drags too long, i'll get bored.. n wouldnt b contributing 2 their discussions.. meaning that i'll b quiet... n i kinda feel that i dun really click wif these ppl.. hmm they laugh over things i dun find that funny.. hmm haha i think i'm juz being silly.. they're nice ppl la, juz perhaps it's coz i'm more comfortable wif some ppl in the og as compared to others.. but i can easily integrate myself wif other ppl i think.. juz whether i wan 2. Think they're gg watch fireworks tonite but no thx.. muz save $ now that i'm staying in hall n arent they tired of seeing each other so often?? lol, well i m even if they're not.

My 2nd dae of sch was the first nite that i've stayed in hall haha. n the only nite i'm staying this wk hehe, coz got so much reason 2 stay at home than in sch..haha...but hmm hopefully next sem my timetable wouldnt b so bad o/w i would b wishing that i'm still staying in hall or smthg.. eh mebbe not used 2 e bed in hall yet so i found it hard 2 fall asleep... shuyu also haha..she was awake alr b4 me... but hall life is really boring w/o internet connection, w/o a notebk.. hmm cant wait 2 get mine.. but cant rush these things haha. Eh guess hall life is also boring when u dunno any1 else in hall aside from a handful of ppl... that's the result of not gg 4 hall camp but hearing the description of other ppl's hall camp, i'm not really sad that i missed mine haha.

Hmm guess it's gd that i went 4 @ least 1 of the camps, made friends dere, esp aerospace ppl.. haha, i need 2 noe some of the aerospace ppl b4 starting sch! impt esp when i cant seem 2 find any1 else 2 go 2 lect wif me... hmm when tutorials start next wk it's gonna b more difficult..hmm we'll c how. Anyway, todae's national dae! yay public holidae! haha n of coz muz wish singapore a happy bdae!

Went shopping wif mitch after lessons ended yesterdae. mitch's lesson ended at 130 while mine ended at 1130 haha.. but we only left sch at abt 3 thereabt.. was taking my time 2 get my stuff from hall b4 gg over 2 mitch's hall (4) 2 meet her. She was supposed 2 do my hair but upon inspection, her professional advice was 2 wait @ least 1 more mth 4 e highlights 2 fade more, 4 my hair 2 grow longer b4 i get her 2 re-do the highlights.. but she'll trim n cut my hair for me this sat i think.. assuming nthg goes wrong.. if anything crops up then my hair will juz hav 2 wait again haha. So since mitch wanted 2 go shopping 4 clothes.. i went wif her.. was in a pretty ok mood i guess haha. We went to cathay cine dere 2 check out the shops coz mitch saw smthg tt she wanted but changed her mind after she had a gd look @ it.. hmm then we saw this shop selling cute toys n bags n stuff dere.. neat! haha bet fel would love the toys dere n i'm sure cindy would luv the bags dere.. should tell her of that place, hmm but the bags rather ex.. oh well, cant expect anything less from a shop dere. Then we took bus 7 from centrepoint to bugis. mitch carried my bag 4 me in the bus coz my shoulder was getting tired.. so nice!! haha muz thank her somehow. Mitch's the best! hehe..

We went bugis street n i saw a top that i really like @ first look so i got it for $23 instead of $25 coz the auntie give me cheaper price haha.. first floor really can push price down.. muz look lyk u really lyk the top i guess haha. Then we went 2nd floor n mitch bought 2 shirts n a pinafore thingy.. she had a fruitful dae todae i believe haha. Then abt 620 dereabt then we left the place for home. Hmmm had a gd time todae, shopping n talking wif her.. n we're gonna hav a s15 girls @ ntu dinner on mon! Fel, wingy, kiki, dency, mitch, shuyu n i r all studying in ntu n all staying in hall! so we should meet up :) yay...

haiz for now need 2 go do tutorial alr.. fri morn i'll go library n print out my notes n tutorial... since printer at home not gd.. hopefully not so long queue if i go early. My nj snr i met in my og who's yr 1 aerospace eng too has alr done his phy tut... i better go start on my tut... honestly, it's only the 1st wk of sch! n the 1st wk is not yet over! haha.. oh wells.

Recent msn nick: time passes, life happens. i'm mean by nature. bcoz i've been hurt once.