~lonely solitude, nostalgic for bittersweet memories~

defn: Unhappy at being away and longing for familiar things or persons
bittersweet: Tinged with sadness
lone: Characterized by or preferring solitude in mode of life
solitude: A disposition toward being alone

~lonely solitude, nostalgic for bittersweet memories~

"looking back at the past, how i wish things didn't have to change between us; i've asked myself countless times: why must we be separated? it's a fact, we can no longer be 2gether again, no matter how much we try, we can no longer go back 2 tt time in life, when we were happy, when we were in each other's company."

"i'm waiting for you here, where are you? Are u waiting too? for my appearance in your life? if only e time when we finally meet can arrive faster... i'm adrift in the sea of time, waiting for you to lift me into your arms, before i sink below... so please hurry, hurry here to save me."

"isn't she lucky this hollywood gal? n they say she's so lucky she's a star, but she cry cry cry wif a lonely heart thinking, 'if there's nthg missing in my life, then y does these tears come at nite?' she's so lucky, but she cry cry cries..."

"i used 2 think i had e ans 2 everything, but now i noe, life doesn't always go my way, feels lyk i'm caught in e middle, tt's when i need your love... all i need is time, a moment tt is mine, while i'm in between."

these few days, have been real tired, always falling asleep in lectures n tutorials, i've changed, not for e better n i really hate this me, but i wouldn't let this bring me down, no way.

bks bks bks

oh yeah, am also reading artemis fowl @ e moment, 1st bk n e arctic incident... yupz, am waiting 2 get e other 2... pretty interesting... also reading comics recently... but well, time 4 studies now, esp wif 6-7 wks thereabt left 2 promos, i need 2 start now... esp after those results 4 ct... anyway cya ppl.

nthg much 2 sae...*

well lyk e title says, i've got nthg 2 sae, but well haven't been blogging in a long while so i guess it's time i blogged again... harry potter n e half-blood prince juz came out, on e 16th of july... i finished reading it on tt sunday, n well... went back 2 sch on mon n every1 was talking abt it... i didn't expect certain classmates 2 b reading harry potter but they were all discussing it... esp e ending... yeah i feel v unfair 4 dumbledore, he trusted him! oh well... guess it teaches us a lesson, believe all u want in a person but don't 4get who he started out as... nay, juz kidding. but well, can tell harry sure matured lots, esp in e last few pages... hope things will b ok in e end...
well, my grad ceremony is 2mrrw, or some refer 2 it as speech day, for mg, it's called founder's day, or rather they arrange e grad ceremony 2 b on e same day as founder's day...
on fri, i went 4 doctor's appointment 2 check out all these 'wounds', yeah all e galz n some guyz out there who noes me would noe wat i'm refering 2... hahaz... almost if not all e galz i noe who've seen me in e past month would noe... they all saw... their observance is amazing i muz admit... well gd thing is tt it's nthg tt bad, it's smthg lyk due to my body itself, then i got bitten by some bug so my body reacted 2 e bite n caused all these things 2 come out... bad news is tt it'll take a few yrs 2 go off... haiz... so much 4 'spotless' skin ... @ least @ e end of it, it wouldn't leave any scars behind... or so e doc says... who noes... hav 2 wait n c...
well, CT... was real bad, got ----, for math, chem, phy n econ respectively... my gp... it's too horrible 4 me 2 b willing 2 publicize it... all of 'em too horrible so i rather not sae here. so i got a tuition teacher, juz had 1st session 2dae, was ok. ok, am tired, shall leave now, bye :)

outing EnJoyeD it!!!

noticed tt my tagboard going haywire, when tag... muz refresh whole page 2 c e new tag... if not click nonstop no use... juz results in too many tags... haiz... tried fiddling wif it, didn't work... still e same old prob, srry ppl, guess we all juz hav 2 bear wif it til i find a better one
2dae, 1/7, had outing!!! went 2 meet up wif 67 after their math paper then went over 2 orchard where we had lunch at pastamania... we spent lots of time deciding where 2 go- as usual... when will this change? haiz hopefully soon. okies, then we went watch movie -WaR oF e woRldS... it raWkS!! no kidding, dun listen 2 mh... she actually said she felt lyk SleePINg!!! sheesh... it was lyk felt so highstrung thru out movie... it's juz tension from start 2 end... lyk e guyz said, their fight 4 survival is really portrayed very vividly, clearly. not a minute of rest b4 some other crisis befalls e ray n his family... it was lyk woah... tensed up thru out movie! well, then we took neoprints twice... damn hot in e booth they still take so many times... sheesh... then went heeren walked ard in hmv b4 alice, yj n i left... yupz... it was lyk 6 by tt time... amazing how time flies... esp when u're juz stoning ard n waiting 4 'em 2 make up their mind abt where 2 go... but well it was gd being back wif 67, enjoyed every minute tt i had chatting wif 'em again... well kinda regret not watching movie wif 15 but i guess... there'll always b a next time :) we should b optimistic hehe, anyway ta ta now.

wheeee... time 2 hav fun!

yupz, i'm totally ready 2 juz stay home n while my time away... luv e long wkend... sch'll b dreadful when we hav 2 go back... haiz... wat wif phy spa coming up... bUt tt's things 2 worry abt in e future, not now, not here, not in e present! shall attempt 2 begin blogging again... but no guarantees... stuff will always get in way... which is kinda sad considering how young this blog is :( nvm, there'll b time. well back 2 e usual... realise i'm always complaining, talking abt hc, archery n sometimes nj... i guess tt's wat my life is all abt... hmm shall attempt 2 talk abt other stuff, laTer.
a quick update on wat's going on in:
-archery = trng during hols were everydae
= hard work paid off, i did my 'personal best' in comp even though it was lyk ranked 31 out of dunno how many, abt 60-70. lousiest of all e nj shooters but wat e heck.
= team event, i was in e galz team, 1st shooter some more so nervous, other teams damn noisy, keep cheering nonstop even if their members' arrows didn't hit e board. nus, ntu, tp n many more. well too bad 4 nus/ntu, not gonna join their archery club when i reach tt lvl :P.
= being 1st time participants, we didn't expect much outta this comp... n well we sent 3 teams, 2 guys', 2 galz' team... out of which 1 of e guyz' team got 4th overall, same position as e galz' team... 4 vs 4... not bad at all even though we were quite disappointed at having missed getting e medal... in order 2 show mrs cheng tt she's wrong.
-school = common tests.... quick summary...
= G.P. okay.
= math NoT ok -40 marks alr, outta 100... chem NoT ok -26/80 alr...
= econ, quick satisfied, after doing e essay, quite happy wif it.
= phy... So NoT oK... paper 1 was ok... -12/40m(if tt's considered ok...) n paper 2 was E killer... every qns dunno how 2 do... formulas dun seem 2 b able 2 work... sigh looks lyk this is e 1st time i'm gonna fail my exams... max fail 3 subj, min, fail 1 subj... either way still fail... wat can i say? i tried my best considering i only had 6 days after all tt archery trng 2 study... haiz.
-my life = went out wif nj class 2dae after e phy paper... quite a lot of ppl went... well, went ps 2 eat n they went 2 watch movie(either war of e world/a lot lyk luv) some watched war, e rest watch luv... yeah. i didn't go... not interested in those movies plus dun wanna waste money... lousy excuse... 2mrrw might b going 2 watch movie wif hc class also... so juz making sure e movie i watch will b smthg i haven't watch b4... tt doesn't make sense... heck care.